domingo, abril 30, 2006
[ 1168. I Think Its A Pity ]
I'm blogging too much. I'm blogging too much. I'm blogging too much. I'm blogging too much.
Got home at 7am this morning, and i have consort again at 1 later. Simply detest this feeling of waking up with a heavy head, bursting throat, and eyelids that loves to close. It never fails to make me feel melancholic, even if the weather is bright and sunny out there.
Oh yes, the weather's pretty erratic recently people. Drink more water, take care of yourselves k. Especially those choir peeps out there. It really doesn't pay to lose your voice at this juncture, when the going is about to get tougher with olomouc coming up.
To my church pals. Sorry, doubt i'll be seeing you guys for a while. I miss you people. Coffee some day? Drop me an sms. =D
I, me, myself. It's always about this unholy trinity. Dammit. Where's that thin line between taking pride in oneself and being self-centered?
It's difficult, that's why we often say, it's a gift to be simple. |
Shannon left at 11:11 a. m..
sábado, abril 29, 2006
[ 1167. Supper ]
Last night's supper was super. =) Thanks kt, ks and dn for the great time. lols.
Had a wonderful sleep last night. Lols. Never slept so long for such a long time le. hahahahahas. So well, today shall be a great day! Nothin's gonna stop me from enjoying today... lalalalala...
Food for thought: politics, like diseases, is prevalent everywhere in the world. It's how you bring it under control and let yourself not be affected by it. ;) |
Shannon left at 12:35 p. m..
viernes, abril 28, 2006
[ 1166. Dizzed ]
i freakin do not appreciate it when you pushed me away, when all i wanted to do was simply to ask your boy how was things going. I know you're protective over him, but that's too much.
Don't blame me for being cold to you.
Decisions are often cruel. But at times like this, professionalism and objectivity has to be in place. Would you have done the same? Think about it. |
Shannon left at 7:57 p. m..
jueves, abril 27, 2006
[ 1165. Trust ]
If i trust you, i don't deserve your trust. Cuz i betrayed your trust, i think.
If i love you, i don't deserve your love. Cuz i've neglected your love, i think.
I liked you. But it'll only remain there, cuz it's wrong. I will stay in control of myself. Not to fall like what i did back in 2004. |
Shannon left at 9:32 p. m..
[ 1164. Disputes ]
Misunderstandings, disputes, differences. Aren't they all the same, my friends? All arising due to difference in opinions, and when both parties are only interested in believing what they want to believe.
Just yesterday, i was preparing to start a project going on for my normal tech class. Even before i stepped into the classroom proper, there before my eyes, two girls and a boy was having a shouting match outside the classroom, albeit one-sidedly. The boy was clutching on the handle of the door, as if seeking it for refuge while the two girls ferociously lashed out on him one after another. it seemed like mean girls at its max. When i grabbed the boy from the door and stopped the girls from verbally swallowing that poor soul up, i demanded an explanation. It was over a very minor issue. Calling of names, unnecessary comparisions, and the lack of graciousness were the issues, to be exact. Despite my presence, the girls continue to snap at that boy, and demanded an explanation why he called them (one of them, actually) a prostitute. Crumbling under pressure, the boy started clinging on to the door yet again and cried.
I sent the two girls back to class, and dragged the guy down to the nearest bench downstairs and sat him down. Leave him with some tissue paper and time alone to calm him down, i went back to the zoo of a class with a really stern face, and set the entire bunch of monkeys standing up with the threat of making them putting their fingers to their lips. The powers of a teacher is indeed amazing. Setting them a chapter of text to read in my absence, i returned to the red-eyed boy and getting his side of the story. This was a simple task, especially when you're dealing with a sobbing boy who obediently answers your every question. Dealing with the girls proved to be more challenging. Obviously girls with the potential to roam the streets with a parang on one hand and a cigerette to her heavily painted lips. Even when i was talking to them, one of them couldn't stand still at all. Even right in front of me, she'd have the cheek to blatantly walk away from me even as i was speaking. Being furious was one matter, but i had more than enough problems on hand to deal with her for her dismeanour then. My goal was simple: to ask them how do they want to resolve the issue peacefully. To my dismay, they said there was no way. One of the girls even threatened to fight with him. All those innocent notions of friends and classmates and class integrity was convenient thrown out of the window already. And you'd think, where's the innocence of these secondary 1 students? Being a teacher certainly has its perks though. I imposed upon her, "since it's my class, you play by my rules." Any hints of fights, arguments and troublemaking for either party will send them to the middle of the quadrangle during my lessons. And speaking of which, i sent two guys from the class to the quadrangle since they were running all around the class dispite all the threats and punishments in place.
Arranging for both sides to talk things out, i chose to bring them just outside the staff room. Probably intimidated, the trashing session was milder than i expected. The poor boy, obviously clueless about how to resolve this issue, was once again bombarded by the girls, before i imposed a one-person-talk-at-a-time policy. Both sides were clearly adamant in not acknowledging their wrongdoing in this issue. With not much of a choice, i ended the entire saga making both sides promise no funny business towards each other within the confines of the school.
A compulsory debrief of such matters was of course necessary to the whole class. Lecturing following, before i let them go. And one of the girls clearly commented, loudly enough for my ears, "aiyah, we normal tech students no hope one wad."
Such facets of life is simply so sad. And to think, they are only thirteen.
In retrospect, i realized this issue was actually simpler to handle. At least as a teacher, i had certain powers over the students. I had my say, and my word were law in my classroom. But outside of which, especially when you're merely an acquiantance, matters are not always easily mediated. More especially so when the issue was not much of a big issue at all. It's just a difference in opinions.
Humans are just soooo. stubborn. Like myself. |
Shannon left at 9:46 a. m..
miércoles, abril 26, 2006
[ 1163. Dinner ]
Dinner with the biznet people was pleasant. Joined them after their cell, so i popped by smu foodcourt to looked for them. While the gals went to study, chris myself and jo went for coffee at tcc after dinner. I was telling them, it's been eons since we last hung out, chill and have some coffee. Chris had this very nice coffee with red bean inside. The red bean were pretty sweet, with a dash of cocoa taste. Taste pretty much chocolaty, if you asked me. We just idled and talked about some stuff. About the same stuff actually: church, friends, life, school, exams (though i'm not having any), and the good old days. Hahah.
I must be getting old le. I've been mentioning the good old days far too many times. =p |
Shannon left at 10:02 p. m..
[ 1162. Elephant Jokes ]
Q: What does Tarzan say when he sees a herd of elephants in the distance? A: "Look, a herd of elephants in the distance"
Q: What does Tarzan say when he sees a herd of elephants with sunglasses A: Nothing. He doesn't recognize them.
Q: What does Tarzan say when he sees a herd of giraffes in the distance? A: "Haha! You fooled me once with those disguises, but not this time!"
Q: What is the difference between en elephant and a plum? A: An elephant is grey.
Q: What does Jane say when she sees a herd of elephants in the distance? A: "Look, a herd of elephants in the distance"
Q: What does Jane say when she sees a herd of elephants in the distance? A: "Look! A herd of plums in the distance" (Jane is colour blind)
Q: How many elephants does it take to change a light bulb? A: Don't be stupid, elephants can't change light bulbs.
Q: How many elephants does it take to screw in a light bulb? A: Two, but you need a real big bulb.
Q: How do you get four elephants into a Mini? A: Two in the front, two in the back.
Q: What game do four elephants in a mini play? A: Squash
Q: How do you get an elephant into the fridge? 1. Open door. 2. Insert elephant. 3. Close door.
Q: How do you get a giraffe into the fridge? 1. Open door. 2. Remove elephant. 3. Insert giraffe. 4. Close door.
Q: How do you know there are two elephants in your fridge? A: The door won't close.
Q: How do you know there are three elephants in your fridge? A: There'll be one waiting outside in the Mini.
Q: How can you tell that an elephant has been in your fridge? A: By the footprints in the butter.
Q: How do you get an elephant into a VW? A: Open the car door, put the elephant inside, close the door.
Q: How do you put an elephant into a fridge? A: Open the VW door, take the elephant out, close the VW door, open the fridge, put the elephant inside, close the fridge.
Q: How do you get 4 elephants into a Volkswagen? A: 2 in the front and 2 in the back
Q: How do you know if there are 3 elephants in your fridge? A: Can't get the fridge door closed.
Q: How do you know if there are 4 elephants in your fridge? A: There's a VW parked outside it.
Q: How do you get 8(!) elephants in a fridge? A: Put four in a VW, four in another VW, put the two VW's in the fridge, A fridge large enough to hold two elephants can surely hold two VW's!
Q: How do you get Tarzan in the fridge? A: Open door, get two VW's out, put Tarzan in, close door.
Q: How do you know Tarzan is in the fridge? A: You can hear Tarzan scream OYOYOYOIYOIYOOOOOO
Q: How do you get two Tarzans in the fridge? A: You can't, silly. There is only one Tarzan!
Q: Why are there so many elephants running around free in the jungle? A: The fridge isn't large enough to hold them all.
Q: How many elephants can you actually put in a fridge? A: Depends on the number of elephants.
Q: What did the fifth elephant in the VW discover? A: The sun roof.
Q: The Lion (king of the animals) gathered all the animals for a meeting, all of them showed up except the elephants. Why? A: They were stuck in the VW.
Q: How many giraffes can you fit in a VW? A: None, the elephants are in there!
Q: How many elephants can you fit into a Mercedes? A: 5. Two in the front, two in the back, and one in the glove compartment.
Q: How do you get an elephant out of the water? A: Wet.
Q: How do you get two elephants out of the water? A: One by one.
Q: Why do elephants wear shoes with yellow soles? A: So you don't see them when they float upside down in a bowl of custard.
Q: Why do elephants live in herds? A: To get a wholesale reduction on the shoes with yellow soles.
Q: Have you ever seen an elephant floating upside down in a bowl of custard? A: No, of course not. well then, it must be effective!
Q: Why do elephants wear tiny green hats? A: To sneak across a pool table without being seen.
Q: How do you smuggle an elephant across the border? A: Put a slice of bread on each side, and call him "lunch".
Q: What should you do to a blue elephant? A: Cheer it up!
Q: What do you do to a green elephant? A: Wait until it's ripe
Q: What should you do to a red elephant A: Stop telling it dirty jokes.
Q: What should you do to a yellow elephant? A: Try to teach it to be brave
Q: How do you shoot a blue elephant? A: With a blue elephant gun, of course.
Q: How do you shoot a red elephant? A: Hold it's nose till it turns blue and then shoot it with a blue elephant gun.
Q: How do you shoot a white elephant? A: Tell it dirty jokes till it turns red, then hold it's nose till it turns blue and then shoot it with a blue elephant gun.
Q: How do you shoot a yellow elephant? A: Ever seen a yellow elephant?!!!
Q: Why are elephants wrinkled? A: Have you ever tried to iron one?
Q: Why did the elephant fall out of the tree? A: Because it was dead.
Q: Why did the second elephant fall out of the tree? A: It was glued to the first one.
Q: Why did the third elephant fall out of the tree? A: It thought it was a game.
Q: And why did the tree fall down? A: It thought it was an elephant.
Q: Why did the elephant cross the road? A: Chicken's day off.
Q: What was the elephant doing on the motorway? A: About 5 mph
Q: Why don't elephants ride bicycles? A: They don't have a thumb to ring the bell…
Q: What do you call two elephants on a bicycle? A: Optimistic!
Q: What do you get if you take an elephant into the city? A: Free Parking.
Q: What do you get if you take an elephant into work? A: Sole use of the elevator.
Q: How do you know if there is an elephant in the pub? A: It's bike is outside.
Q: How do you know if there are two elephants in the pub? A: There is a dent in the cross-bar.
Q: How do you know if there are three elephants in the pub? A: Stand on the bike and have a look in the window.
Q: What do you get if you cross an elephant with a whale? A: A submarine with a built-in snorkel.
Q: What do you know when you see three elephants walking down the street wearing pink sweatshirts? A: They're all on the same team.
Q: How do you know if there is an elephant under the bed? A: Your nose is touching the ceiling.
Q: How do you know if there's an elephant in bed? A: He has a big 'E' on his pajamas jacket pocket.
Q: Why do elephants wear sandals? A: So that they don't sink in the sand.
Q: Why do ostriches stick their head in the ground? A: To look for the elephants who forgot to wear their sandals.
aQ: How do you make a dead elephant float? A: Well, you take 10 dead elephants, 10 tons of chocolate ice-cream, 5 tons of bananas,.....
Q: How do you get an elephant on top of an oak tree? A: Stand him on an acorn and wait fifty years.
Q: What if you don't want to wait fifty years? A: Parachute him from an airplane.
Q: Why isn't it safe to climb oak trees between 2 and 4 in the afternoon? A: Because that is when the elephants practice their parachute jumping.
Q: What is a furry alligator? A: A bear that went into the woods at 3 o'clock.
Q: Why do ducks have flat feet? A: From stamping out forest fires.
Q: Why do elephants have flat feet? A: From stamping out flaming ducks.
Q: What's grey and puts out forest fires? A: Smokey the Elephant.
Q: Why are elephants feet shaped that way? A: To fit on lily pads.
Q: Why isn't it safe to go onto the lily pads between 4 and 6 in the afternoon? A: That's when the elephants are walking on the lily pads.
Q: Why are frogs so short? A: They go onto the lily pads between 4 and 6 in the afternoon.
Q: What time is it when an elephant sits on your fence? A: 5 O'clock (trick question - not "Time to get a new fence..")
Q: How do you stop an elephant from charging? A: Take away his credit card.
Q: Why do elephants have trunks? A: Because they would look silly with glove compartments.
Q: What do you give a seasick elephant? A: Lots of room.
Q: What do you get when you cross an elephant with an ant? A: A dead ant.
Q: What has two tails, two trunks and five feet? A: An elephant with spare parts
Q: What is more difficult than getting an elephant into the back seat of your car? A: Getting TWO elephants into the back seat of your car!
Q: What happens when an elephant sits in front of you at the movies? A: You miss most of the picture!
Q: What did the peanut say to the elephant? A: Nothing, peanuts can't talk.
Q: How do you know when an Elephant has been in the baby carriage? A: By the footprints on the baby's forehead!
Q: What is beautiful, gray and wears glass slippers? A: Cinderelephant.
Q: Why do elephants float down the river on their backs? A: So they won't get their shoes with yellow soles wet.
Q: How do you get an elephant out of a tree? A: Stand it on a leaf and wait until Autumn.
Q: Why do elephants wear red toenail polish A: Oops sorry! No Polish jokes allowed!
Q: Why do elephants paint their toenails red? A: To hide in cherry trees.
Q: How did Tarzan die? A: Picking cherries.
Q: What is the difference between an elephant and a pickle? A: Their color of course!
Q: What do you get if you cross an elephant with a kangaroo? A: Big holes all over Australia.
Q: What kind of elephants live at the North Pole? A: Cold ones.
Q: What is convenient and weighs 20,000 pounds? A: An elephant six-pack.
Q: What is the difference between an Indian and an African elephant? A: About three thousand miles.
Q: What is the difference between an elephant and a piece of paper? A: You can't make a paper airplane out of an elephant.
Q: How do elephants talk to each other? A: By 'elephone.
Q: What do elephants do for laughs? A: They tell people jokes
Q: What is large and gray and goes round n round n round n round? A: An elephant stuck in a revolving door. |
Shannon left at 8:54 a. m..
[ 1161. World Peace ]
The truth is usually ugly. That's the hideousness of human nature.
Human relations can be such a pain in the neck. I see no point in spending large amount of time around the table when both sides refuse to come clean with their opinions. It's so bloody obvious.
And me being me, i'm just impatient with the entire proceeding. It ended on a peaceful mood, and it surely pissed me off. Ok, maybe it's a hot negative feeling of how come i'm being dragged into this whole issue. But then again. Haaizz. Never mind.
Gals. Don't be angry la. It's nv my intentions to offend you gals. Really. Sorry if i did. I'm just stating facts to the best of my knowledge. Which i realized, wasn't necessary, in retrospect.
The end. |
Shannon left at 7:12 a. m..
lunes, abril 24, 2006
[ 1160. Toil ]
Went home on a cab at 1030pm last night. Kudos to kelvin who footed the bulk of the bill. Generous dude, one again. Kudos to nelson for the dinner at expo. And for the use of his place for our weekly mahjong sessions.
Yesterday's practice was actually not too bad. Thankfully the tenors didn't collapse. In fact i think everyone tried their best. But i'm just not very satisfied with my own performance. Pitching problems, especially for ave maria, and singing wrong notes here and there. No support at all. Too tired to properly hit those high notes. And i could feel myself cracking at notes like E. Super drained by the high notes after ave maria. And revision of the old songs were like horrible. Super rusty. Didn't help at all. So after practice was pretty sianned. Tried not to think too much, especially entertaining all those horrible thoughts such as if i should be singing in a choir at all. Mj did help to distract me a lil, hehs.
I need to improve. I need to sing better. I want to sing better.
And today when i'm teaching i felt a strain in my throat. And that irritated the hell out of me. It's just so tiring to have to compete with a combined force of 40 noisy lil kids yakking away. So i slammed the duster on the board. And spoke. And glared. And i think that worked. At least i didn't have to scream and strain my voice again. If this goes on indefinitely, i'm gonna be a bass soon. Dammit. NOOOOO.
Haaaizzz. Every now and then i'll have insecurities when it comes to singing. And i know that my standard probably is barely passable for consort. how? hmmmm.
Let's not dwell on it bah. try la. |
Shannon left at 10:46 a. m..
sábado, abril 22, 2006
[ 1159. Upset ]
Booked. Without me. When i said i wanted. When i said give me a ring.
Felt so totally forgotten, neglected at that instance.
But it's her nature. Forgetful at times. After all, i'm always the one demanding certain attention from her.
I tried to move on so many times. But it seems to hard each time. |
Shannon left at 11:51 p. m..
[ 1158. Pain In The Neck ]
Literally, my neck's aching. That's the result of sneezing too much. I went to school this morning to mark some books, after realized that i made the blunder of collecting 160 workbooks + practical books in the same day from 2 classes together. Sharks.
Did some brief calculations for my finances, mainly to estimate how much i will be earning in this couple of months and how much i have to spend for olomouc. Looks like i just scraped through the black line. And with a lil bit of manipulation and convincing of mommy dearest, maybe i'll get a lil more free cash on hand.
I think my schedules is pretty hyped up from this coming week onwards. It's either tuition, driving or choir everyday. Hahaha. But it beats staying home, lazing around and feeling so restless and directionless. Good, good.
Ahhh. credo's really nice... sweet melody with a tad of mystery. or melancholy. can't find the right vocab. hahas. looking forward to sing with tp.
ouch. my neck's still aching now. Dammit. God, heal it!!
Just thought i'll post a couple of inner thoughts that i've been entertaining. Not very philosophical ones, but just some random flashes that sometimes i'd very much love to scream at some people. specific people, to be exact...
First one.
you. you. you. i know we are just buddies. good friends. whatever you call it. but frankly, i still hope that it's possible b/w us one day....
Second one.
Moods, like pendulums, will go up and down regularly. Friends understand if you do feel moody at times, but you gotta learn to pick yourself up. It's just plain unhealthy for anyone to be always so moody. And i think you're being choosy in your choice of friends. People can tell if you choose to keep a distance fom them. Emotional distance, that is. Although i don't say it, sometimes i feel irritated that you beat around the bush just to avoid opening up. I'd rather you tell me in the face that you don't wanna open up. to me.
Third person.
Short and sweet. Don't drink your life away. We all love you, that's why we are telling you this.
Next one.
Sometimes i just don't feel like going all the way to ntu because there's push and pull factors involved. The people just ain't attractive. Socially. And costs. And time. Frankly, mj's a lot cheaper, though the distance is about as far also. And choir's cheaper too. Hahahaha. I'm a relational yet pragmatic person, so if the people that i travel for is worth the money and time, i'll go no matter how far it is, how much it cost. And frankly... it's not you guys that i'm here for. It's the people that i got to get close to in the past years, in the past ministries. They are the ones that are keeping me here mainly.
Fifthly.
though i'm just kpo and curious, frankly i don't really give a damn who's gay and who's not. just that by knowing at least i know who i can joke around with and who i can't.
And a few more. But i'm tired of typing. And i'm preparing for repercussions already.
'nuff said. |
Shannon left at 2:03 p. m..
jueves, abril 20, 2006
[ 1157. Routine ]
When life has set itself in the equilibrium of routineness, naturally there's less thing to blog about. Daily schedules has tired me out physically, and sadly, nothing mentally stimulating.
Lalalalalala. I'm looking forward to consort practice this sunday. Though i have half a feeling that ave maria will sound horrendously painful. Quoting weiwei, "every consort practice is like a tribal council, and the tenors will feel the most vulnerable at that point." Hmmmm. No comments. Lolx.
Teachers walking in, teachers walking out. While i'm blogging here at mom's table. How smart.
What's on for today? Hopefully i'll have driving lessons today. And i'll have to tutor steven tonight. 2 practicals tomorrow. tp choir prac tml. Oh, and i'll have to remember to collect the homework from the kids tomorrow. Ahhhh. |
Shannon left at 10:35 a. m..
lunes, abril 17, 2006
[ 1156. Sore Throat & Memories ]
I can feel my throat going so sore.................... *croaks*
sore throat leh. throat sore leh. so sore leh. throat so sore. sians.
how to sing this sunday?!?! summore weiwei's not going!!! *cries* probably gonna get scolding from nelson le. haizz.
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i realized that i blog obsessively. but then again, it's not entirely true. i don't desperately look for internet access to blog whenever i'm overseas. but it's something that i always do when i'm at home, with readily available internet access.
and i miss chris. i miss enghow. i miss mingxiu. i miss bowen. i miss joseph. i miss sheral. i miss carrie. i miss the pre-tertiary people. i miss studying at the airport with you people. i miss omega. i miss my blue team with people like shuyuan and johnson. i miss the pre-omega chalet we had at downtown east. i miss the post-pop chalet we had after passing out from tekong. i miss scolding mingxiu when i teach her math c. i miss buying coffee at three am to keep us awake and warm at the freezing airport. i miss sleeping at the viewing gallery while you gals hit your econs notes. i miss having breakfast at jln kayu after a night of studying. i miss dinners at airport bk. i miss suppers at jln kayu. i miss the lengthy sms chats we always hold. i miss bookout days where we'll wait for each other to have dinner at white sands. i miss sharing cab home from white sands. i miss my pop when chris came to watch enghow bowen hongyao and myself pass out. i miss sheral's birthday celebration. i miss the crazy sprints at winfield hall. i miss coffee days at coffee club taka. i miss prayer sessions at the void deck of bras brasah complex flats. i miss running around plaza sing and seeing someone scream 'buy and throw away' outside bata. i miss spending the night at a hotel in sentosa with enghow and his family. i miss the brothers outing at sentosa.
melancholy again? no. just being grateful for all these precious memories. but can i relive them again? no. i can only help someone else create such uniquely wonderful memories. =) and create more for myself as well. hahas.
have a wonderful day! |
Shannon left at 12:43 p. m..
domingo, abril 16, 2006
[ 1155. Song ]
"I don't wanna run away, but i can't take it, i don't understand if i'm not made for you, then why does my heart tells me that i am is there anyway that i can stay in your arms..."
what an old song. but it's pretty nice i think. very dreamy, very mel~ =) |
Shannon left at 8:04 p. m..
[ 1154. Birthdates ]
Your Birthdate: September 3 | You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper. You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality. Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure. Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone.
Your strength: Your larger than life imagination
Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered
Your power color: Lime
Your power symbol: Lightening bolt
Your power month: March |
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Shannon left at 2:18 a. m..
sábado, abril 15, 2006
[ 1153. Bimbo ]
(Let's do something bimbotic today.)
Aiyoh!!! Gosh. i ate sooooooooo much today. Now i'm feeling like a FAT PIG. Eeeeeks. can't believe that i actually ingested all that yucky disgustingly pathetically oily food, no, stuff into my already size 48 stomach. YUCKS. Ahhh.. lemme recount what i ate today ah....
1) Chicken cutlet 2) Pancake 3) Tons of sweets 4) Phad thai 5) Chicken strips plus fries
OMG! That's like sooooooo much right?!?!?! I'm sooooooooo going to get sooooooooo fat. Haiz. Think i'm going on a diet this week. No more fastfood. No more breakfast. Cuz i'm just toooooooo lazy to exercise. Haiz. So lazy and yet so vain. Can't stand myself too. Eeeks.
And to chris: haha... mr d looks so cute... lol.... hahahaha... =PppPPp |
Shannon left at 11:00 p. m..
[ 1152. Ruhui ]
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Shannon left at 12:36 p. m..
[ 1151. Phone Call ]
One phone call to piss me off and to end my fantastic day. F.......... never mind.
"as a friend la, i think your post in the forum sounds a bit arrogant. i dunno la. maybe it's the placement of words."
screw it. i deleted the post.
sians. think my day's pretty screwed up. dunno why. just think my conversational/relational/wadever skills has just taken another dip. i really really dunno where i stand. feel so freaking unwanted. left out. wrong frequency. and trying too hard. to talk to everyone. make everyone feel at home. at ease. why can't i just comprehend that some people jsut don't want to have much to do with me. whatever.
feel that i can't click with anyone. suddenly.
feel so anti-social. rather, rejected by society. feel that i just totally suck at talking to people. writing unthreatening forum posts. making innocent comments.
if only i'm deaf and dumb. dammit. |
Shannon left at 1:08 a. m..
jueves, abril 13, 2006
[ 1150. Be Nice To Your Teachers ]
Students, it pays to be nice to your teachers.
I know, especially at a secondary school level, that you're not interested in classes. All it matters to you is simply your friends, having fun in the classrooms, making a joke out of teachers, bullying young and relief teachers and many more mischief.
I'd prefer to believe that jc students are a LITTLE more mature. At least, they are more intelligent, having scored at most 20 points for o levels. And more importantly, you don't have to explain the meaning of co-ordinates to them. Or tell them what's the purpose of y=x+3. Or better still, which is the y axis and which is the x axis.
Students, it pays to be nice to your teachers.
If teachers are in a good mood, anything that is short of the perfect strict teacher's standard is negotiable. And teachers will not even have to think of ways to slaughter you, such as more homework, no going to the toilet. If you place your teachers in a good mood, maybe they'll relent and give less work. Or even more breaks. Or earlier dismissal (which is crucial for pre-recess periods). Or many many more surprises.
If teachers are in a bad mood, don't try to argue. Don't try to think you're an adult. You are the bloody one wearing the uniform, not the teacher. The teachers have an obligation to teach you, not to entertain you. But if they are in a good mood maybe they will. I've teachers who screen cartoons. Who screen movies. Who gives us many many sweets. But of course, there's a price to pay: good behaviour.
Students, it ays to be nice to your teachers.
Because one day, like me, you may have to teach someone else.
Brats.
And i'm not afraid that my students read this. After all, i'm not talking about them. And they can't point fingers.
Brats. |
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miércoles, abril 12, 2006
[ 1149. Relieved ]
Murder. Slaughter. Wring. Slap. Slam. Scream. Throw. Whack. Curse.
Examples of things i'd love to do to technical students. normal acad as well. Express are still pretty desirable.
Teaching in mom's school may not be such a wonderful idea after all. Hmmmm.
Hence, i went job hunting to nyjc, srjc, and tpjc with zhichao today. Sadly, all were KIV cases. |
Shannon left at 7:10 p. m..
martes, abril 11, 2006
[ 1148. Quote of the Day ]
"Being old isnt really that great after all. people sees you and expects you to have done something, achieved something."
That's why i'm forever eighteen. |
Shannon left at 12:41 p. m..
[ 1147. Friends ]
Interpersonal relationships is an intrinsic form of art. A moment to form a friendship, a lifetime of effort to fully comprehend it.
No wonder there's only psychology SMEs, but no relationship SMEs.
Much has been given, i believe, that's why we expect more in return at times. But is it fair to expect returns, to start with?
What are the responsibilities of a friend? And where does it end? |
Shannon left at 1:39 a. m..
lunes, abril 10, 2006
[ 1146. New Blogskin ]
New life, new status, new ic, new blogskin.
Love me, love my blog, love my blogskin people.
Cool's not my middle name, but sometimes life ain't gotta be fanciful all the times.
I came to realize: Simple things matters too. |
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domingo, abril 09, 2006
[ 1145. Sectionals ]
Not very the productive today. Hmmm. Reoganisation required. Ave maria with sops was pretty ok though, at least some form of shape is taking place. So let's hope it all goes upwards from here. *cross fingers*.
Aye aye aye.
Henry!! you're missed!! hahaha. =PpPpppp You just have to see more of MY tongue!! haha. Don't get emo anymore k??!?!?!
Same for you fang jie!!!
Gosh, i'm getting mad. |
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[ 1144. Officially A Free Man ]
As of this moment, i hereby stand here and scream it in your face,
yes, all you who have either ORDed before me / are gonna enlist anytime soon / don't even need to enlist / godknowswhat:
I'm officially a free man.
Free from the clutches of some bloody staff sergeant (non-chinese by the way) who stops us from read newspaper in the office. Instead, he'd rather we stare at the wall or into the ceiling.
Free from arrowing officers who simply love to shoot signal operators.
Free from haircuit, uniform, boots, blah blah blah regulations.
(but not free from ns liability. darn.)
sectionals later on, gotta run. |
Shannon left at 10:49 a. m..
sábado, abril 08, 2006
[ 1143. ORDinary People ]
finally, ninjarians. We are finally ordinary people. Civilians. ;)
This day brings back precious memories of our days back at coyline. It's been a good 2 years, 4 months.
"As we go on, we remember, all the times we spent together..."
May our paths meet again. ;)
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Spent much of the morning in front of the computer, playing a lil maple story and then went on to blog-surf. Went to read my own blog archives as well, racing back to the days of syf 2003. It's bad memories, but in the midst of it, i realized there ARE good memories that came out of it as well....
7th May 2003.
As usual, i tried to blog last night, but blogger is FOREVER down during night-time. I didn't go to school today... i'm too tired and upset... For those who don't know, yesterday was the SYF Central Judging for JC Choirs. For the records:
Gold Finalists: ACJC, NJC, RJC, TPJC, VJC Gold (others): AJC, HCJC, TJC Silver: CJC, JJC, NYJC, SAJC Bronze: PJC, SRJC, YJC
Well... when the results was announced, we were stunned. I guess many really felt disappointed, but the twins try to numb it up by cracking jokes. We really sat in the concert hall for a long time. When we decided to move, we got downstairs, and many of us just broke down and cried. Even mr azahar and mr lim were in a lost, dunno how to console us. I really broke down and cried. It's like... hard work down the drain. C'mon, you are telling us that we are as good as new competitors for the SYF?! Well... i think we deserve better. Goh Toh Chai told us that our basics were not there... haiz. Then what the heck we train so hard for? What went through my mind was that i really dunno know how to go back to college and face everyone. The teachers who had tolerated our drop in standard due to our streneous training, and now they will go tougher on us as "losers who work hard but no results". Other students from other CCAs who always take us as the underdogs, and most importantly, i really didn't know how to face my own choir members, and break the news to them. I knew they'd be heartbroken. I really was in a lost... then i broke down... not to mention everyone else... When we got back to college, as we walked in, peixuan's friend just asked her how was it, and she was so disturbed that she broke down again... chuhui and mabel had to fight back their tears and pull her into the toilet... lip hang and myself found the choir members all sitting by the concourse... you know, when we finally broke the news everyone eventually just sat down and cried... and the VP and P had to lecture us on 'life's big theory' instead of consoling. I mean, what the hell, when we are all so damn disappointed and you come and rub salt on our wound?! YOU ARE OUR PRINCIPAL AND VICE PRINCIPAL AFTER ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!! You know, when things were getting better over the weekend after what happened on saturday, we thought we might had a fair chance... but SYF's not about quality... it's politics. Like what i told mr azahar... thisi s a harsh world. Just like our A level results... people are not going to give a damn about how much time you spent studying... but ultimately they always reflect based on your cert. You get good grades, you are worth something, if not, don't even think about it. It's like... much as they tell us that it's the process that matters... and product don't really count... but it's a fact that the Singaporean society looks at the result. And it's not gonna change... Ya know, it's like, i gotta numb my feelings and chase everyone home today... if not i'm really afraid that someone's gonna scream at the P and VP. Then i gotta continue numbing my feelings and go for my cheerleading practice... i really felt as if God has deliberately let me down time and time again.. it's really not the first time... i'm really discouraged. It's like, it's not only me in the choir, there are so many christians in the choir, but do you have to do this when you know it's a burden in many of our hearts? Haiz... i'm totally speechless. When i saw how badly huiyin was crying today, i really was totally at a loss... it's like, if she, such a strong, girl, can break down, i really fear for the choir... she cried non-stop for at least an hour... And even now when i'm at home typing all these... my mind's in a whirl...
When i saw that i blogged this in the morning, it dawned upon me that i actually skipped school. Without an mc or even a parent's letter. And i remember blatantly telling mom and my ct that i didn't feel like going to school. Can't remember their reaction though. Haha. Skipping lectures i've done many times, but I was never one to skip an entire day's of school la, and hence i think that was the first time i ever did so. Hmmm...
Just barely 3 days later, i had my interhouse cheerleading competition...
9th may 2003
yoz dude and gals!!! hahah... i'm on cloud nine today... yeah... "So let me hear you shout AH ah Ah aH aH!!" hahah... today was our sports meet. And as earlier mentioned, i'm involved in this year's cheerleading for my house. We practised right up to the last minute at the dance studio... And we only had one practice of the 4-man flip of charlyn high up into the air... Lemme give you some more interesting observations also: Pegasus was the smallest cheerleading team. We are the only house with more guys than gals on the team. We even incorperated break-dance into the routine. And guess what... WE ARE THE CHEERLEADING CHAMPS!!!!!!! yeah!!! haha... finally a boost to my morale!~ hehe... never in my life would i expect myself to be in a cheerleading team... Let alone win, yeah... but what i treasure more is the times and the friendship made. Haha... the people there are classic. First let me honour all people by mentioning them on my blog... They are... (drum roll please)... Izati the house captain! Shaikah, Neeta, Lisa the assistants! Shahira, Candice, Charlyn the 'liftees'! Andrew, Andy, Zhu En, Nigel, Suman the break dancers! Justin,Jonathan (and myself) the lifters! And the star of the entire show... Alvin!!!! haha... our dear gymnast-material cheerleader who did 5 backflips in a row... spectacular performance by him. I bet all the gals would want his number by now. Hahah.... hehe... (PS: he's really small and cute though. =/ oh my god... why am i talking about him...) Haha... but i really really am happy... Finally a taste of victory! And i really love all these cheerleaders... even tough we didn't had much practice, everyone really enjoyed themselves, that's all it matters! So just wanna let you guys know... i love you lots!~
15th may 2003
finally.... it's over! WHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... today was really a long day for me. For those still in the dark... (highly unlikely so), srjc has this concert called vibrante II today at VCH... It's a band concert... but yeah, choir's the guest performers. =)
Yeah... after that terrible failure last week, we finally got back on our feet, with no drop in our numbers... and we presented the ideal performance that we wanted to deliever!!! HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!
This three weeks has really been very dramatic... The frustrating times of teaching the j1s the pieces that j2s took three months to learn... The crappy times of bus rides when we sang tian mi mi... The warm times of dinners that we share almost every night at bk... The angry times of misplaced stuff and miscommunications... The sad times when we all sounded badly at our only rehearsal at VCH...
Not to mention our first failure at the syf... getting only a bronze. It took us 4 days to get back on our feet... It took people not form choir to write notices to encourage us... It took someone to write in the whole story to a radio station as a dedication... And it took many sectional leaders to write encouragement cards to their members.
Many times of ups and downs... Many times of fun, laughter, fear and sorrows...
It's all over.... just like a dream.
We as a voce family has rubbed shoulders over these two weeks... I just wanna take this time to really say a big sorry to the twins... I know you meant well for my guys... And perhaps i'm wrong to address the incident in that manner... Forgive me ok...? =)
And to that person out there... I know much has happened tonight... You know how i feel... and i guess i know how you feel too.... Thanks for being who you are...
What a change huh. Well, i had to numb myself anyway. Haha. And as i read more down the days, i really realized that i treasured my choir days. And it's a pity that we don't meet up nowadays anymore. I think it's the same out there as well. Many people just don't take effort to meet up once they are out of regular contact. Hmm... people come, people go. You heard the story about how a person's life can be paralleled with that of a bus journey. You can't expect everyone to stay on the bus from the start till the end all the time... |
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viernes, abril 07, 2006
[ 1142. Insecurities ]
Copied this entire post off a friend's blog cuz it's sooooo totally what i go through most of the times.
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when i'm in my low self-confidence mode (which my friends fondly know as my pms-ing), these are some of the things that run through my head:
damn, i'm fat. i wish i looked better/ i'm ugly/i wish my neck wasn't so fat/i want cheekbones! i'm jealous other people do better than me for half the effort or trump me because of my help but i'm not acknowledged for the help. why does everything turn out bad for me? i wish people liked me more. if only i were cooler/more glamorous. where is my confidence? *pinch stomach* almost 2 years of diet and exercise and STILL there's flab. why is he not mentioning me in that story even though i was the reason there is a story in the first place? my life is a mess. i make stupid choices. i hate myself for being so pathetic.
this is what i can make out from the muddle that is currently my mind. these periods of low self-confidence do strike me every now and then. thank goodness this cycle is almost over. i feel myself getting better. i know because i can now look at some of my doubts and tell myself, 'it doesn't matter.' next stop, the much coveted mental clarity. but even in my days when i'm all bright and cheery again and i don't give a sh*t what the world thinks of me, at the back of my mind, the imminent return of these black days will always haunt me and taint my happiness. mind you, the recovery isn't quite complete yet. still a little oversensitive and impatient, but i keep it all in or at least let it out in a very cold manner. must thank my friends again, cause it's only when i spend time with them is when i realise life is much more than these shallow, superificial desires. it's the feeling of acceptance which incidentally is also what all superficial wants are based on, is worth much more than all the beauty or materialisms in the world. it makes you stronger when you realise there are people who don't think you're a freak.
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and here's another one.
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Have you guys ever felt that you are the only ones going around caring about other people, but don't get the same treatment back? It's not that you guys want your 'care' to be reciprocated, but sometimes if one is a good friend, no matter what happens, a good friend will always take note of his surroundings to see who is feeling down and stuff. For example: the most visible thing is from the MSN nick. For the past week, I've changed my nick more than thrice. But only my dear God-sista Joy (who hadn't been online for quite some time) managed to see what's happening. And mind you, she msged me straightaway after she's online. I asked her how she knows, she said 'it's too easy'. At that point, I was feeling even worse and glad at the same time. She added one more thing: 'Maybe they don't try hard enough'. Yeah I definitely agree to that. Sigh. But nvm it's okay. I'm used to it. |
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[ 1141. Dinner Tomorrow ]
No choice leh. shannon bugged me to ask for dinner. |
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[ 1140. Moodiness ]
Aye. Today got sco prac again. Dun wanna talk about it.
It's one thing to be with people, but another to feel lonely. And it's not the first time that i'm feeling so. And i know what's causing it. Haiz. That makes it even sadder.
And think i'm ain't calling for dinners again. Not for awhile at least. Turn out is so freakin pathetic. |
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jueves, abril 06, 2006
[ 1139. Pink Campaign ]
With my impending ORD, i'm hereby declaring a 5 day pink campaign. I shall wear PINK for five days in a row.... hahaha........ join me in my pink campaign! |
Shannon left at 1:51 p. m..
miércoles, abril 05, 2006
[ 1138. Lyrics ]
Lord i offer my life to you, everything i've been through, use it for your glory. Lord i offer my days to you, lifting my praise to you, as a pleasing sacrifice, Lord i offer you my life. |
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[ 1137. Stepping Back ]
I'm letting myself get too involved with consort and its people, i realized. It's time to step back, take a breather and reflect.
The past two months of leave was eccentric. Though it seems pathetically dull, but there were moments i had separate commitments, and had to make difficult choices. Often my choices were based on pragmatic (read: financial) reasons. In retrospect, most of my weekends in march was actually taken up by choir or choir-related matters. NUS choir, trois chansons, practices, practices and more practices, countless mj sessions, sco concert rehearsals and the upcoming sco concert this saturday, mostly occured on weekends. I was just telling weiwei that i've met him practically everyday since last thursday: thursday for sco prac, friday & sunday for mj, monday for sco prac and last night for tpjc choir prac. And we've been talking quite a bit also. About mj, consort people and consort matters. The more we spoke, the more i'm unsure whether is it right to carry on such demoralising & fruitless conversations that will only lead us feeling even more hopeless. Probably we should retain that 'childlike faith' when we first joined consort: to come together to sing in a choir because we all love to sing.
There's just this fine line between being analytical and thinking too much. We often blur that line and cross it as a result, and deceiving ourselves that we haven't.
I have actually quite a number of projects on hand currently. There's this website that i'm supposed to do for alan, the alpha project survey forms to data-entry, chemistry tuition that i have to prepare lessons for, and the sandy video project that i've just completed. All these on top of my choir commitments. Yet i can't do anything much for these projects on hand all because of the lack of resources. I do not have a laptop to call my own to do the website, as well as the required programs. The same goes for the survey forms. I only have access to mom's laptop either when i visit her at school during the day time, and when i get home at night. It doesn't really help that i'm getting busier in the evenings as well. This week alone, i'll only have friday evening free. (Every other evening is occupied by choir.) It's a horrible feeling to know that you have lots of work to do, and yet when you wake up every morning, you feel so free in the morning not because you want to, but because you have got no choice.
I'm actually secretly hoping that next thursday will come quickly so i can start working. With work around, i'd have no choice but to force myself to sleep early, wake up early, have productive times in school, and busy myself with work. I'm not a good freelance worker, i simply lack the resources and the discipline to do it. And with work, i won't have to spend much time thinking about consort and its people, appearing only when i have to attend practices and making every meet up seemed so much more precious. The recent inundation of meetups with consort people simply follows LDMR: the more we meet, the less meaningful it has become.
Disclaimer, disclaimer. These consortians are actually a nice bunch of people. Weiwei, for one, has become a very fantastic coffee buddy, and is probably one of the few that i can hold deep and serious conversations with in consort. With the younger ones, such as the tenor kids and the tpjcians i run the same problem that i have always had: holding conversations with people younger than me. In fact, sometimes i hate to do that. Not because they are young, but it's just this lack of common topics. And there's also this fear that i'm over-imposing on these youngsters, who has a life of their own to lead. Probably it's this impression thing, i don't want to come across as being over-friendly, as being too bhb and so as to force my way into their life. In summary, it's just a matter of being too self-conscious. That's why sometimes, though people say that i'm an extrovert, i'm actually an introvert at heart. Nonetheless, i give thanks for these new friends i've found. Mj kakis like ks, ww, dn, tiong, sam (whom i haven't played with for long), justin, yc, henry and some others. The tenor sisters shanny, waynnie and mandy. My jie, lingfang. The tpjcians whom i met only once or twice. And many many more people who just smiled, hold small talks with me and bothered to say hi.
Let's shift the lens to the other corner, the ntu group. Poor timing, i'd say. Ever since i've moved to the ntu group, i've been so busy with consort, i actually realized that i've neglected them. And to compound the crime, i haven't even felt bad about neglecting them. I feel alone in the group, though i can see that these people are making efforts to enfold myself and hongyao into the group. Fellowship times in ntu is simply too far. Going there once or twice every now and then is fine by me, but to go down once a week or even more is really painful at times. Each trip actually cost me five dollars, which is not a very kind figure on my ezlink card. And with fellowship groups in evening, i never get to reach home anytime earlier than 11pm on days i have to go ntu. On good days i won't mind. On bad days, it'll really be a struggle for me to go down there. Nothing wrong with the group per se, but i guess it's my fear of commitment and pure distance factor that discourages me from joining them at times. And also the dynamics of the group needs some getting used to. It's been a surprise for me to observe awkward silences during post-service dinners. It's just so... different. Haiz.
I like lively environments, noisy people. I like to be around happening things, making things happen. I like to be around attractive people. It's very superficial, but more often than not they are more interesting people to know, and more expressive in their actions, words and deeds as well. However, sadly, these people are often the ones that live for today alone. When one day we do part on our ways, not many will remember me as a friend i suppose. Though i'm usually able to differentiate between friends and acquiantances, but sometimes (dumbly enough) i'll still give more time and effort in the acquaintances for hope that one day they'll 'upgrade' to being friends.
I like chatting with people online, over msn or emails. It gives me more opportunity organise my thoughts into words, and the courage to voice out opinions and matters that i'd not be able to say face to face. Probably as a result i realized i suffer a communication skill deficency while talking to people face-to-face. Text chats a convenient way to shaft words and opinions into people face, without having to suffer the consequential emotions of the person. And also, the tone of the message is often up to the interpretation of the reader, even if it was punctuated with emoticons and figures of speech. Arguably, it's certainly not the best form of interpersonal communications, just like all official correspondences of any sort.
Enough of reflections. I just can't focus. Even while i was typing this entire chunk, i was msning with at least 3 other people, playing spider solitaire, and checking my email. What kind of focus do you call that?
Yesterday's tp choir's practice was pretty ok. And it was also then i come to know about consort's involvement in tpjc's concert on 31 may. yet another chance to perform. yeay. And yesterday was the first time i heard the male chorus practice. The sound's good but there's just no life in the music. No expression. Probably a common problem in most school groups. Hopefully they'll improve over time, given their frequency of practices. And yesterday prac with the male chorus, then i realized that my sightsinging has improved somewhat, after months of singing with consort. Gee. Sounded pretty rusty yesterday though. Especially my E notes. So urgh. Celtic was damn nice. And super easy to sight sing. The jap song was slightly tougher to read cuz it was fast. Oh, weiwei did a good job upstaging kenny (as expected) during his solo in usuli. Kenny's got a nice tone though, very cheena, very suitable for usuli. Hopefully the tp people gives him a break from all those mocking and he'll perform better. Credo was damn nice too, very soothing and probably one of the most seasoned piece of tp.
Like what i told weiwei, i think i'm just catching up on lost time that i should have experienced during my jc days as a chorister. ;) |
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martes, abril 04, 2006
[ 1136. MCs ]
Secured a job! Haha, coincidentally, mom's colleague will go on pre-maternity leave next MONDAY!! my ord date!! Means i can start work immediately after my ORD. Hallelujah!!
Haha... and i'll get to work till 27 July... wow... that makes a good ten weeks worth of teaching. =D
I still can't believe it.
And well, i'm at mom's table now, which i've been happily enroaching recently since i'm so damn free everyday. and there was this discussion about almost every CL teacher in the dept is taking mc le. Haha. One teacher is down with 2 days, another with 5 days, and another came with a ear infection. Hmmm... haha. teachers are really prone to illness huh.
I feel myself falling sick too. Simply refused to wake up today, so i had to pull myself out from bed to do some housework before coming down here. Woke up with an ulcer in my mouth, and i was contemplating to rub salt on it. But then again, i'm pretty humji so that's out of the question. Office calls plenty of times today, but i switched the phone on silent so i missed them all. And i'm gonna cancel the line soon too. So evil of me.
Ever since i started reading on the jc kids (read: tpjcians) blogs, i realized that my command of the english language has simply went to the pits. If i have to survive in communications in ntu, i had better start doing more serious writing. At the very least, write in a grammatically correct fashion. Or better still, something more substantial instead of mundane stuff.
Gee. It's great to be a student all over again. |
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[ 1135. Breakaway ]
grew up in a small town, and when the rain would fall down, i'd just stare out of my window dreaming of what could be, and if i'd end up happy, i would pray trying hard to reach out, but when itried to speak out, felt like no one cold hear me wanted to belong here, but something felt so wrong here, so i prayed i could break away
i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly i'll do what it takes till i touch the sky and i'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change, and break away out of the darkness and into the sun but i won't forget all the ones that i love i'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and break away
want to feel the warm breeze, sleep under a palm tree, feel the rush of the ocean get on board a fast train, travel on a jet plane, far away and break away
buildings with a hundred floors, swinging round revolving doors maybe i don't know where they'll take me but gotta keep moving on, moving on, moving on
i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly though it's not easy to tell you goodbye i gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and break away out of the darkness and into the sun but i won't forget the place i come from i gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and break away...
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The very song that touched me today. very very meaningful lyrics. |
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domingo, abril 02, 2006
[ 1134. San Dian Dao Jia ]
Wo gang gang dao jia. Da le yi quan ma jiang, chi le yi dian ye xiao, wo cai she de hui lai.
Gei ren shuo le yi xie bu xiang ting de hua. Xin li gan jue you dian men men bu le. Wo zheng bu zhi wen ti chu zai na li. Shi ying wo er qi, huo shi wai lai yin su? Wo zhen de bu zhi dao...
Wo hao kun. Dan you xiang xie ri ji. Wo ye hao xiang ta. Xian zai hao xiang you ge ren lai hao hao de yong bao... kuai er shi yi sui le hai zai ai qing shang you zhe fei chang shi bai de cheng ji biao. Zhen de shi... fei chang shi bai.
Wo qu sui le.
(This post is meant to be nonsense in nature. please ignore.) |
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sábado, abril 01, 2006
[ 1133. April Fools ]
Someone played a nasty sms prank on me at 1 am last night. He said he was going to commit suicide. And i stupidly believed him. And when he said hapy april fools day, i shot back telling him that it wasn't funny when one is sleeping and receive such 'death threats', except, the person's dying was himself.
Well, but then again, i wasn't sleeping at 1 am last night. I slept at 4.
Came back from gender-focus group just now to collect some stuff before heading for church.
And linked up some people on my links list. Because of obligations. Haha. The kind of, since-you-linked-me-i-should-link-you kind of obligations. Lolx. Haha.
Let's talk about our latest addition to xannie's links. Henry Lim. TPJCian, year 1, choir dude, potentially next prez of tpjc choir, or so i heard. First time i ever met him, last saturday's consort practice. He's one of the latest 4 additions to consort. Not that i actually got to know him during consort, but more of during the buffet dinner we had at nelson's place after that when the bunch of us started 'bullying' him by taking his ring and throwing it into the pool. Of course, we aren't all that mean. We retrieved it from the pool for him. Lolx. And the guy with extremely unexplainable luck in mj. Frankly i'd not be able to stand playing with him in the long run if this kind of luck goes on. Lolx.
Oh yes, and he called me 'lao ren' when i went tp last thursday. I feel so sad. =(
On another note. I feel so broke now. Broke broke broke. Unlimited wants. Ok, not exactly unlimited wants. But now with a reduction of resources my ppc have shifted inwards. And i can no longer live the lifestyle of yester-months.
And you know something ironically? i found out that mj is actually a very cheap and affordable activity to indulge in. A game that last me the whole day could actually cost me +/-$5 at most. And usually it's positive. A movie cost me seven bucks. A ktv session twenty over. Clubbing's definitely off now. And even a pack of cigs cost me like 10 bucks. Urgh. Not that i smoke now anyway. So well.
Off to chuch i go... i think i'll be late. Gee. |
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[ 1132. Getting Up ]
Ok xuan, time to move on and smile. =)
Be the cheerful lil guy that you've always been. Don't show that downcast face. Be that life of the party, and stop sulking and whining in front of this laptop every evening, wondering if you should tell your friends that u're feeling down.
And you should spend more time with church people too. So please go down to play games with the uni brothers tomorrow. =)
SLEEEEEEEPPPP!!! |
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