sábado, abril 15, 2006
[ 1151. Phone Call ]
One phone call to piss me off and to end my fantastic day. F.......... never mind.
"as a friend la, i think your post in the forum sounds a bit arrogant. i dunno la. maybe it's the placement of words."
screw it. i deleted the post.
sians. think my day's pretty screwed up. dunno why. just think my conversational/relational/wadever skills has just taken another dip. i really really dunno where i stand. feel so freaking unwanted. left out. wrong frequency. and trying too hard. to talk to everyone. make everyone feel at home. at ease. why can't i just comprehend that some people jsut don't want to have much to do with me. whatever.
feel that i can't click with anyone. suddenly.
feel so anti-social. rather, rejected by society. feel that i just totally suck at talking to people. writing unthreatening forum posts. making innocent comments.
if only i'm deaf and dumb. dammit. |
Shannon left at 1:08 a. m..