gone.
will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.
sábado, abril 22, 2006
[ 1158. Pain In The Neck ]
Literally, my neck's aching. That's the result of sneezing too much. I went to school this morning to mark some books, after realized that i made the blunder of collecting 160 workbooks + practical books in the same day from 2 classes together. Sharks.
Did some brief calculations for my finances, mainly to estimate how much i will be earning in this couple of months and how much i have to spend for olomouc. Looks like i just scraped through the black line. And with a lil bit of manipulation and convincing of mommy dearest, maybe i'll get a lil more free cash on hand.
I think my schedules is pretty hyped up from this coming week onwards. It's either tuition, driving or choir everyday. Hahaha. But it beats staying home, lazing around and feeling so restless and directionless. Good, good.
Ahhh. credo's really nice... sweet melody with a tad of mystery. or melancholy. can't find the right vocab. hahas. looking forward to sing with tp.
ouch. my neck's still aching now. Dammit. God, heal it!!
Just thought i'll post a couple of inner thoughts that i've been entertaining. Not very philosophical ones, but just some random flashes that sometimes i'd very much love to scream at some people. specific people, to be exact...
First one.
you. you. you. i know we are just buddies. good friends. whatever you call it. but frankly, i still hope that it's possible b/w us one day....
Second one.
Moods, like pendulums, will go up and down regularly. Friends understand if you do feel moody at times, but you gotta learn to pick yourself up. It's just plain unhealthy for anyone to be always so moody. And i think you're being choosy in your choice of friends. People can tell if you choose to keep a distance fom them. Emotional distance, that is. Although i don't say it, sometimes i feel irritated that you beat around the bush just to avoid opening up. I'd rather you tell me in the face that you don't wanna open up. to me.
Third person.
Short and sweet. Don't drink your life away. We all love you, that's why we are telling you this.
Next one.
Sometimes i just don't feel like going all the way to ntu because there's push and pull factors involved. The people just ain't attractive. Socially. And costs. And time. Frankly, mj's a lot cheaper, though the distance is about as far also. And choir's cheaper too. Hahahaha. I'm a relational yet pragmatic person, so if the people that i travel for is worth the money and time, i'll go no matter how far it is, how much it cost. And frankly... it's not you guys that i'm here for. It's the people that i got to get close to in the past years, in the past ministries. They are the ones that are keeping me here mainly.
Fifthly.
though i'm just kpo and curious, frankly i don't really give a damn who's gay and who's not. just that by knowing at least i know who i can joke around with and who i can't.
And a few more. But i'm tired of typing. And i'm preparing for repercussions already.
'nuff said.
Shannon left at 2:03 p. m..
the guy
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his wishes
new clothes, new shoes, new bike, new friends, fantastic grades.
macbook, ipod nano, nokia n80, new wallet.
his horizons
malaysia, penang.
australia, brisbane/gold coast.
thailand, hatyai.
malaysia, genting.
malaysia, johor.
malaysia, melaka.
thailand, chiangmai.
australia, perth.
canada, edmonton/cold lake.
australia, rockhampton.
thailand, bangkok.
austria, vienna.
czech rep, olomouc.
austria, salzburg.
germany, munich.
switzerland, zurich.