gone.
will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.
miércoles, diciembre 31, 2003
[ 456. Complicated ]
Sometimes i wonder... do we really complicate things for ourselves? So much so that we can't comprehend...?
Artiste: Avril Lavigne
Song: Complicated
Uh-huh
Life's like this
Uh-huh, uh-huh
That's the way it is
'Cos life's like this
Uh-huh, uh-huh
That's the way it is
Chill out, what you yellin' for
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
And you're talkin' to me one on one
But you become
Somebody else 'sound everyone else
Watchin' your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you you fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get and you turn it into
Honestly, promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it, no, no, no
You come over unannounced
Dressed up like you're something else
Where you are and where it's at
You see you're makin' me
Laugh out when you strike your pose
Take off all your preppy clothes
You know you're not foolin' anyone
When you become
Somebody else 'round everyone else
Watchin' your back like you can't relax
Tryin' to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you you fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get and you turn it into
Honestly, promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it, no, no, no
No, no, no
No, no, no
No, no, no
Chill out, what you yellin' for
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
Somebody else 'round everyone else
Watchin' your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you you fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get and you turn it into
Honestly, promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it, no, no, no
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you you fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get and you turn it into
Honesty, promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it, no, no, no
Shannon left at 1:16 p. m..
[ 455. Friendship ]
Today's the last day of 2003, so as a cliche of annual recollections, i will recall and pen about some of my friendships in 2003.
As i was surfing through some of my closer friend's blogs today, i realized that even though i've given much to some, i've neglected much as well. On the surface i may still call them and message them as and when i like, but am i truly concerned about their lives? Sometimes only. Perhaps it's due to the overwhelming events in my life this year. Well, so resolution for 2004 i guess would be a more genuine concern for the people around me.
2003 marks the 15th year of my friendship with mervin. Think it's really God-given that i have such a long lasting friend. There are also others whom i know for quite long, but not many of these friendship are as deep as this. We were not that close for all these 15 years. Remember when we were young, when someone bullied me, he avenged me and got a cut (or something like that) above his eye brow, resulting in a scar. Thereafter, we were separated to different classes, and led our own lives. I remember appealing to vs because of him. And even as we were in the same class for 3 out of 4 years, we didn't really hang out together before sec 4. In sec 4 we shared a tutor and that was i guess how we started spending more time together. Remember how he told me about how he begged the vsco committee not to sack me even though my attendance was atrocious with a capital A. And how he supported me through even though i met lots of problems while running the vsco camp in sec 4. Though we couldn't go to the same jc, but guess it means that we had to make more effort to meet up. And i'm thankful that the friendship is still growing strong ya? =) Just like that night on xmas eve, he came over to my house and waited for 3 hours for me to come home without complaining. Such friends, where to find? =p Thanks bro!
Another group of people i have to mention is derek, ruiwen, cody, kenny khoo and leslie. These 5 tjcians has gave me the greatest headache, memories, joy, anger and a whole load of interesting feelings for quarter 3 and 4 of my 2003. Getting to know ruiwen was ok initially, ya know, the 'honeymoon' period of getting to know a new friend. You don't really notice all the bad things. Then subsequently got to know cody and kenny. Their relation to derek. Going out occasionally with cody and talking to him over icq in september. Then the crap started when i start hearing things about one another from another person. Things can get pretty confusing when you hear too much, and problems double when these people gets too emotional. While i used to enjoy each of these friendship inidividually, i start to get tired and sick of them when tales of one another surface and confrontations start. When they start questioning me about how i know each of these individuals. When i become a point of blame for events that take place. However, i have to say that leslie is still quite an neutral party at this point in time. Nonetheless, unavoidably, i started to hate tjc. =/
Zhichao, deborah, carl, agnes, and others from the 1s02 / 2s01 class. Didn't have a good relationship with the class previously due to unpaid class funds, non compliance of class standards, big ego, irritant, and much more. Until this year when the class starts to accept me. Really thank God for the change in me and the change in their hearts. I guess the events, especially the one mentioned before this has changed my feelings, thoughts and perceptions greatly. Nonetheless, i really treasure these guys a lot. Here's what sokhui wrote to me on xmas last year:
"hello, bet you know that our class lotsa people don't like you.. sorry, but dun worry, we still treat you as friend, that's why i send this card to you..."
and this was on the card i got from her this year:
"yo! hello! how's life in NS? Er... i wanna tell you something.. about last year how we treat you right... sorry leh... although i may not understand how you feel, i know it must be of no good feeling that time... paiseh leh, hope you will forget that period of time cuz at least now you ain't outcasted by us and in fact, you quite close to zhichao liao, right? heehee... don't think about the past liaoz hor... anyway, wish you the best!"
I'm really encouraged by the change in perception of the class towards me... thank you guys... really treasure you much!
Church pals... i have to frankly say that i feel further from them this year as compared to last year. Perhaps it's due to the shifting generations... many people has come and go, and also due to the declining availability of mine due to A levels, problems, and now NS... This could be seen from the cards i received this year... i bet some of the new people don't even know me. But then again, if i seldom show up, how do you expect people to know me? So well... nothing much to say larz. Hopefully things will turn out better...
Ok, i gotta go grab some breakfast. Ciaoz.
Shannon left at 8:45 a. m..
domingo, diciembre 28, 2003
[ 454. Photos ]
Just a couple of days ago i went to collect some photos from a friend's place. In short i actually asked her for a favour to help scan my photos before the 'A's. And well, naturally she agreed. Took my photos, and put on a disappearing act. While i didn't get my soft copies of the photos, i almost couldn't get back my hard copies as well. And when i finally had the time to go down to her place to collect it, she doesn't even have the decency to pass it to me personally even at her doorstep. That sluggard had to double her maid as her receptionist as well. What heck.
Shannon left at 8:33 a. m..
sábado, diciembre 27, 2003
[ 453. Bookout ]
It's barely 3 days and here i am with my second bookout. Lalalalalala...
I got one good news to deliver. This morning was IPPT categorization test. So what if it's a cat test, i PASSED!!! Hahaha... and i'm the only one in my section who passed. Eat my dust, people. Then again, gotta thank God cuz i had a chance to retake my shuttle run. I failed it the first time round. hahaha.
Hopefully no freak accidents happens during the disruption test. Lalalala. =)
Shannon left at 1:52 p. m..
jueves, diciembre 25, 2003
[ 452. RT ]
Heard news that i most likely have to do remedial training. Heck. Hopefully it's on a saturday instead of a sunday.
Shannon left at 12:22 p. m..
martes, diciembre 23, 2003
[ 451. Rest ]
Today i have the luxury of snoozing at home while the rest of ninja coy sweat it out with circuit training and route march at dear tekong. While, it amazes me at how lazy i am to start penning my thoughts here. Supposedly, i should have lots to say, but seems to find no mood and zeal to type them.
Two weeks at tekong has been an enriching experience i'd summarize. All the waking up early to rush here there and everywhere has become routine quite fast actually. Like what someone said, basically you rush to wait, then you wait to rush again. First few days were lined up with much admin hoo haas. Training is really slack. and i mean slack. When someone finally snapped and went to run on his own around the blocks, he was rewarded with the honour of doing the first guard duty for the coy for taking his own initiative without permission. Learnt to listen to commands, march properly, sing stupid army songs, and also to ensure that the whole company doesn't not send more than 15 report sick each day. Bunk politics started to rear it ugly side from week 2. Cliques start to form and old dirty laundry were all taken out and screamed across the bunk. Some tall self-professed handsome dude with a sheeet girlfriend gathered enough bad blood with some platoon mates within 2 weeks to form a soccer team. Perhaps two. Never mind. Report sick rates were atrocious. First four days we reported a total of 12 sicklings. The OC then came to scream at us for being so sick despite enlisting for only 4 days. On the fifth day we gave him an early christmas gift: a new 13 sicklings reporting sick. He flipped. Thereafter, everyday we had a range of 12 to 14 people reporting sick. Until he promised confinement for anyone who comes back with a normal duty status. The following day, the report sick rate miraculously plunged to zero. Talk about the power of words. Biscuit parties, sweet parties, oreo parties, newspaper parties were the order of the day in tekong. Things were getting into shape... until the day of parent's visit. Almost everyone's parents came. As i saw how the guys got reunited with their parents... i felt quite upset. Why? My parents couldn't come. And my friends were late. For that half an hour i got to wait for that next fastcraft to arrive, i sat there and thought of a lot of things. About army life. About what i want to do. About my family. About church. About God. About the people in my life. About my loved ones. About my platoon people. About myself. About life. About death. About. I dunno. At that point in time, facing the sea, looking at every raindrop falling into the vast expanse of the ocean, i simply felt no purpose in life then. But then again... i told myself i gotta snap out of it. I know there has to be something for me to reach for. Well, i stopped myself form mel-ing any further then. Friends came, talked, ate, and that's that. The next day i was admitted to the sickbay for acute conjunctivitis. I had to be isolated. Doesn't really help when the bunk is hot, boring and the food sucks. they feed you porridge for every meal. Bahh. The only variety i got was that i had chicken porridge for sunday and crabmeat porridge on monday. A grand total of 32 hours in sickbay watching a total of 20 patients coming in and out of the sickbay and 6 person being dripped will certain make you the fastest packer of your own stuff when you are told that you're discharged. As a bonus, i caught a fever and also a ferry home to mainland to my own bed. And now here i am, typing while the rest suffers with circuit training, route march and two fire drills today. Cheers.
Shannon left at 9:55 p. m..
[ 450. Horoscope ]
I was never (and is still not) a follower of horoscope. Ripped this off a close buddy's blog. So let's evaluate it against myself for the fun of it. =)
VIRGO MAN
Time is precious for Virgo man and if you make him wait, he will consider that as an insult. (Yes, i do hate waiting.) He hates to hear criticism and hates to be criticized. (Ahh... yes. i'm myself. no one is to pass judgement on me. =/) If he is criticizing other people, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac. (hmm.)
He is and he likes to be a perfectionist. (Yes. can't stand when things are not done properly.) He always think he is doing the right and appropriate thing, and often he thinks he makes no mistake. (Haha. sad but true.) He is a bright guy and could accept comments if he thinks it can improve himself. (Hmm. another yes.) He is the type who's well adjusted to make changes. (Ok.. this is not very true though it happens sometimes.)
He will spent money carefully and spent it worthwhile. (Sometimes la.) He will only extravagant for his personnel pleasure only. (Ah YES!) He is quite romantic, (ooh. yessss...) a type of guy who can drive 100 miles just to tell you how much he misses you. (Ohh... yesss...) If he does not care about you, he will not even spent a dime to call you locally. (Sad, but true. but seldom do i not care about anyone. =p) Long distant special low rate call is also out of the question.
He hates rough and crude people. (Yes, jansen is an excellent example.) His woman has to be clean and dress well. (that i think so.) He inspects any thing in details beside being a perfectionist, so you could be lying in your bikini with a perfect figure and he can suddenly comments you about your big feet. (Haha... thou shalt not comment.) If you gain 2 pounds , he may comments you are getting too fat. Before going out with this kind of guy, look at yourself head to toe in the mirror and ask yourself if you are really and entirely ready. (Hmmm...)Unless he dates a model, then he will have less comments. (This is quite untrue actually. cuz i'm no good lookin guy myself so naturally expectations are lower.)
He is neat and tidy, so his life always in a schedule, a fix time to lunch, the same time to go home. (I've learnt to be flexible though it still irritates me at times.) He is well knowledge about food and conscious about nutrition, so you won't see this guy eating a junk food, or strange and exotic food for sure. (YESS!!! IF NOT I'LL GET FAT!)
You will see him in social events or party if only necessary. (Nah, this is a bit untrue. i LOVE social events.) He is gifted with acting, so if he says he can not go out with you because he is sick, then you will believe him. (hehe. devious creatures, aren't we?) He is a hard to please when it comes to what to eat, (Ah yes. it must be up to standard please.) how to work, (Another true one. There's only one way to do things. the right way.) what kind of a woman to date. (This is a bit untrue la.) He always neat and tidy all the times, even if he is in the army, he will be the cleanest soldier in the camp. (Hey hey! way to go!) He likes to speak properly with no slang. (Oh yes. sometimes i gotta force myself to speak broken english. =/ ) He hates laziness and lazy people. (Though true, i'm ironically a lazy guy myself.) He always act like a boring mature adults, but getting to know him , you will know he has his own charm. (Ah yesss...)
He always see things clearly, so he is not the type to be blinded by love. (Yupz.) He is a kind and cool guy, but if constantly irritate with rudeness, ignorant, or stupidity then he will show you that he is annoyed. (Try asking my adjacent beds back at tekong about this. They will show you how true is this. =D) You may see a guy in this Zodiac dress up in an old shirt and old Jean, but if you look carefully, you will see that his hair is neat and unconsciously he will touch his hair a lot. (OH YES!) His desk is always neat and if he sees small scrap paper on the floor, he will pick it up or put it in the basket. (Hmm. ya. maybe it's the training of doing area cleaning in tekong 4 times a day.)
People may think he is selfish, because when he says "No", he really means it. (Ok... true... but i seldom say no. i'm quite soft hearted sometimes. depends on the face la.) Any favor asked , he will help but always in his own limit. (Again, it's a matter of face) The more he see faults in others, the less he wants people to see his. (Yes... i want to be perfect.) If you want him to change his faults, try to tell him gently or he could take it as an insult. (Oh yes. anyone who screams my fault in my face bears my wrath for the next three months.)
He wants love that comes with quality, so he only has a few loves in his life. (Oh yes... i never had any steads in my life.) Woman's trick will not work with him. (Yes.) If he breaks up with a woman, he will also try to avoid all her friends and her environments too. (Yes.) He is very picky and every breaking up, he will be double careful next time. (Yes yes yes.)
He can sweep woman with his charm, but he likes to keep his relationship like a friend. He likes a sincere self confident woman, neat and clean, perrfect and tidy. (Yesyesyesyesyesyes.) A real two "P" , picky and perfectionist Zodiac.
Hmmm. quite true i guess. But don't horoscope all work this way? I mean, it's sort of a one-size-fit-all thingy. Well, never mind. What heck.
Shannon left at 10:41 a. m..
lunes, diciembre 22, 2003
[ 449. Tekong ]
Hi everyone. I'M BACK. Yes. No. i got an early book out. Because of a fever. Haha. Congratulate me. Life is really fun at tekong. Trust me. ;)
Shannon left at 10:47 p. m..
martes, diciembre 09, 2003
[ 448. NS ]
Ok. think this will either be my second last or last post before i enlist 36 hours later.
What does this means? This means that no more entries until at least christmas.
Don't miss me. Meanwhile, check out all other blogs that i've linked. They should suffice for the gossip hungry. Enjoy.
Shannon left at 12:39 a. m..
sábado, diciembre 06, 2003
[ 447. Prom Photos ]
As requested. ;)
me and my choir president. Handsome, isn't she?
another choir friend of mine.
victorians vs4h unite. me, marvin and kenneth.
ok. this is weird. this bunch of people are actually from the other end of the science stream. And i don't really know them except for a couple of them. God knows why i took a photo with them. All for the fun, i guess.
the choir photo. notice that 'piano cloth' hanging on that guy from the left.
if you want more... request. if not, enjoy these for the time being.
Shannon left at 1:12 a. m..
jueves, diciembre 04, 2003
[ 446. Tears ]
Now into my 43rd hour of waking hours. Just got home, after getting out of the house for the third time today. Went for a slight dinner with deborah and zhichao. Minutes before i start leaving for home, this feeling just came over me. I dunno why, i just feel as if i don't belong to this crowd. This clique. Not much of a common interest, and most of the times i can't talk without making zhichao feel irritated. I just feel so suffocated and bad. I could also see myself making things better by not being there. Many people has told me not to think so much, but years after years, the same thoughts keep coming back to me. The same feeling of "perhaps others don't need you to be around" never fail to haunt me. Then a virtual video of how htings may turn out without you in the picture start flashing in my mind... and how i look from a distance, looking at how happy others are. The same thing happened again on my way home... i have no more tears to cry out anymore... Sometimes i really want to just give up life and go and meet God. On the other hand... i feel too ashamed to meet God now... though i know He will want to anyway... I feel so aloof... redundant... alone... God, i really wanna see you now...
Perhaps i'm destined to be a lonely person...
Shannon left at 11:23 p. m..
[ 445. Message ]
To Mr LHK,
I have had enough.
I have as much right to my own circle of friends as you do. I am not obliged to tell you how i got to know each of my friends, just as you are entitled to do so as well. No need to talk about anything anymore.
I want nothing to do with you ever again.
Shannon left at 7:01 a. m..
miércoles, diciembre 03, 2003
[ 444. Prom ]
Lolx. tonight's my prom. But i'm not really excited about it. WHY?!
I'm sick. Physically. Fever last night. Really spoilt my day and night and day. Argh.
Somebody help.
Shannon left at 2:39 p. m..
martes, diciembre 02, 2003
[ 443. Back ]
LoLx... barely 24 hours later, the genting party met up for dinner at pastamania funan. Sequels (episode 9 to 11), photo takings at esplanade, lightbulbs, third parties, gossips were the orders of the night. Yeah.
I realize i'm always aunt uncle agony for relationship problems... dunno why also. I mean... i gather this: many wants to be in relationships... but once they are in, they start experiencing the cons of it and they come crawling and complaining of the scratches they suffer from the other tabby or tom... Well, that's all i can conclude for now.
Shannon left at 12:14 a. m..
lunes, diciembre 01, 2003
[ 442. Miss ]
Oh yeah, do you guys miss me anyway? LOLX!!! =p
Shannon left at 1:06 p. m..
[ 441. Back from Genting ]
Whew!! Finally got back from genting... ok, i'm gonna blog a really long entry about this whole trip.
The day before the trip, zhichao came to spend the night at my place. I mean, he was like half an hour late to come to my place, and we were about 1 and a half hours late for the class gathering. Haaa... that's so typical of us. We are like the resident latecomers of the class. So when we finally locate them at sushi tei... zca nd i walked out of the place just after saying hi... just to go the macdonald's and eat my dinner. Gosh. Then the class just went to play pool after that... before we went home at 11...
And yet again... zhichao and i were the latest. We met deb, shirleen, edmund, zequan, his frens sam and aixuan. at about 645am at golden mile center... when i got there... the first shock that was uneeded came along. SOMEONE ELSE BROUGHT THE SAME BAG AS ME!!! Yes, thank you ax. "...!!!!" Ok, and we were on cloud nine when we realize that we were the majority on the bus with 8 of us and 6 other passengers only. So we happily dominate the rest of the seats at the back of the buses with our bags, titbits and more. 7 hours ride. 2 hours spent at our dearest second link. Yes. and we apparently encountered some fine specimens of the st hilda handbell kids at this area... and according to our observation and jenghu's complaints, we gathered a few things. First, they failed the true blue singaporean test by apparently failing to identify the right queue to follow. After all that training at the hello kitty craze and now you dunno where to queue up?! What crap! So using their superb blending skills, they attempted, sadly, with success, to merge in the adjacent queue where we were in. That was followed by twenty people or so who were blindly following them in the queue that didn't exist. That was sufficient to grant them complimentary death stares from us. Second, they can't seems to keep their comments to themselves despite doing their own business. This was certified by our very own jenghu when she paid a royal visit to the toilet at the checkpoint. According to the official statement from jenghu's press secretary, the st hilda kids' gaps didn't shut from the point of entry right up to the exit.
Finally home free and Singapore free... and genting here we come. Titbits, music, daidee, and chess were the orders of the day. Uneventful ride, except that we overtook like 7 buses on the highway, thus reaching the cable car station by 1 something. That cable car ride was fantastic man... "World's fastest cable car and southeast asia's longest cable car" WOW. Jenghu and shirleen got the fright of their life, no thanks to zhichao. Oh, that ride also made zhichao found a new passion of becoming a kamikaze pilot. Oh yes... with a jenghu, of course there must be an fan dui dang... so definitely zhichao rose to that title.
That air up there is cold.... brrrrrr.... and after checking in, we found lunch at macdonald's. And yet another record held by jenghu was that she broke her sandals on our first walk towards first world plaza. So our first task was to buy a pair of shoes for her while for the first time in history jenghu and the opposition stood side by side waiting patiently. Yeah. Lunch was at 5pm at pizza hut.. together with a first class show of how a family took off without paying after a meal. Interesting things you never get to see in Singapore. (Gosh, i'm getting bored of typing this because of my vocab limitations.) First night was kind of slow... So the eight of us met up for dinner at 8pm, settling at this sushi joint. And my goodness... this is the first time the sight of food makes my appetite go away. One interesting thing to note... No one seems to be taking any sushi off the belt, much to our amazement. That was so fun man... we ordered a meal for the four of us, but ended up giving the food to edmund. The power of malaysian genting food. And we blatantly walked out of the restaurant... and waited for them outside, while our four friends struggled to finish their food. Hunt for a decent pool table was fruitless, for there's only one table, and it's damaged. -_-" So bowling was next up, and our room sent only one representative to pit against the whole of the other room... applause to zhichao!! *clap*clap* -_-" While the other room claimed amateurs, three of our opponents whack the living daylights out of opposition. And apparently... uncle weeeeeeeee claimed to average 100 won the game with 157 together with about 4 strikes and a spare. To quote him... "no!!! i'm just lucky today!!" So we ended up buying coffee and cheese cakes for dinner at 11 at before retreating to the hotel room for more daidee, bluff and number games...
Sleepless at genting. Even after we played for another 2 hours of so in ed's room jenghu decided that she couldn't sleep. So we venture to first world yet again fourth time that day... and trying to be gungho (and lazy) i walked out in that 15deg night in pe shorts and sweater. Ouch. Oh, did i say that i've discarded all my diet plans for this trip? So i decided to have supper at that unearthly 3am. Boy it was great. food, glorious food.
Next day breakfast was at 10am i suppose... we resoluted to have proper meals for the day... but we still woke up late and had our late breakfast at macdonald's anyway. Arcade games were next on the list... but well, most machines seems to be underserviced and out to eat our tokens up... never mind... Oh. People who knows jenghu should know that she never touch arcades game. So make an intelligent guess of what she did? Buy more shoes! LoLx. Yeah. I reckon we spent lots of time walking from genting to first world. Yes... 5 flights of escalators and a long stretch is not exactly that near... but we don't have much of a choice i guess. So after exploring the genting arcade we went on to first world arcade...
(Gosh, you realize my account is getting shorter and shorter...)
Nothing much in the afternoon except me, zequan, sam and ax exploring the indoor theme park. And yet again... jenghu decided to bring her party to go shopping AGAIN. no wonder our annual national expenditures is so high. The weather is so misty that we don't really wanna explore the outdoors. So anyway... we went to take a couple of rides, and the thrill rides we pretty good i guess. So the outdoor ones would be a lot better i guess. Haizz. What a waste... And then again, the queues in the indoor rides were too long. Haizz. Oh, on that indoor mini-roller-coaster or watever you call it, the four of us decided to scream our heads off on the last ride after dinner... hahahaha... i mean, when other people were taking rides, you usually hear only girls' shrieking during the turns and such. And for our turn all you'd hear was a bunch of crazy guys screaming with their hoarse voices, so loud that when we turned back to the start so many people were wide-eyeing the four of us. Doesn't really help when our screams turned into uncontrollable laughter and banging on the train as we got off the ride. BwahHAhahahaha....
Oh, dinner... i HAVE to talk about dinner. For the FIRST time in genting... i'm getting some decent food. This buffet at tropical kafe was kinda pricey at RM29, but it was good anyway... sushi... roasts... chicken rice... soup... salads... roti prata... grilled fish... sugar cane juice... fruits... cakes... noodles... etc etc... we were like piling food up our tables... hahahaha... not really that good as some buffets in singapore, but it was at least decent food for once. Yeah. I guess no one place can beat singapore as a food haven. Oh, how blessed are Singaporeans. =)
That night we wanted to ton... but while they were playing their games i ended up half sleeping on ed's bed... hahahaha... popping up to make incoherent comments. LoLx. I hate that. make a fool outta myself i guess. But apparently they seems to be enjoying themselves... that's all it matters... hahaha...
(Ok, i'm getting tired. I've typed this for an hour!!!! I'm not typing anymore till the next post!!!)
Ok.... i'm back barely 20 minutes later. Think apart from giving the details of what-when-how-where i wanna pen a few thoughts over here as well...
this trip has been a good getaway for me though... away from home, from people, from stuff, from ministry, from studies... from everything i had at home. Enjoyed the company, the wind, the timeless experience... where i just lose track of time and just laze around... that's one reason why i decided not to bring my watch along as well.... (a dumb one i guess). Most importantly... it was another time of self discovery... realized that i can't stand people being indecisive... that lead me to be impatient... then i end up making lotsa decisions... so i had to curb myself back a lot of times, stopping short at snapping at certain people... haahahah... I mean, i decided not to supply any form of suggestions at times.. and simply shrug my shoulders. Dun wanna be domineering... though i think i appear so. I hate that feeling. People will be distant from you. They see the leadership in you, but they don't see the friend in you. Nahhh... i got enough of that. I dun want be a leader... i just want to be like everyone else... I talk a tad too much at times too... ya know being passive complaining? yeah. that's just a bit less than outright criticism i think. When i was bitchin to someone about the other one... he passed a comment "aiyah... i'm used to such things already lo. Complain so much for what? complain already also no use..." i mean... ok, first that's a hint to stop complaining (which i usually don't care and they are used to it anyway) and the second... quite true... there's nothing much that can be done when sometimes the subject of my complains sulk and refuse to say what's wrong when you ask what's wrong and give you a stupid attitude that you can't stand. Ok... i think i'm complaining again. Haaahh... i shall stop bitchin about it now... lolx. And i strongly believe that i really can't stand myself if i meet myself... people who puts the other party down at all cost... in a nutshell, ego. Uhh... you get the gist... Many thoughts came across my mind during the whole trip. Looking at others... at myself... at my life... at my circumstances... i realize i can't live without God... yeah. I dunno... but guess absence makes the heart fonder... i do miss the bros and sis...................
Shannon left at 12:11 p. m..
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malaysia, penang.
australia, brisbane/gold coast.
thailand, hatyai.
malaysia, genting.
malaysia, johor.
malaysia, melaka.
thailand, chiangmai.
australia, perth.
canada, edmonton/cold lake.
australia, rockhampton.
thailand, bangkok.
austria, vienna.
czech rep, olomouc.
austria, salzburg.
germany, munich.
switzerland, zurich.