my.escape

miércoles, abril 30, 2003

[ 80. Daylight ]

oh yeah, today was the first day in WEEKS that i walked out of school in DAYLIGHT!!!!!!!
hehehe... yeah, the terrors of choir practice. hehe...
Well... bad news, tomorrow got practice at 9...
and guess what? i'm doing cheerleading for my hosue for sports day. WoW....
that means 715am tml... *yAwNs*...
have fun...
nitez nitez...

Shannon left at 10:25 p. m..

martes, abril 29, 2003

[ 79. Names ]

i grabbed this from ken's blog.

X - You never let people tell you what to do.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.

Basically, with some rephrasing.

I never let people tell me what to do to equal up to people's standards, especially when i'm quietly thinking of how to take a break even though i enjoy working.

What you do is find out what each letter of your name means.
Then connect all the meanings and it describes you.
If you have double or triple letters, just count the meaning once.

Eg:
J - Jealously
O - You are very open-minded
E - You are a very exciting person
Y - You cause a lot of trouble

A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B - You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C - You definately have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
D - You have trouble trusting people.
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellant ways of viewing people.
H - You are not jugdmental.
I - You have a bad temper sometimes.
J - Jealously
K - You like to try new things.
L - Love is a hard word for you to comprehend.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
O - You are very open-minded.
P - You have a lack of understanding people, you only focus on you.
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - You are a social butterfly.
S - You are very close-minded.
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V - You are very verbal.
W - You like your privacy.
X - You never let people tell you what to do.
Y - You cause a lot of trouble.
Z - You're always fighting with someone.

So say your name is Jessica....
you...are a very exciting person, but you don't always show your partier side. You have a bad temper and get jealous easily. You are close-minded and tend to be very quiet when something is going on.

Shannon left at 10:26 p. m..

[ 78. Choir Letter ]

oh yeah, i think i did mentioned that i have the choir SYF cnetral judging coming up soon yeah...
yar. the trainings' extremely streneous. I'm gonna die...
This is the letter that mr azahar (my teacher ic) has given to the parents:

28th April 2003

Dear Parents / Guardian of

Support for the SRJC Voce (Choir)

1. The SRJC Voce (Choir) will be participating in the following two events:
a. Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging of Choirs on 6th May 2003.
b. Public Performance entitled ViBranTe II with the SRJC Concert Band on 14th May 2003.

2. The members are very excited (yeah right.) about representing the College (we have no choice.) in these two performances and would like to give their best. (or else we'll be given the slaughter knife.) They would be required (of course, waddaya expect? invited?!) to attend intensive practice sessions in the next two weeks. (kaoz...) The reheasrsal schedule is attached for your perusal and reference, please. (Thank you.)

3. In preparing diligently for the two events, the Choir members are likely to miss some lessons/tests. (oh great!) Neveretheless, we would like to assure you that all the lessons/tests that they have missed will be duly made up for by their subject tutors after the events. (No thanks... =p)

4. We look forward to your encouragement and support for your child/ward during this period of time. (like how? more chicken essence?) We would also appreciate your attendance at the concert on Wednesday 14th May at the Victoria Concert Hall. The concert commences at 7:30pm. (and no, no complimentary tickets. =p tickets are priced at 10 bucks each.)

5. We would be grateful if you could acknowledge receipt of this letter with your signature on the duplicate copy and return it through your child to me. (Oh.. so which is the original?) Should you have any queries, (keyword: "should" read: you better not have any) please feel free to contact me at 9*******. (But hopefully you don't.) Thank you very much for your kind attention and understanding. (This is said for formality sake only.) Best wishes to you and your family. (against sars...)

Yours sincerely,

(signature)

Mr Azahar bin Dahlan
Teacher in charge, SRJC Voce (Choir)

c.c. Principal, Serangoon Junior College (see? i did my job!)

=============================================================================

Appendix A

Serangoon Junior College Choir
Scheduled Practices
For SYF 2003 and ViBranTe II

28th April (Mon) 5 to 8pm
29th April (Tues) 5 to 8pm
30th April (Wed) 5 to 8pm
1st May (Thur) 9am to 4pm
2nd May (Fri) 5 to 8pm
3rd May (Sat) Full Dress Reh. 11am to 6pm
4th May (Sun) 4 to 7pm
5th May (Mon) 5 to 8pm
6th May (Tues) SYF 9am to 4pm
9th May (Fri) 5 to 8pm
10th May (Sat) 2 to 6pm
11th May (Sun) 4 to 7pm
12th May (Mon) 5 to 8pm
13th May (Tues) 5 to 8pm
14th May (Wed) ViBranTe II 3 to 10pm

=================================================================================

This is craziness at it's best...

Shannon left at 10:07 p. m..

domingo, abril 27, 2003

[ 77. Service Rush ]

yoz... today's service...
yupz, went on a mad rush of meetings today as usual.

Went to joshua grp.. but half my heart's wasn't there.
Was corrected on that... but it's ok.
yar, i was sorta prepared to be corrected cuz i knew i wasn't focusing on the sharing.
Heart wasn't realli right...

until service.

Well, to sidetrack a while, i saw freedy at service today!
i was elated... finally another brother in srjc to work on the land with me.

During service... God spoke to me during worship.
He impressed upon this word on me... complacency...
i was asking God what it meant...
Then after the prophecy by the sister...
i finally realized that it meant.
All my skills... what i know... my head knowledge... it doesn't matter to Him.
It doesn't matter to God that i've been in church for clsoe to 5 years.
It doesn't matter how many people i'm follow upping...
But i've became complacent with the things i have...
And i've forgotten all about the first love.
What am i doing all these things for?
And the whole week... when i was feeling down...
i was complacent... i thought things would go better naturally...
even without seeking Him.
But it didn't.. until today... God totally humbled me...
Lord... i wanna be humble before you....
I wanna move on Lord....

Shannon left at 7:39 p. m..

viernes, abril 25, 2003

[ 76. Reflections ]

yoz yoz....
yupz, it's the end of the week. =)
Well... haiz... lemme recall what went on this week.
For a start... not a very good week eh.
hehe... ok lahz... typical lahz, tons of homework, tons of choir and result? tons of stress.
I'm really really pooped out... physically and mentally...
if this mad rush goes on i'm dead. =/

Ok lahz... then when i'm not in a good mood...
i get on people's nerves too...
so pray that i'll be peaceful....
and i'll really depend on God for help...
it's been a long time since i cry to him for help.....

God... help me... i need you...

Friends come and go... but God... you're always there...
i'm the one that choose to flee from you sometimes...
i'm sorry...

Haiz... i'm such a failure eh?
Ok lahz... i'm going to catch some rest...
still having choir tomorrow...

Shannon left at 9:49 p. m..

jueves, abril 24, 2003

[ 75. Atheist's Challenge ]

(ripped this off someone's blog, hehe}

A man went to a barber shop to have his hair and his beard cut as always.
He started to have a good conversation with the barber who attended to him.
They talked about many things and various subjects. Suddenly, they
touched on the subject of God.
The barber said: "Look man, I don't believe that God exists as you say so."

"Why do you say that?" - asked the client.
Well, it's so easy, you just have to go out in the street to realize
that God does not exist. Oh, tell me, if God existed, would there be so many
sick people? Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there
would be no suffering nor pain. I can't think of a God who permits all of
these things."
The client stopped for a moment thinking but he didn't want to respond
so as to prevent an argument. The barber finished his job and the client
went out of the shop. Just then he saw a man in the street with long hair
and
beard (it seems that it had been a long time since he had his cut and he
looked so untidy).
Then the client again entered the barber shop and he said to the barber:
You know what? Barbers do not exist."

"How come they don't exist?"-asked the barber. "Well I am here and I am
a barber."
"No!" - the client exclaimed. "They don't exist because if they did
there would be no people with long hair and beard like that man who walks
in the street."
"Ah, barbers do exist, what happens is that people do not come to me."

"Exactly!"- affirmed the client. "That's the point. God does exist,
what happens is people don't go to Him and do not look for Him that's why
there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

Shannon left at 9:32 p. m..

miércoles, abril 23, 2003

[ 74. Blonde Jokes ]

ya know those typical dumb blonde jokes?
haha... saw one great one today. enjoy!~

A ventriloquist entertaining the crowd at a club is going through his usual run of silly dumb blonde jokes when a big blonde woman in the fourth row stands on her chair and says, "Okay jerk, i've heard enough of your denigrating blonde jokes. What makes you think you can stereotype a person's physical attributes have to do with her worth as a human being? It's guys like you who keep women like me from being respected at work and in my community, of reaching my full potential as a person. You perpetuate the discrimination against not only blondes but women at large -- all in the name of humor!"

Flustered, the ventriloquist begins to apologise profusely, but the blonde pipes up, "You stay out of this mister, i'm talking to that bastard on your knee!"

Shannon left at 11:01 p. m..

martes, abril 22, 2003

[ 73. Guys Sux ]

well... today is another lousy class day...
ya know... with 2s01... everyone SUX.
realli... the guys.... only.
argh, talking about them makes my blood boy.
Actually, come to think of it, only half the guys.
zhichao... andy... paul... john... carl... zhiwei...
in descending order of detestment. yilchz.
well, i have half a mind to remove zhiwei from the list since he looks so indifferent...
but who cares.
Well... they are so meeeeeaaaaaaaannn.
all i'm asking for is indifference, and not active disliking me...
it hurts ya know...
haiz.
i wanna cry....

Shannon left at 9:08 p. m..

lunes, abril 21, 2003

[ 72. Which Month ]

What month should you have been born in?

this quiz was made by Erin

Shannon left at 9:36 p. m..

[ 71. MC ]

hey hey... today i ponned sch go see doctor... haha.
doctor gimme one day MC!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!
hee... then i go watch johnny english with jason, so hilarious...
he's a mistake altogether.

Ok... that's besides the point.
I went back for choir today, then i made a big mistake by going into the STAFF ROOM.
KATHERINE PAH SAW ME!!!!!!!!!
she like "you know i can send you for detention for that?"
I was like... "what the hell?"
then i walked away...
here i'm a sick guy and you're talking to me like that.
grrr.... never mind.
ok, i gotta go brush up on my homework.
seeya!~

Shannon left at 9:27 p. m..

domingo, abril 20, 2003

[ 70. Easter ]

Ok... it's been a long time since i poured my heart out long on this blog.
Let me do that today since it's Easter. =)

It's been a long time since i was reminded of God's real love for me...

Let me start from yesterday.
Yesterday, i woke up feeling sick and tired, but i trudged to school for my chem prac...
feeling tired, i joined s13 for the practical by Dr Rahman.
Thank God there's deb and cindy to accompany me.
After the prac, i conveniently just ask andy if we needed to return to suresh's tutorial...
and HE JUST IGNORED ME AND WALKED ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah, i know he doesn't really likes me but that was too much.

That really spoilt my day man.
Never mind... then i went to eat with deb and cindy,
and i was literally pouring out my woes of 2s01 to them.

After that i went for choir.
Met a couple of new juniors, then we went down to serious work.
Haha... my prayers came true. i went back to bass!~!~
heee... then had to relearn all my parts. Grrrr...
Still having my flu. By late afternoon, my flu developed a sore throat too.

Thereafter 6 hours of choir, i was drained...
but went for shepherding as well.
Poured my heart out to jason, who listened keenly...
and really thank God for him... for listening to me and teaching me that lesson. =)
I went home feeling victorious and starting to call all my contacts...
BUT no one could come.
BwaWwaaaaaa!!!!

I almost wanted to cry...
A sick little guy, someone who challenged his people to bring friends the day before...
HAD NO CONTACTS COMING! WHAT KIND OF AN EXAMPLE IS HE SETTING?!

So today morn, i went for Joshua's group.
Went there feeling still sick... i received a surprise sms from yixin...
she wanted to come service!
I was shocked... but was really blessed!
During service, she told me how she didn't wanted to go for her dance thingy for the councillors, and chose to come instead...
It was really a blessing from God. I almost lost all hope today if she didn't come...
And along with all those clips and sermon in service...
i teared... God reminded me that His love for me has never faded before...
It's still.... there.

I never felt God's love so real in my life before.
It's really a renewal of my salvation... and an affirmation of God's love for me.

God... i truly love you too....
Thanks for refreshing me once again...

Shannon left at 8:56 p. m..

viernes, abril 18, 2003

[ 69. Mei ]

hey hey... yupz, i'm finally home. =)
for the uninformed... i went weilong's house to spend the night yesterday.
hee... had a great time talking to him fellowship!
it's been so long since i went someone's house and stay...
it just seems so nice... like you some what get a chance to observe a family apart from your own... =p

Well, then the rest of today was mad rush...
tuition, prayer meeting then dinner and pool with jiehui.
But i reckon it's time well spent...
it's been a long time since we fellowshipped in such a manner... like ya know? having fun together?
heee...

i've made a new mei today!!!!!!!!!!!
hahah... introducing.... KeE HuIxiU froM tJc!!!!!!!!!
heee.... yupz, my first mei!~
hehe... perhaps it's time for me to grow up too... haha...
ok, i gotta run!
love ya dudes~

Shannon left at 11:03 p. m..

miércoles, abril 16, 2003

[ 68. Dry ]

you know i feel so suckY todaY?!
well... it's like. i feel dry. spiritually dry.
i guess it's another of those woke up on the wrong side of the bed days...
haha...
will spend time in prayer and word later on then.
Today physics test was bad...
choir was ok...
syf sux. 6th may!!!!!!!!!
grrrr...
ok lahz... this batch of jc1s not bad... we'll see how it'll turn out this saturday.
Ok... not in the mood to talk now.
ciaoz.

Shannon left at 6:26 p. m..

martes, abril 15, 2003

[ 67. Chem Test ]

you know... today is another boring day. ArGh... school. blat.
Well, the chem test... looked like physics test to me (read: i'm bad at physics)
so imagine what will happen... haiz.
And horz, haha... i keep seeing shun ping EVERYWHERE in school today... gosh.
It's soooo argh... haha. i really can't wait to tell him about derek...
budden, dun want lahz. haha... i'll prefer to keep it this way. =p
I'm like so bored in school... the class totally -blat-.
still prefer people outside the class... =)
Well, i made another amazing discovery today...
kaman's stead is actually lisian!!!! of all people these two are together!!!
ahhhhhh!!! i had a big big shock and surprise when i knew about it...
then i laugh and laugh and laugh my way home...
haha... people think i kee siao.
Ok lahz, i go call my choir juniors liaoz.
Got over 50 to call... haiz.
ciaOz!~

Shannon left at 6:13 p. m..

domingo, abril 13, 2003

[ 66. True Disciple of Christ ]

Subject: A True Disciple of Christ...

"You Christians claim that God will protect you from all diseases but how come He did not protect the pastor who went to pray for a SARS patient? It was broadcast over the news that "Pastor died of SARS after praying for a SARS patient!" So, if a non-believer were to question you on the above,what will be your answer?

Frankly, I did not have a definite answer to it until the Holy Spirit dropped a verse into my heart which is John 15:12-13, "My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this,that he lay down his life for his friends." And when I went to search out the scriptures, I then realized that the death of the pastor as created a great opportunity for us to evangelize. What do I mean by at? "Pastor" derives from the Greek term "poimeen" which means, "Shepherd". And in John 10:11-15...Jesus said He is the Good Shepherd and He went on to say that a good shepherd/pastor will lay down his life for the sheep. When the wolf (or SARS) comes to attack the sheep, the good shepherd/pastor will not abandon the sheep and run away, but he will lay down his life for the sheep. Thus, in laying down His life for His sheep, Christ has set the standard for pastoral ministry that goes beyond words to deeds. And the death of Pastor Loh is a picture of what Christ has done for us. Christ died on the cross so that we can live. Likewise, Pastor Loh died but what he has done lives on. This is what Christian LOVE is all about. To me, I could see Pastor Loh as a true disciple of Christ who had obeyed the
Lord to love others to the extent of laying down his life.

So now the whole of Singapore knows that a pastor had died after praying for a SARS patient and surely a lot of people will be questioning "Why?"

Why? Why? Instead of scratching our heads and become fearful ourselves, let us take hold of this opportunity to point others to Christ and share with them what TRUE LOVE is all about.

From this SARS saga, I believe the enemy is also trying to create division among Christians: one group believes in walking by faith and another group believes we ought to exercise wisdom. Instead of pointing fingers at one another,let us be reminded of John 13:34-35 which says,"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."

Yupz... that was a forwarded email.
but i believe there is something to be learnt there... it's this thing about not compromising the bible.
Yupz... i guess, Jesus had wisdom as well, in fact, more than us. But in many situations, He chose to believe despite circumstances... cuz He knew who He had to back Him up. So i guess, let's just stop rationalizing, repent and move on in this times of uncertainty for God ameN?

It's service day! This week i went for both saturday and sunday service... =)
Yupz, got a few surprises, like that freedy guy is actually a y-hope member.
So it's like... this wk's attendance is still quite atrocious...
and some of the members are really, haiz.
That's besides the point.
Ok, i'm gonna go study for my physics test...
for those people that knows me, you know physics ain't me.
Pray hard for me k... ciaoZ.

Shannon left at 10:10 p. m..

viernes, abril 11, 2003

[ 65. Early Leave ]

Actually today i took early leave...
cuz was feeling nausea after the first period.
Guess it's a bad day.
Well, then i went for breakfast with Marvin...
then home to rest.
Lunch was sowing on jinghong... things seems quite ok.
But he seems to be a bit uncomfortable about the spiritual conversations...
Yupz.
Later got prayer meet!~
Yeah... hee.. and also CG.
Gosh... i'm teaching today.
hahaha... dunno how it'll turn out...
Really pray that the HS can guide me to speak into the ppl's lives today...
Yupz....
Ok... i'm a happy man today!
Got God, got friends, got rest.
What more can i ask for? =)

(And yes derek... i'll buy you your ice cream.)

Shannon left at 3:18 p. m..

miércoles, abril 09, 2003

[ 64. Sars Hols Over ]

hey hey!!!! 1st day of school!!!!
hee... yupz... we had like 2 hours of ct period.
To do what? talk, eat, breathe, drink and inhale SARS information.
grrr... utter waste of time, i'd say.
But i'd prefer that to common tests. =)

Well... then i went to nyjc to look for bowen today!!!
heee... kind nice, especially when you wear sr uniform and don't get chased out...
so fun. =p

Yupz... he's doing fine... i'm really happy.
So it's like, after that i went to ikea to look for mom,
did a bit of window shopping and now here i am!

hee... i smsed derek just now... but he never reply...
haiz... think he may be sleeping...
ok lahz, nothing to write... so i go now ok? ciaoz~

Shannon left at 8:39 p. m..

martes, abril 08, 2003

[ 63. Sars Hols Day 13: Derek ]

heya... today is a slacking day again!!!
woke up late... then did a bit of work here and there...
was looking forward to my dinner with derek!
i realized i've been seeing him once every 2 or 3 days for the past holz...
gosh... i've been going out with church ppl everyday!
so much for sars holz eh?
hee...
we went to pastamania... then after that go ntuc buy chocs and milk...
then go coffee bean and drink coffee!!! we are a riot for food everytime we go out...
haha... when we are supposed to cut down on food? oooops...

yeah!!! school opening tml... see ya guys k?
have fun!

Shannon left at 10:17 p. m..

[ 62. Sars Hols Day 13: Rot ]

hihi! i rotted the whole day... haha...
did a bit of my homework here and there...
and then looked forward to my dinner with derek...
hehe... i realized i've been seeing him about once every two or 3 days for the entire holz...
gosh... and going out with church ppl everyday!!!
hee... so much for sars eh?
Well... me and derek went to pastamania...
then walk walk....
then go ntuc buy milk and choc...
then go coffee bean drink coffee!!!
we are a riot for food when we go out... haha...
when we are supposed to diet. oops.
hee....
sianz... tml school reopening... huRrAy!!!
see ya guys tml!!!

Shannon left at 10:14 p. m..

[ 61. Sars Hols Day 12: Last Follow Up Sem ]

Well well... just came home from the last instalment of the Follow up Sem.

Just one thing God.... humble me and make me the vessel that You work thru...
that only you are glorified.

Amen.

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[ 60. Sars Hols Day 12: The Lord's Prayer ]

Our Father who art in Heaven. . . .

Yes?

Don't interrupt me. I'm praying. . . .

But you called Me.

Called you? I didn't call you. I'm praying. Our Father who art in
Heaven.

There, you did it again.

Did what?

Called Me. You said, "Our Father who art in Heaven. . . " Here I
am. What's on your mind?

But I didn't mean anything by it. I was, you know, just saying my
prayers for the day. I always say the Lord's Prayer. It makes me
feel good, kind of like getting my duty done.

All right. Go on.

Hallowed be thy name.

Hold it. What do you mean by that?

By what?

By "Hallowed be thy name."

It means.... it means ....good grief, I don't know what it means.
How should I know? It's just part of the prayer. By the way, what
does it mean?

It means "honored," "Holy," "Wonderful."

Hey, that makes sense. I never thought about what "Hallowed"
meant before.

Thy Kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven.

Do you really mean that?

Sure, why not?

What are you going to do about it?

Doing? Nothing, I guess. I just think it would be neat if you got
control of everything down here like you have up there.

Have I got control of you?

Well, I go to church.

That isn't what I asked you. What about that habit of lust you have?
And your bad temper? You've really got a problem there, you
know. And then there's the way you spend your money...all on
yourself. And what about the kinds of books you read?

Stop picking on me! I'm just as good as some of the rest of those
phonies at the church.

Excuse me....I thought you were praying for My will to be done. If
that is to happen, it will have to start with the ones who are praying
for it. Like you, for example.

Oh, all right! I guess I do have some hang-ups. Now that you
mention it, I could probably name some others.

So could I.

I haven't thought about it until now, but I really would like to cut
out some of those things. I'd like to, you know, be really free.

Good, now we're getting somewhere. We'll work together. . .you
and I can have some victories that can truly be won. I'm proud of
you.

Look, Lord, I need to finish up here. This is taking a lot longer
than it usually does. . . .Give us this day our daily bread.

You need to cut down on the bread too... You're overweight as it
is.

Hey, wait a minute! What is this, "Criticize Me Day?" Here I was
doing my religious duty, and all of a sudden You break in and
remind me of all my hang-ups.

Praying is a dangerous thing. You could wind up changed, you
know. That's what I'm trying to get across to you. You called me,
and here I am. It's too late to stop now. Keep on praying. I'm
interested in the next part of your prayer. . . .Well, go on.

I'm scared to.

Scared? Of what?

I know what you'll say.

Try Me and see.

Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us.

What about Sally?

See I knew it! I knew you would bring her up! Why she's told lies
about me, cheated me out of money. She never paid back that debt
she owes me. I've sworn to get even.

But your prayer. . . .What about your prayer?

I didn't mean it.

Well, at least you're honest. But it's not much fun carrying the load
of bitterness around inside is it?

No, but I'll feel better as soon as I get even. Boy, have I made some
plans for ol' Sally! She'll wish she never did me any harm.

You won't feel any better. You'll feel worse. Revenge isn't sweet.
Think of how unhappy you are already. But I can change all that.

You can? How?

Forgive Sally. Then I'll forgive you. Then the hate and sin will be
Sally's problem and not yours. You may lose the money, but you
will settle your heart.

But Lord, I can't forgive Sally.

Then I can't forgive you.

Oh, you're right! You always are. And more than I want revenge on
Sally, I want to be right with You. All right! I forgive her. Help her
to find the right road in life, Lord. She's bound to be awfully
miserable, now that I think about it. Some way, some how, show
her the right way.

There now! How do you feel?

Hmmm. . .not bad. Not bad at all, In fact I feel pretty great. You
know, I don't think I'll have to go to bed uptight tonight for the first
time since I can't remember. Maybe I won't be so tired from now
on because I'm not getting enough rest.

You're not through with your prayer. . .Go on.

Oh, all right. . .And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from
evil.

Good. . .good. I'll do that. Just don't put yourself in a place where
you can be tempted.

What do you mean by that?

Quit hanging around the wrong places, watching inappropriate
movies and television, listening to sinful conversations; getting
into compromising situations. Change some of your friendships.
Some of your so-called friends are beginning to get to you. They'll
have you completely involved in wrong things before long. Don't
be fooled. They advertise they're having fun, but for you it would
be ruin. Don't use me for an escape hatch.

I don't understand.

Sure you do. You've done it lots of times. You get caught in a bad
situation, you get into trouble and then you come running to me.
"Lord, help me out of this mess, and I promise you I'll never do it
again." You remember some of those bargains you tried to make
with me?

Yes, and I'm ashamed, Lord. I really am.

Which bargains are you remembering?

Well, when the lady next door saw me backing away from the
infamous pub. I'd told my girlfriend I was going town with my friends. I
remember telling you, "Lord, don't let her tell my girlfriend where I've
been. I promise I'll be in church every Sunday."

She didn't tell your girlfriend, but you didn't keep your promise, did
you?

I'm sorry Lord, I really am. Up until now I thought if I just prayed
the Lord's prayer everyday, then I could do what I liked. I didn't
expect anything to happen like it did.

Go ahead. Finish your prayer.

Oh yes....For Thine is the kingdom and the power, and the glory
forever and forever. Amen.

Do you know what would bring me glory? What would make me
really happy?

No, but I'd like to know. I want to please You. I can see what a
mess I've made out of my life, and I can see how great it would be
to really be one of Your followers.

You just answered the question.

I did?

Yes, the one thing that would bring me glory is to have people like
you truly love me. And I can see that happening between us. Now
that some of these old sins are exposed and out of the way, well,
there's no telling what we can do together.

Lord, let's see what we can make of me, OK?

Yes, let's see. . .

Shannon left at 12:12 a. m..

domingo, abril 06, 2003

[ 58. Sars Hols Day 11: Service ]

hey hey... juz got home from nexus. =)
anyway, it's like.... ul tell me go for team mtg, then my cl told me otherwise...
then i didn't go. =(
COULD HAVE LEARNT SOMETHING YA KNOW?!?!?!
never mind.
Then follow-up sem was postponed till tml...
then it's like, i wasted time just waiting. haiz.
Budden... today got 1 CONVERT!!!!!!!!!
bad news: not my care corner onez... haiz.
aiyah, never mind lahz, it's God's kingdom anyway.... =)
This HCJC guy... jiehui is so crappy!
But i like him a lot!!! haha... same frequency... hee...
hope we'll realli enfold him into the fellowship. Yupz...
ciaoz~

Shannon left at 6:46 p. m..

sábado, abril 05, 2003

[ 57. Sars Hols Day 10: A Boat ]

Once a foolish man built a boat. He wanted it to be the grandest, most talked about boat that ever sailed. He outfitted his craft with colourful sails, complex rigging, with decks made from beautiful teakwood and fittings of polished brass. As he built, he fantasized upon the anticipated admiration and applause from the crowd. Because no one would ever see the underside of the boat, the man saw little need to be concerned about the boat’s keel, or for that matter, anything that had to do with the issue of properly distributed weight or ballast. “Why should I spend money or time on what is out of anyone’s sight?”

When the day came for the boat’s maiden voyage, the people joined him at dockside. A bottle of champagne was broken over the bow, and he set sail. A few miles out to sea, a storm arose. There were sudden wind gusts in excess of forty knots and waves about fifteen feet. The boat began to shudder and water swept over the sides. Within minutes, the colourful sails were in shreds, the splendid mast splintered in pieces, the teakwood decks were awash with water.

When most boats would have righted themselves after such a battering, this one did not. Because its builder had ignored the importance of what was below the waterline. There was no weight there. In a moment when a well-designed keel and adequate ballast might have saved the ship, they were nowhere to be found. The builder had concerned himself with the appearance of things and not enough with resilience and stability in the secret, unseen places where storms are withstood.

Furthermore, because he had such confidence in his sailing abilities, he had not contemplated the possibility of a situation he could not manage. And that’s why later investigations revealed that there were no rescue devices aboard: rafts, life jackets, emergency radios. Only when the wreckage was washed ashore did the drowned man’s friend discover all of this. “Look,” they said, “this boat lacks an adequate keel, and there is far more weight above the waterline than below.”

What does this story mean? Storms and uncertainties happen in real life. Sooner or later, everyone gets tested by storms. What do we do to anchor ourselves in times of uncertainty. I would like to suggest a few things:

Build up your inner resources - seek solitude to affirm yourself rather than constantly needing the approval or company of others
Anchor your life on basic values - believe in yourself and the power of perseverance; and keep focusing on your goals
Know that we can’t control everything that happens to us; but there is one thing we can control: how we respond to what happens to us. And that is what counts! We need to stop worrying about things we can’t change and get started on the things we can.

(Adapted from TJC website: Notes From the Principal - Maintaining an Even Keel In Uncertain Times... 4th April 2003)

Shannon left at 10:37 a. m..

[ 56. Sars Hols Day 10: OCS Commissioning ]

haha... i realized i didn't post yesterday!
that's great...
anyway, in brief i has a surprise invitation to lunch by marvin...
we went to see kaiyee work at country mana century square. =p

In the evening went for caregroup... yupz.
though number of people has decreased... but i believe we have to grow. yupz.

So today... today... is the gen acts club event!
We're playing pool and bowling at marina square later... yipppeeee!!!~
haha... last night i called derek... and humph... he nv msg me the whole day... bwahahaha...
aiyah... nvm lahz. will see him today anyway... heee..

And today is also weilong's commissioning parade... hopefully we're able to go down and view the parade...
it's so cooL!~
ok... i've nothing to say... so juz drop me a tag or two ya? =)

Shannon left at 10:09 a. m..

viernes, abril 04, 2003

[ 55. Sar Hols Day 9: Who Am I ]

Conscious self	Overall self

Take Free Enneagram Test

Shannon left at 11:22 a. m..

[ 55. Sar Hols Day 9: What's Debate For ]

oh yeah, remembered my brainteaser on april fool's?
the answer is defish.

Shannon left at 9:45 a. m..

jueves, abril 03, 2003

[ 54. Sars Hols Day 8: Rip-Off ]

haha... ripped this off wind's blog... (who ripped it off valtoh's blog. gosh.)

1.What and who has held your interest recently?:
tHe maN iN tHe miRrOr?

2.Are you good when it comes to waking up?:
TrY coNsiDeriNg wAkiNg uP 2 hRs aFtEr tHe aLaRm cLocK rAng...

3.What is your favourite colour?:
rEd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4. Do you consider yourself to be an emotionally up-and-down person?:
YeS... gOt uP gOt dOwn. mUz baLaNce maH. =/

5. What is your method of stress release?:
cOmpLaiN cOmpLaiN cOmpLaiN cOmpLaiN cOmpLaiN aNd cOmpLaiN tO gOd... tHeN tO evEryoNe eLsE jUz onCe. (i PrOmiSe.) oH yaR. i bLasT mUsiC toO. wHeN i'M hoMe.

6. If you were a girl/boy for a day, what would you do?:
eR.... i'LL gO eaT aT sEouL gaRdeN. gOt chiLd raTe maH.

7. "If it would only vanish from this world!" Is there anything you like to have this happen in this world?:
dEaDLy... gRoSsS... sIN!!!

8. How long do you spend in the bath? And what do you wash first?:
5 miN?! haiR... (haiZ...iN oNe yeAr's tiMe oR LeSs nO moRe suCh luXury LiaOz...)

9. What do you wear to bed?:
aNythiNg oLd aND comFy.

10. When you were little, what did you want to be?:
teaCheR... aiR sTeWaRd.... hMm... wHaT abT an aiR sTeWaRd TeaCheR?

11. If you were to appear in a drama or movie, what kind of role would you play?:
rOmaNce!!!!!!!!!

12. What do you think you were in you previous life?:
nOt vEry biBLiCaL... bUt iF i wErE to beLieVe... i thiNk i'M a huMaN. (gEe.)

Shannon left at 4:55 p. m..

miércoles, abril 02, 2003

[ 53. Sar Hols Day 7: "Just Married" ]

oh GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love ya blogger... you're finally up and alive again!
Oh how i love the Creator!~!~!~

haha... toady yingjie went into BMT.... (noooOoOOo!~~~~ dOn't leave me!!!!!!!!!! =x)
Ok, gotta wake up so much so early to go pasir ris to find people who are late...
(did i tell you that i was late too...? Oops...)

Then horz, i went home with derek at 10am leh...
Then horz, we drop at rivervale plaza leh.
Then horz, we walked all the way to the 156 bus stop you know?!
Then horz, i realize that we took almost half hour to walk there you know?
But horz, we had a great time talking. haha...

Then horz, we agree to go watch movie in the afternoon.
Then horz, he called me when he reach home...
Then horz, the show he wanted to watch was at 9pm,
Then horz, we agreed to watch 230pm Just Married.
Then horz, we arranged to meet at the mrt later...
But horz, i met him on the bus... and he was sleeping... haha...

haha... i shall spare you of the "Then horz" and "But horz"...
BwahAWHHAwHwhAHwAHWHAwhawhAHwhAwhAha....
(Gosh, i didn't know i could write a pOeM with it...
BwahWHAHwahwahwHWahAwhAHwHAwhawhawhHaww...
Yupz... we went to eat after that... haha...
Or rather, i think i ate, not him.
Aiyah... it's so typical.... movie, eat, go home. SIaNZ!!!!

Let's talk about the movie...
It's like... another typical plot...
Like each other, then co-habit, then decided to get married despite objections...
Then go on this stupid honeymoon that screwed up in all aspects...
then end up fighting all the way back home, settling for divorce...
And eventually, the guy will go for the girl all over again...
SO TYPICAL RIGHT?!

Gosh... hahah...but it's like... aiyah....
i like watching this kind of shows...
then sometimes i'll think.... ok lahz, a bit bhb...
but it's like... what if i'm the guy or the gal in the show...
that'll be so nice.... awwwww....

Ok... i'm crapping liaoz.
Think gotta start cramming on my studies...
cya again ok? =)

Shannon left at 6:10 p. m..

martes, abril 01, 2003

[ 52. Sars Hols Day 6: Suraj ]

hie hie...
today is april fools' day!~
juz a brainteaser... what's a debate for? =)
think about it, i'll post the answer tomorrow... bwahahaha...

well, suraj called me and woke me up this morning...
(haha... no offence... hies..) and i had a good talk with him.
Yupz... didn't know that i'll develop such a deep friendship with him. =p
As in... if you have seen him when he just converted and now, it's really different.
God has indeed brought him far... and God changes people too.
Yupz... got to know more about this brother, about his group and so on...
can really see his heart and passion for the people around him.
He's really a people person. =)

Ok... will be going to study later... so all of you have fun ok? =)
ciaoZ...

Shannon left at 11:30 a. m..

gone. will i be back? i don't know. maybe i've started elsewhere. maybe never. again.