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miércoles, noviembre 26, 2003

[ 440. Holiday Mood ]

GUESS WHAT?! TOMORROW IS THE END OF THE PAPERS!!!!
(Lol. Why am i celebrating when i have 5 hours worth of papers tomorrow?)

BECAUSE I DON'T CARE HOW THEY TURN OUT TOMORROW!!! YEAHOOO!!!

One thing i learnt during this exam period. You tend to concentrate better during the paper and come out feeling a lot better if you hold no expectations as you walk into the examination hall, just like what i did for my physics papers. =)

And yes, i'll be on a weekend getaway to genting. Means, no blogging. =)

Shannon left at 10:12 p. m..

martes, noviembre 25, 2003

[ 439. Taggers ]

Apparently the undesirable happened again. Tagboard is down. So for the time being, please use the comments link after each post. Know it's kinda troublesome, but i can't seem to make dekap conform to my template.

And i miss my old music too... so it's back again. Go away, mariah carey. =p

Shannon left at 10:07 p. m..

lunes, noviembre 24, 2003

[ 438. Quiz ]

xuan was
a Creative Musician
in a past life.

Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

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[ 437. Monday Blues ]

Oh yeah, don't think i've blogged anything decent for the last couple of days. Tried to reduce that guilt trip by posting some scrap. Oh well. Basically today was another bookless day. And i stayed at home the whole day. Guess the fact that mom and bro is away on a holiday gives me some sort of incentive to stay home. No noise! Tried to update frosthaven today, but seems like a mediocre effort on my part. My creative juices are running out, and it should remain so until i get my hands on newer softwares to experiment on. Had a couple of little chats here and there, and also ran a bit, finally. I was aghast to encounter my dear little sheep on my round... much to his amusement i believe. Humph... never mind about that. Today's really a slow day. Argh. I hate such days.

Let me talked abit about service yesterday. Think it was a 100% relevant sermon to me. So much things happened for the past months, think it's time to really dump them with God. And i do mean dump, not put it with Him for safekeeping. Yeah, guys... thanks for everything k~ especially those who kept by my side all these while... =) Think God has really used you guys to support me... if not for you guys, i may not be here~. =)

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[ 436. Crazy ]

Crazy people. Public proclaimation of love is not a true measure of love. God bless those couples.

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[ 435. Phone ]

Yeppers. It's official. I lost my phone. So if you are reading this blog and you know me, please drop me an email / msn / icq with your phone number ok? I need a loan too. Needa replace my phone. Negotiable. =/

Shannon left at 12:33 a. m..

domingo, noviembre 23, 2003

[ 434. More to Life ]

Artiste: Stacie Orrico
Album: Stacie Orrico
Song: (there's gotta be) more to life

Yea, yea
Oh ohh

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
To life..
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more to life....life..
ohh...more to life....theres gotta be more to life...
ohh...more to life....theres gotta be more to life...ohhh

Shannon left at 6:26 p. m..

sábado, noviembre 22, 2003

[ 433. Freaked out ]

I'm getting really freaked out. 18 days to enlistment. EEEEEEEKSS!!!

Shannon left at 10:19 p. m..

[ 432. PSLE ]

Went with my brother and mother to collect his psle results today. Well, it's been a long time since i returned to my alma mater. A great change of environment from the last time i stepped into the school- the principal, building, teachers and others as well. Nonetheless, it still brought back certain memories. Memories of six years ago when i got my results. I remembered i was nervous all the same; and thought i would get some 240+. Even when i got my results, i guess i was more concerned about the school i could get in, rather than comparing results. That was then. Today as i watch my brother crestfallen face when he got his slip, well, heck with it. The results comparison went on more brazenly than before. I mean, i caught him screaming across the canteen, "OEI _________! WHAT YOU GOT?!" That cheeky lil chap replied just as loudly "244!! WHAT ABOUT YOU?!" The prideful little brother of mine then pretended not to have heard the question and went off to question other friends of his, but not without that guy chasing him and demanding that my brother reveal his score. My teacher once told me before that we need at least three instances before we can establish a collinear relationship. My time people don't compare results; my second brother's time they were starting to be aware of where they stand among their peers; and now they are blatantly showing off their grades and be so badly affected by their own performances. It's bad. I mean, it's only their first exam and they have been pushed through so much stress to perform. C'mon, they are only twelve years old! I even had to scream at my dear mother not to scream at my brother for not doing that well. After all, if screaming could change his grades now, everyone would be getting 4 A*s. Oh, the curses of the singaporean education system.

Shannon left at 1:51 p. m..

jueves, noviembre 20, 2003

[ 431. Insult ]

Oh great. The ultimate insult of the year. Some good friend of rachel thought i was a butch. Oh greeeeeeeeeat. *frowns*

Shannon left at 3:42 p. m..

[ 430. Invisible ]

Remembered that when i was young, i used to fantasize about being invisible. So that people couldn't see me, and i could wreck havoc without them knowing who i was and when would i strike. On the other hand, you could always observe someone as if you're watching a film, as if they didn't know you were around. I wished i could be a guardian angel of some sort to people whom i loved. It's different now though. I bet it's tough being invisible. Ok, at least for me. People will not sense your presence at all... and that makes it tougher for those whose life motto goes by 'seeing is believing'. Imagine being alone for your whole life, and people can't observe your moods, your expressions, your body language. Verbal would be the only form of communication. It's pretty lonely isn't it? It's tougher to feel loved... especially when others find it hard to love something they can't hold, they can't see but yet they know it exist. That's what man is reduced to today: materialism. I guess that's how God feels.

Artiste: Clay Aiken
Album: Measure of a Man
Title: Invisible

What are you doing tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Still in your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

I saw your face in the crowd
I called out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could be what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm screaming
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

Shannon left at 9:51 a. m..

miércoles, noviembre 19, 2003

[ 429. Further Math ]

35 marks of mechanics down the drain, and about 5 marks off for statistics. Prayerfully i'll still get my B. Ok, that's the end of my twelve years of math education in which more than two thirds are (unfortunately) not going to be utilized for the rest of my life. No, i'm not going to bother about the angular velocity of a ferris wheel. All i know is i'm supposed to enjoy the view from the top when i'm in one.

A sudden revelation dawned upon me. My language abiility is getting more and more atrocious, not saying that it's any good in the first place. Being a singaporean, i'm proud to announce that i'm defectively bilingual, or trilingual if you wanna count my unique mix of hokkien/teochew. My attempt at constructing quality writeups is pathetically full of expression errors. Well, read my gp essays and you'll understand.

Shannon left at 9:58 p. m..

martes, noviembre 18, 2003

[ 428. Tuition ]

Just got back from tuition. Wheeeeeww... guess this will be my last time (and last ninety bucks paid for) having tuition. Though i keep telling xiaohei that i'm having tuition with that bugger, but i guess i sorta enjoy having tuition with him. I mean... not the session itself, but the whole process of it. The journey there to pasir ris and back home each time, though long but it gives me time to indulge in my own thoughts... in my sorrows, my joys, my pains, my hurts, my everything. When i'm tired, i can always sleep on the bus. If not, perfect ten is always there to entertain me. But the most important thing to me is the time for myself. Realized that i've less time nowadays to sort things out myself. Coupled with the fact that i love company, it gives me less time to be alone. Today for example. Was a good time to really think of a lot of things that i thrashed out with c. I don't know... but just feel that everything is a consequence of my own actions... and i really hate it at times when you know that you can choose your actions but not the consequences...

Shannon left at 10:41 p. m..

[ 427. Overview ]

Chemistry was greeeeeeeat...!!! but dunno if it's great enough to get me an A. Never mind about that.

Ok... i was happily blogging till i had to settle some sudden issues that it totally killed my appetite for blogging... sorry...

Shannon left at 6:07 p. m..

domingo, noviembre 16, 2003

[ 426. Ripped ]

I sure love to rip interesting blog entries. Here's one from our dearest russell:

:: a personal message to dear yogi :: why brand the people who leave singapore as bastards? i think they're pretty smart. and it isnt their fault they're leaving, its the government's. look at the screwed up educational policy we have in singapore. if you fail MT in your Os or As, you can't get into a local university. and if you can't get a place in a university, chances are, you're going to have a tough time getting a job. and even if you did have a degree, its going to be really hard. singapore's job market is in its worst state in 17years. why? cause we've been to dependent on shit like manufacturing and all. any tom, dick and hairy (ahh, yogi.) country can do that. economies that rely on creativity and brains tend to fair better.
business hub? singapore practically kill entrepreneurs. if you try and start a business and fail, and perhaps go bankrupt, thats it. your name is all over the papers and you'll be blacklisted by banks and companies alike, chances are, you'll never get to restart. who the dares to venture out in such a situation? china is going to eat up singapore as a trade and business hub. India has the potential to out do China. where does singapore stand? service sector? what, rub feet for foreigners?
technological hub? US and germany leads in technology. singapore so rarely have any breakthroughs cause our 'scientist' are mostly spoon fed throughout their decades of education. how in the world are they do be apt in research skills if all they ever do is read textbooks?
medical hub? even LKY's wife went to london for treatment recently for her stroke.
educational hub? well, plenty of my friends who are overseas scholars said that coming here was one of the biggest mistakes in their life. when i say the system sucks, i'm sure i speak for many of you.
cultural and arts hub? artist are paid just a couple of hundred dollars a month. the government doesnt help much. our art scene is so censored that their very essence of it is lost. singapore doesnt have a lack of musical talents, theres just a lack of talents who dare pursue their dream. the only time the government will support you is when you're already famous, like stef sun. by then, you wont even need the 'help' of the government.
so what is singapore going to do. we need reform. go ahead, start a rally, make yourself heard by all and i'll see your sorry ass splashed all over the front page of the straits times on your way to imprisonment. oh and speaker's corner is just a joke. now its just some desolate stump in the middle of nowhere.
singapore is on its way down a very deep shit hole. unless mindset of the policy makers change, we'll keep sliding.
the singapore government has contradicted itself, saying that it is time for a change in the people's mindset, that things arent as rosy as before and they have to be prepared to go overseas to work. yet, they call people who are leaving the country 'quitters'. its time for a change..
oh and yogi, i dont know about your brother, but i think people who claim that they go into NS to protect their country are just trying to console themselves when they face the inevitable. making themselves sound like a man with a noble cause when he is actaully merely a conscript. perhaps your brother truly wishes to protect his people, but i certainly doubt most people who proclaim that notion actually believe in what they say.

very true, i'd say.

Shannon left at 9:41 p. m..

[ 425. Service ]

Today service was excellent! Ahhh... something very basic was preached, but i guess that's what we need-- back to the basics. Regaining our first love. Ummm... even after that lunch was short, but quality time was spent with people... i really thank God for placing everyone in my life... yes, even the mean ones. Guess only when i encounter some rough patches then will i remember how good are certain people to me. Especially God.

Oh yes... spent a great time celebrating bowen's birthday at cafe cartel yesterday! Think he's rather blessed... but felt that we haven't done enough for him. Really hope that God will make it up for him... this guy is really a rare treasure, kinda ashamed that i can't do anything for him. Really. Haizz. But all in all i guess it was another chance for the brothers to fellowship... it's really rare now... especially when everyone is so busy with exams... thank God anyway! Spent some time talking to jieyun as well... it's been really a long time since i talked to her... kinda touched that she still remembered what i and how i talked to her the last time... which *ahem* dates more than half a year ago. Really surprised that she remembered. This time round is really great... was able to update her and to share some stuff with her as well... yupz.

Then rachel came along before the three of us went for dinner at the gardens hawker center... stingray and fried hokkien mee... eeeks... that after cafe cartel is toooooooo much!!! DIET!!!!! AH!!!! sighz. The food was nice anyway... bwahahaha...

Oh. i pigged out today as well. God knows when i'm gonna diet. Argh. I'm always losing out to the lures of food during weekends. Wonder why.

Shannon left at 4:53 p. m..

sábado, noviembre 15, 2003

[ 424. Strange ]

This is weird. When i try to access my own blog, i saw this black and white picture of a bird. Wonder what is it. Never mind.

Oh... have i said this? When i was in sec 4 i was told by my geog teacher that i had a junior by the same name, so i was very much surprised, cuz my name's kind rare... haah, almsot like one of it's kind. ;) So i went to check it out... alas, it wasn't exactly the same, cuz that guy's name is xuan ang... ya know, with that extra g. lolx. So again... thanks to friendster, i got to chat with him... seems like a nice guy, and very talented in design! Oh, btw, he's in nyjc year 1. ;) So here's one of his several designs... i particularly like this one.

Sharks. I'm tired. Gonna sleep now.

Shannon left at 1:28 p. m..

viernes, noviembre 14, 2003

[ 423. F math - the aftermath ]

I walked out of the exam hall tearing... fought hard to hold back the tap from flowing...

Shannon left at 1:10 p. m..

jueves, noviembre 13, 2003

[ 422. F Math ]

DIE!!! tomorrow shall be a test of how well have i learnt unneccessary mathematics that i will not be ever using ever again for the rest of my life... unless i become a math teacher. Further math, that is.

Things like... applications of integrations. Do i need to know how exactly to find a centriod?!?!?! All i need is to agar-agar balance the thing on my hand and see where it balance lah!!!

What about volume? Isn't it easier to use the mass divide by the density of the object? Or, use the water displacement method?

Linear algebra. I can't even find an application to it, let alone use it.

Ok, further math, it's time you go. I'm gonna buy a big box to dump all of you, yes, ALL of you into it. BYE.

Shannon left at 10:44 p. m..

miércoles, noviembre 12, 2003

[ 421. JC Lightbulbs ]

Remember the JC students and lightbulbs questions? Finally found it again.
So here's it... with some changes from yours truly of course. =)

Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: 4 whole faculties. One fac to design the new bulb, one fac to test it out, one fac to market it and one
guy to write a stupid Email about lightbulbs.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.....to compete with RJC.........

Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.......one to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: NO LIGHT STILL CAN STUDY!!!!!

Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: They're too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs...

Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change lightbulb??
A: None......they use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....only one technical teacher employed from naval base secondary school to tell them what a lightbulb is in the first place and to demonstrate (how do you think they're able to change it for AC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: They'd prefer it darker..........(hmmm...*raise eyebrow*)......

Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None......Their physics is so bad that they make the male teacher cry.....

Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: Would they bother??

Q: How many MJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: School so new lightbulb will spoil ah?? SUE MOE AH!!

Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....they believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....they are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None. Mrs Kok will be more than happy to save on the electricity bills.

Q: How many TJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: If it doesn't add to their value-added indicator, they won't bother.

Q: Dun you guys wonder which guy wrote this??
A: TJC!

Q: How many TJC students does it take to change the lightbulb??
A: None. They think they are very bright already.

Notice how when asked "which guy wrote this?" and the TJCians gave a school in reply... hmmm... no wonder they failed GP.

Shannon left at 5:49 p. m..

[ 420. Rascal ]

I'm a rascal. I'm two-timing blogger. Go read my Xanga. =)

Shannon left at 4:33 p. m..

[ 419. Stats ]

Quite manageable i guess today.

Except for this question. I'm still pondering over it.

Question 23. A random variable X is distributed X ~ B ( 5 , p ). It is given that Var(X) = 0.25 E(X). Find the value of E(X²).

My solution.
E(X) = np = 5p
Var(X) = npq = 5p(1-p)
thus,
20p(1-p)=5p
4p(1-p)=p
4p-4p²-p=0
p(3-4p)=0
p=0.75

since Var(X)=E(X²)-[E(X)]²
thus 5(0.75)(0.25)=E(X²)-[5(0.75)]²
0.9375=E(X²)-14.0625
E(X²)=15

Oh. only NOW when i work it out then i get 15. SHARKS!!!!

Oh for those who are interested, this question is worth 5 marks.

Shannon left at 1:44 p. m..

[ Happy Spoiler ]

TRINITY dies and NEO dies.

i haven't watched it yet, but i'm feeling evil and since someone leaked it out to me (on account that it was a really bad ending anyway), i decided to MAKE YOUR DAY.

and there you have it, my grand debut entry in this blog.

hello, all.

shoeper girl left at 12:36 p. m..

martes, noviembre 11, 2003

[ 418. General Paper ]

I've dumped my gp files in this box that i vowed never to open until i get my results next year.

contrary to yesterday, i'm feeling damn _____________________ ARGGGGGGH!!!!

"Statistics measure everything, but proves nothing." Discuss.

So this is my introduction:

In a world full of complexity today, we are surrounded with this familiar stranger by the name of statistics. Classroom attendance, weekly expenditures, sales report and population census - these are just a few of the numerous statistics going around us each day. As we catch on the fun of recording and measuring things around us day by day, the inevitable question would arise: do they prove anything? While most people think statistics are mere white elephants, i beg to differ...

and i forgotten my rest of my intro.

i think i'm a goner.

oh. i remembered. the first thing i got to school was to be stopped by mrs kok. for what? for that chain of mine and for not wearing the badge. Then she was like saying, "see? not wearing the badge. i tell you why, i tell you why you are not wearing the badge. because you are not proud of the school."

she is soooo daaaarn right. what has the school given me? NOTHING!!! but i'm not in the mood to argue with her. argh. heck it.

Shannon left at 4:28 p. m..

lunes, noviembre 10, 2003

[ 417. Math ]

A good start!!!

Darn. i lost a couple of marks already. Mostly for NOT reading the questions carefully. Andy said that question four asked for total numbers of ways that a committee can be elected. I didn't do that. 1 mark gone. The differential equation. I got the wrong constant. Another 2 marks gone. ARGH!!!!!

Ok. now to read a bit of chem. If i'm feeling fat later maybe i'll go and run. yeah. maybe. Don't count on it.

Shannon left at 1:03 p. m..

domingo, noviembre 09, 2003

[ 416. Prelude - A levels ]

Ok, let me outline my day in a form of a time line:

0900 - woke up and realized that i'm super late. So called freedy and said we'll meet at eleven instead.
1000 - still on my bed
1015 - realized that service is at 1130. Jump out of bed and rush like mad.
1045 - got out of house
1130 - made it to service on time. Suddenly feel super stressed. Reality hits that tomorrow is a test i've been waiting for two years. Teared during worship and prayer.
1330 - Felt even more stressed. Longing to go home and don't want to attend wenjiang's birthday celebration.
1400 - scout around nexus for a venue for celebration.
1415 - lunch with jason and jieyun.
1430 - wenjiang's birthday celebration
1530 - go home
1600 - study with rach at serangoon mac
1700 - went home a while to get my stuff
1730 - went down again and tried to study
1800 - went home
1815 - someone called, so we talked.
2030 - put down phone
2035 - watched singapore brainiest teachers
2115 - go online
2200 - typing this~ =D

Shannon left at 9:29 p. m..

sábado, noviembre 08, 2003

[ 415. Neglected ]

Think i'm starting to neglect this space. Well, think time has been catching up with me. Argh.
Reality hit me. EXAMS IS ARE STARTING ON MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!
And i'm still making silly grammatical errors as such. Mrs Pah must be so disappointment in me.

I realized i'm really blessed. I still have quite a considerable number of close friends whom i can share deeply with, still concerned about me. Yes, my social circle may not be big, but i guess it's pretty good enough. Problem with me is, people whom i don't want to interfere in my life always come bugging me, and people whom i wanna know better always doesn't seems to reciprocate. Well, i guess i'm not alone. Talked to some people before, and they feel the same way. I guess that's the problem with us. Always wanting novelty, and once we know someone for long, we'll get sick of it. Guess that's where effort has to be put in to maintain the friendship. Hence i've concluded, i can't be friends with everyone. I'll try, but if he doesn't respond, heck with it. No more initiative from me. uh uh.

ahh... i'm contemplating picking up piano again after a 6 year hiatus. Suggestions, anyone?

Shannon left at 1:32 p. m..

viernes, noviembre 07, 2003

[ 414. New friend ]

I'm just so obssessed with cats. =x Haa. Ok, that was totally out of what i wanted to blog about. was actually chatting on irc last night. Been a long time since i last did that. Wondered where my sense of discernment went to. Met this guy who claimed to be a friend's friend, and ended up giving me his number. Being the suspicious me, i called... and call me stupid or what, i know somehow somewhat it was a prank on that poor soul but i still called. I mean... now it all make sense. How can that guy still be online at MIDNIGHT when he has a chinese paper today? But happened so that this 'victim' was actually a choir guy from tj... so we had quite a couple of common friends. Lucky me. What's the most ironic thing? I ended up chatting with this stranger for 15 minutes on the phone. -__-" Kaozz. That was really... uh... i don't know how to put it.

Ok... one more weekend to go. And that's it.

Shannon left at 8:50 a. m..

jueves, noviembre 06, 2003

[ 413. awakened ]

guess what? i think i'm still having a very bad sleeping pattern. argh. and the sleeping place doesn't help much either. Slept at two last night on the sofa outside. All to get out of my air-con room. Rudely awakened by a sore neck at 9am today, leaving me one hour short of the ideal eight. grrr... think i'm gonna study at cartel again later. ciaoz.

Shannon left at 9:12 a. m..

miércoles, noviembre 05, 2003

[ 412. More Quiz ]

A major - you love to live life to the full. You
have a vibrant social life and are not afraid
to take life as it comes. You are content,
bright and often spontaneous.

what key signature are you?
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[ 411. Quiz (Again) ]

I'm clearly bored. Again, this is taken off wanhin's blog. Think i've neglected enough of his blog. haa.

1. What is your name? Xuan
2.What color top are you wearing? none
3. What are you listening to right now? Can't stop praising - hillsongs
4. What was the last thing you ate? fried carrot cake for breakfast... eeks... faaattteennnning...
5. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? RED!!!!
6. Where do you plan to go on your honeymoon? 3 days on each continent (less antartica) please.
7. How is the weather right now? This is ironic... i'm having a flu under the morning sun...
8. Last person you talked to on the phone? my buddy!!!
9. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? they are... ermz... of the opposite gender?
10. Do you like the person that sent you this? Didn't receive it.. stole it rather.. He's cool.
11. How are you today? Sianz. gotta study. again.
12. Your favorite drink? iced water!!! plus green tea... plus coke light WITH lemon...
13. Your favorite alcoholic drink? ehh... none... dun drink much of it...
14. How do you eat an Oreo? just eat it.
15. What's the next CD you're going to get? depends on who i'm buying it fer.
16. Hair color? bLack. yiiiLcccH.
17. Eye Color? brown. yOu mean it could be... *gasP*... black?!
18. Do you wear contacts? perfect eyesight...
19. Siblings/offspring and their ages? rascals aged 16 and 12.
20. Favorite month? juNe..
21. Favorite food? choCs... sinnnnful chocs... haa
22. Last movie you watched? iNfernal affairs II
23. Favorite day of the year? mY birthday!!!
24. Are you shy to ask someone out? depends..
25. Do you like scary or happy movies better? happy..
26. summer or winter? winter
27. Hugs or Kisses? hugz..
28. Relationships or one-night stands? relationships..
29. Chocolate or vanilla? chocs...!!!
30. Do you want your friends to write back? YES!!
31. Who is most likely to respond? how would i know...~
32. Who is least likely to respond? *shrugz*
33. Living arrangements? paRents, brO graNny, 2 haMMies, 2 fisHHies and me.
34. What books are you reading now? nOne.
35. What's on your mouse pad? mY cpU is my moUsepaD. =x
36. Favorite board games? risK!!
37. Favorite magazine? 8 daYs!!!
38. Favorite smells? rOse...
39. Least favorite smells? tOo hOrrifYing fOr pubLishing.
40. Favorite sound? choRaL anD poP musiC
41. Worst feeling in the world? Loneliness I guess … ---> was christian's and wanhin's answer, i agree too
42. What's the first thing person you think of when you wake up in the morning? wHat timE is it...?
43. Favorite color? rEd!!! pinK!!!! yeLLow!!!! OraNge!!!
44. How many rings before you answer the phone? depeNds on how fast i gets to the phone.
45. Future child's name? mot!!!
46. Favorite thing in life? me.
47. Do you like to drive fast? nah. i don't drive.
48. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? ok... look here~ i have 3 monkeys, a bear, a cat, a dog and a mini orange pillow on my bed...
49. What's under your bed? some coins i think.
50. What is your favorite number? 3!!!

[ x ] Spell your first name backwards – nihnaw haha.. reterded donkey perhaps?
[ x ] The story behind your lj user name – loooong story.. not gonna repeat it.
[ x ] Where do you live – Singapore …
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up – caring sweet loving tender~ 4 words that probably will induce regurgitation of your last meal when heard being used in the same context with me.

Describe Your

[ x ] Wallet – black cloth billabong wallet... *hint* i need a new LEATHER wallet...
[ x ] Hairbrush – i don't have to use a comb. -gRiNz-
[ x ] Toothbrush – green...
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily – this chain i have... i'm looking for a nicer one... and something on my leg larz...
[ x ] Pillow cover – floral priNt...
[ x ] Blanket – whiTe and pinK... it's a comforTer..
[ x ] Coffee cup – purplE...
[ x ] Sunglasses – i don't have aNy.
[ x ] Shoes – aDdidas. but i have quiTe a few pairs oF traiL sliPs.
[ x ] Favorite top – "oNce a saiNt, aLwayS a saiNt"
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume – nOne.
[ x ] CD in stereo right now – nOne.
[ x ] Tattoos – nOne.
[ x ] Piercings – nOne.
[ x ] What you are wearing now – bErms onLy
[ x ] Hair – shoRt, uNgeLLed (YuCccCcks!!!)
[ x ] Makeup – nOne.

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)

[ x ] In my mouth – coFFee
[ x ] In my head – wHat to stuDy laTer?!
[ x ] you Wishing – thAt i can turN back tiMe... haa
[ x ] After this – toiLet!!
[ x ] you Eating – friEd caRRot cAke
[ x ] your Fetishes – leG haiRs...!! whEn u haVe noNe it's niCe to pLucK otheRs'. BAWAHwHwAHw.
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason – "thOu shaLt nOt kiLL"
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now – GaWd!!
[ x ] Is next to you – yOu, mY deAr coM, it's yOu!!! =)
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies – turn left turn right.. lilo and stitch..
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month – ~~'A' levels!!~~ my trip!!
[ x ] The last thing you ate – how many times have you asked this?!?!?!
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of – beiNg loneLy.
[ x ] Do you like candles – YES!!!!!!! i'LL likE more please!!!
[ x ] Do you like hot wax – NO.
[ x ] Do you like incense – eeeEks.
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood – yeS!!! hEheHE...
[ x ] Do you believe in love – oH yeaH..
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates – yeppers…
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight – that's called an infatuation.. or maybe a crush…
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - yeS..!
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness – yeS..!
[ x ] Do you believe in God – yeS... YeS... YES!!
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die – bUry iT...
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy – mE.
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be – i hAve - 2 haMMiEs.
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up – 48 hOurs...?
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium – nope..
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks – caN. buT chOOse noT to.
[ x ] What's your favorite coin – R.O.C coins. light as a feather. << wanhin's answer, but i'm curious, won't it be easier to lose them? I'd like our own s'pore coins... haA...
[ x ] What are 4 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to- sYdnEy... saN fraNciscO.. tOroNtO.. meLbouRne..
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods – pOtatOes..
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand – iF u caN't stand anYthing abOut me... TELL ME!!! iF i sEe yOur poiNt, i'LL chaNge. iF nOt, buZZ off~
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better – wHy peOpLe love to keEp tHeiR owN proBleMs to eMseLveS.
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time – yeaH/.
[ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow – mE lOse aNothEr 6 kiLos oR sO.
[ x ] my mother thinks i am: suCh a naG.
[ x ] my sibling thinks i am: a bOtHer.
[ x ] my grandma thinks i am: heR gRandsoN...?
[ x ] my grandpa thinks i am: oh.. he's moved on to another place..
~~[ x ] my boyfriend/girlfriend thinks i am:~~
[ x ] your three best qualities – sEnsiTiVe... LisTenEr... caNdiD...
[ x ] three worst qualities – tOo seNsiTivE... tOo cAndiD... tOo eMotionaL
[ x ] three things you are often complimented for – chEmisTry... lEadEr... SenSitiVe...
[ x ] you get embarrassed when – i siA suEy mySeLf.
[ x ] makes you happy – choCs!!
[ x ] upsets you – peOplE... DLHK... eTc eTc...

Yes or No

[ x ] you keep a diary = ya
[ x ] you like to cook = ya
[ x ] you have a secret you have not shared with anyone = ya
[ x ] you talk in your sleep = nah
[ x ] you bite your fingernails = ya
[ x ] you believe in love = ya

Last

[ x ] movie you rented = nOne... mY daD raN a videO liBraRy... bWhawhAWH...
[ x ] movie you bought = nOne.
[ x ] song you listened to = gLory - hillsongs
[ x ] song you've downloaded = uNpreTty - tLC
[ x ] CD you listened to prior to the current one = hOpe - hiLLsoNgs
[ x ] person you've called = sOMeoNe
[ x ] person that's called you = saMe soMeoNe
[ x ] TV show you've watched = tV moBiLe

Do

[ x ] you wish you could live somewhere else = yeaH
[ x ] others find you attractive = dunNo. i guEss therE's alwaYs at leasT onE.
[ x ] you want more piercings = waNted oNe, but duN daRe. hehe.
[ x ] you want more tattoos = NO!!!
[ x ] you drink = i waNt mOre coFffFffEeeeeEee!!!
[ x ] you do drugs = NO!!
[ x ] you like cleaning = NO!!!
[ x ] you like roller coasters = NO!!!
[ x ] you write in cursive or print = pRiNt.. theN evoLve tO cUrsiVe..
[ x ] you carry a donor card = nO!!!

Have You

[ x ] ever cried over a boy/girl = yA.
[ x ] ever lied to someone = yA.
[ x ] ever been in a fist fight = aLmOst.
[ x ] ever been arrested = nO.

Shannon left at 10:31 a. m..

[ 410. Reminded ]

surfing friendster and looking at a certain person under my friend's list reminded me of a not-so-pleasant settlement i had.

Though my old self told me to dwell on it and continue to be upset, ~~i guess~~ i will dump it in my storeroom and move on with life.

Let time do the healing.

Shannon left at 9:33 a. m..

[ 409. Quiz ]

Advanced Big Five Personality Test Results

Sociability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Gregariousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Assertiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Activity Level	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Excitement-Seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Cheerfulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Extroversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	57%
Trust	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Morality	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Altruism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Cooperation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Modesty	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Sympathy	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Friendliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	52%
Self-Efficacy	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Neatness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Dutifulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Achievement	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Self-Discipline	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	45%
Anxiety	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Anger	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Depression	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Self-Consciousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Immoderation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Vulnerability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Emotional Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	68%
Imagination	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Artistic Interests	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Emotionality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Intellect	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Liberalism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Intellectualness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%

Take Free Advanced Big 5 Personality Test

Shannon left at 12:22 a. m..

martes, noviembre 04, 2003

[ 408. Monday ]

Whew. I'm beat. after about one hour's worth answering questions, i'm really... tired. But i'm happy at the same time i guess... i mean, i'm clearing doubts about the gospel, and really pray that this guy will think about this chat that we had. Shan't go into details. ;)

Spent the whole day shuttling everywhere and eventually going to school at about 4pm to do the yacts invitation. I could totally identify with bowen man!!! I mean, there were barely souls around the campus, so we only asked like... 6 people?! Gonna get killed by junting if she hears that. Never mind... but there are some responsive ones, like this ava president... nigel... and some others. Hopefully we can do more tomorrow when i get to school for gp consultation.

Had some sorta fellowship with kai and free just now... playing guitar and stuff like that. I mean, that was what we did apart from the invitation thingy. Really felt kinda blessed... it's something that i always looked forward to in sr... yeap. As in... our own people coming in the campus and just gathering and spending time together. well, i mean, yes, kai is not one of us, but it's the feeling out of that time spent... it's really cool. Really feels great~ Hope a true care corner can birth out in sr soon... =)

Shannon left at 1:13 a. m..

domingo, noviembre 02, 2003

[ 407. Service ]

Today service was really great. Sorta felt very spoken to and relieved about several stuff. As in, finally i'm able to throw them all off my chest. No more worries... no more burdens... no more dwelling on those things. Ok, i'm trying, but sometimes it's just so tempting to reminiscence. Don't think i can hold onto them any longer anyway. It's tough leh... you think it's fun to hold on to my problems? Nah. So nonetheless, it's pretty cool leaving service so cheery and light though i seems to be the only guy left in the north. Haa. Had yong tau foo for lunch... think i really need to lose weight... i feeeeeeel so faaaaat!!!! Urgh!

Went to study with mandy after that at the airport... was supposed to teach her statistics, but we ended up chatting half the time and what? take photos of aeroplanes....! -_-" Well... did some work though... and then taught her a bit of p&c before we gave up and went down to beach road for dinner... yeah...

Shannon left at 9:38 p. m..

sábado, noviembre 01, 2003

[ 406. Project Work ]

The year ones are all madly rushing for the oral presentation now. Well, bring back memories of the same period which i singlehandedly came out with the slides for the presentation. Was playing with agnes' laptop camera and then i took some candid shots of the members to add to the slides, and it turned out pretty. Well, did i mentioned it? That our report came out best in the college, but alas, we didn't turn out the best group because i was dominating the work load. Lolx. Seems like all the year ones are pretty stressed up by the project work. it's 10% for them. Since they already didn't do well for their core subjects... well, they have to compensate it elsewhere.

Was reading one of the year one's blog, found this... was on the way to school when i saw a suicide case. The jump had not taken a long time as the police were still covering up the body and cordoning the area. suddenly, many thoughts came to my head. Why does everyone gets the same birth but dies differently? Why do some die soundly in their sleep while others may go thru a painful death battling a disease but still dying in the end. why? Is it pre-destined when we are gonna die? If it is, would god tell me when i'm going? because i have done a lot of things, haven't said a lot of things.

Guess i will feel the same way as well. And here i will say some stuff as well. I guess i've been a tough person to get along with. (Trust me.) But kudos to those who tolerated me and even lend a hand to push me on this couple of years. Many a times i wanted to give up on life. But people all came into my life to add colours and shades to make tomorrow worth living for...

To brothers and sisters in pt who gave me back the vision each time i lose it, for showering love and concern each time i sulk and become moody and feel lonely.

To mx, chris, sheral: thanks for always being there for me to listen to my woes and bitching and complains and watever. If every problem i shared was 10 cents that i'm giving you, i guess you guys may be millionaires by now. Sorry for screaming at you ~~guys~~ each time you ask me math/chem/physics. I didn't mean it. I had an ego problem remember?

To choir who sang with me for the past 2 years. Yes, we crossed each other many times (mostly the wrong way.) Especially during the christmas choir when i appeared to have this heck-care attitude towards choir. And also the many times i made my blunders but you guys still followed nonetheless.

To chuhui: ok. finally. guess i have to start it. I'm sorry.

To 1s2'02 & 2s1'03: yes... i don't have to spell out how much troubles we put each other through this two years... but i'm glad it ended on a right note. Just wanna tell you guys that i love all of you. Yeah.

So yes... to everyone out there whom i call a friend... just to tell you guys that i treasure all of you... =)

Shannon left at 4:59 p. m..

[ 405. Phlogger ]

Ok... here's a few countdowns.

10 days to 'A' levels.
27 days to freedom.
28 days to my short getaway.
33 days to graduation ball.
40 days to enlistment.

WHAT?!?!?!? 40 days to enlistment?!?!?! Grrr... that is, if i still cannot clear my broad jump. Darn.

Nonetheless, i will be setting up my phlogger in a couple of days time.
So that at least i write some stuff on my blog though i'm confined. Argh.

Shannon left at 12:18 p. m..

[ 404. Quotable Quotes ]

Well, will be rotting at home today. Until tonight when i'm gonna go study again... yeah. Before that will have cell and stuff... today's gonna be a great day man. =)

Here's a few quotes i got from places... real hilarious. Try it.

"Better make it six, I can't eat eight."
-Dan Osinski, Baseball player, being asked by a waitress if he wanted his pizza cut into six or eight slices

"Where the hell is Australia anyway?"
- Britney Spears

"The internet is a great way to get on the net."
- Bob Dole

"You know the one thing that's wrong with this country? Everyone gets a chance to have their fair say."
- Bill Clinton

"Whenever I watch TV and I see those poor starving kids all over the world, I can't help but cry. I mean I would love to be skinny like that, but not with all those flies and death and stuff."
- Mariah Carey

"I loved Jordan. He was one of the greatest athletes of our time."
-Mariah Carey on hearing of the death of the King of Jordan.

"Oh. Hebe is the only with the short hair right and got injured one right?"
-Yours truly

"Politics gives guys so much power that they tend to behave badly around women. And I hope I never get into that."
- Bill Clinton

"They misunderestimated me."
-George W. Bush

"...more and more of our imports are coming from overseas."
-George W. Bush

Ok.. here's some really touching ones...

"If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."
-Anonymous.

"The best proof of love is trust."
-Dr. Joyce Brothers

"Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it enkindles the great."
-Comte DeBussy-Rabutin

"You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her."
-Anonymous.

"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything."
-Anonymous.

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart."
-Hellen Keller

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage."
-Lao-Tzu

"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection, and not a fountain; to show them we love them not when we feel like it, but when they do."
-Nan Fairbrother

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."
-Mother Theresa

"To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult; our human loneliness is cause enough. But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be."
-Anna Louise Strong

Shannon left at 11:54 a. m..

gone. will i be back? i don't know. maybe i've started elsewhere. maybe never. again.