viernes, setiembre 08, 2006
[ 1261. Freaking Out ]
It flashed across my mind. Again. How i freaked out when it happened for the second time. How i just feel like being a child and burst out in tears. How i simply shudder in a corner and try to calm myself down. How i heard myself breathing so hard and fast, i thought i was going to get an asthma attack.
It happened again. I can't believe it. And i can't take it.
It's a small matter. But somehow it affected me. Somehow, the accident last year give me a really big phobia of vehicular accident of any sorts.
And i remembered how i screamed.
I feel so... vulnerable once again. I wonder if it's the sleep deficiency that's getting to me, or just bad memories.
This evening i just felt so lonely again. I was behaving like a weirdo, wearing a sweater, and using the hood over my head and curling myself up on the floor. It felt so cold, and i felt so alone. I just felt like flying away to a foreign land, where no one knows me. Felt like i didn't want to go home. Felt like i just wanted to escape.
To where? i don't know. |
Shannon left at 10:11 p. m..