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gone.

will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.

viernes, setiembre 08, 2006

[ 1261. Freaking Out ]

It flashed across my mind. Again. How i freaked out when it happened for the second time. How i just feel like being a child and burst out in tears. How i simply shudder in a corner and try to calm myself down. How i heard myself breathing so hard and fast, i thought i was going to get an asthma attack.

It happened again. I can't believe it. And i can't take it.

It's a small matter. But somehow it affected me. Somehow, the accident last year give me a really big phobia of vehicular accident of any sorts.

And i remembered how i screamed.

I feel so... vulnerable once again. I wonder if it's the sleep deficiency that's getting to me, or just bad memories.

This evening i just felt so lonely again. I was behaving like a weirdo, wearing a sweater, and using the hood over my head and curling myself up on the floor. It felt so cold, and i felt so alone. I just felt like flying away to a foreign land, where no one knows me. Felt like i didn't want to go home. Felt like i just wanted to escape.

To where? i don't know.

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