gone.
will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.
miƩrcoles, agosto 31, 2005
[ 995. Pre-Birthday Purples ]
Ok, i'm not exactly feeling blue, nor am i feeling fiery with energy, but somewhere in between. I'm physically drained, coupled with nearly-blistered fingers from all the plugging in and out of those darned cables today at 113. Whoever was the smart as who designed those unforgiving grooves on those cables should be placed under a curse by past, present and signallers to come. That's besides the point. With a whole lot of sleep debt, insomnia and terrible sleeping conditions of the bunk, the late morning today was really a fantastic welcome. The power burst only last a short while, from what i saw. It's not even ten yet, and i'm already struggling to keep myself awake and typing this whole chunk. Not to mention, buying breakfast for lionel and calvin before heading back east for more cable plugging. Urgh.
It's three days to my birthday and i'm ain't feeling any excitement.
hello, excitement, come knock on my door. I'll welcome you anytime.
Anyone wants to ask me out? I'd be glad to oblige. Whee! (For the record, i'm booked on friday night, saturday afternoon till night, and sunday afternoon till night.) And if anyone wish to send me cards... (muahahah... so bhb..) just drop me an sms and i'll gladly give you my address. =)
That's it for my narcissistic bit.
Anyway, i've promised to 'grow up' after my 20th birthday and stop being so narcissistic and attention-seeking.
(hear lots of skeptical laughter.)
Ok, maybe not promise. But i'll try.
(hmmm...)
Ok, i shan't even try. Forget that i even said that.
(LOLX!!!!)
Ok ok ok. You win. What do you want?!?!
(.......)
Well.... never mind. I guess this kind of growing up stuff doesn't happen overnight just like that *snap fingers*. But well, i have to admit that i've a very exhibited childish/childlike (depends on how you look at it) nature, and i'd be like a lil bro to everyone. Perhaps it's just this dire want for someone to take care of me, perhaps. Well. That's the price you pay for having a semi-dysfunctional family where your parents don't communicate, and when you're the oldest child and your brothers are not exactly easy to handle. Whether i do blame them or myself, i leave it up to your own judgements.
All in all... even though if i had a chance, i'd like to relive certain parts of my life. But i guess ultimately, i give thanks for all that has happened in my life, and it forms a very unique part of my past 20 years given by god. Like it or not, it has helped me grow in one way or another. ;)
Well well. off to sleep i go...
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his wishes
new clothes, new shoes, new bike, new friends, fantastic grades.
macbook, ipod nano, nokia n80, new wallet.
his horizons
malaysia, penang.
australia, brisbane/gold coast.
thailand, hatyai.
malaysia, genting.
malaysia, johor.
malaysia, melaka.
thailand, chiangmai.
australia, perth.
canada, edmonton/cold lake.
australia, rockhampton.
thailand, bangkok.
austria, vienna.
czech rep, olomouc.
austria, salzburg.
germany, munich.
switzerland, zurich.