gone.
will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.
miƩrcoles, agosto 10, 2005
[ 981. Festival of Praise ]
Yes, i did went down for the long-absent fop on sunday. After a couple of year's hiatus, they're finally back. I went down, with an ambivalence of expectancy and also reluctance. Somehow, i felt compelled to go down, but yet i just can't explain this fear.
Thankfully we reached there and started queueing at about slightly before 5, and thanks to gary who was to pick something up from me for bringing us our dinner. No one expected leisure park to have closed, and there goes our dinner.
Fop this year was no different from the previous times it was held: resident visitor hillsongs belting out their latest worship music, and delirious was here as well. Praise was led to a all time high, and i just had this sense of amazement, singing thousands of people simply dancing, singing and praising before the stage, before God. It's really encouraging, and i guess most people who saw the scene would have melted, would have felt god's warmth and fuzziness feeling their hearts. Be it a momentary emotion, or a truly thankful feeling, i was touched nonetheless. It's been a long time since i really enjoyed myself and immersed myself in a time of praise and worship. Forgetting all the things around me, and simply dancing, jumping, singing and thinking of God. It's been so long.
I remembered messaging jason just the night before, and somehow i'm somewhat disappointed he has yet to reply. Sent him a second message last night again, but well, to no avail as well. I really wonder what he's thinking. Haiz.
I have many regrets. rather, i guess i have commit enough mistakes to know that i can't turn back time, but all the same if i had a chance i would. Rash decisions has led to many stupid consequences. Consequences that made me sad, consequences that made me cry, consequences that made me totally frustrated and even wishing to kill myself at times. But i went through them all the same. Well, no more wishing that i haven't done those, but i'm just waiting for what the future has for me. What god has for me.
I realized i still absentmindedly key in her number each time i want to make a call.
Shannon left at 8:52 p. m..
the guy
xuan shannon male single 030985.
ntu cs year1 / vocalconsort tenor2 / hopesg nyc ntub1.
msn me.
his wishes
new clothes, new shoes, new bike, new friends, fantastic grades.
macbook, ipod nano, nokia n80, new wallet.
his horizons
malaysia, penang.
australia, brisbane/gold coast.
thailand, hatyai.
malaysia, genting.
malaysia, johor.
malaysia, melaka.
thailand, chiangmai.
australia, perth.
canada, edmonton/cold lake.
australia, rockhampton.
thailand, bangkok.
austria, vienna.
czech rep, olomouc.
austria, salzburg.
germany, munich.
switzerland, zurich.