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viernes, junio 24, 2005

[ 936. Canada Day 15: Two Weeks ]

It's been two weeks since i step foot on the land of the maple leaves. Well, I have to say that it's been a very eventful trip so far, and a much enjoyable one as well. All the office politics left at home, all the frustrations and gloomy-doomy feelings left back home. Nah, not going into a form of escapism, but it'll be nice to be happy most of the time for once. Look, i don't even have time to brood over money issues over here! Hahahaha.

Well, bso was commenting about how good my nsf life is. Let's set the context right. He was going into an argument with me again before deciding otherwise. Cuz chances are, you know what will happen. No doubt, my nsf life is a much sheltered one, but i can tell you that i have my fair share of experiences that many other nsfs won't get to experience. You people always come around telling us, if we were in army, we would die if we carried this kind of attitude. I tell you, there may be certain in-born personality traits of people, but the environment breeds the kind of character that we become. Ultimately, by saying that we're ill-disciplined, basically it means that you're slapping yourself in the face. Just like how many asians love to say how a child turns out depends on the kind of upbringing by the parents, sadly, this is also true of any hierarchal systems.

I've been pretty blessed to be in my unit though. Out of all my peers, i'm lucky to get into a coy with girls (hence there's a limit to certain things instructors can do), a platoon with the mildest pc, and narrowly escaped sispec. Getting into signals, and into the right unit, i guess i have one of the better combat-pay vocation in my bmt platoon, and even among my peers. Given that if i've been through sispec, through probably armour (like most of my pals) then eventually end up somewhere in army, where i'll probably hate ns life, officers and warrants. Things will change. People will know how to adapt to ensure their own survival. Even if that means i'll have to sign more extras if i had treaded down a different route. But it'll also means that i won't voice out matters as much as i'm doing so now. And of course, i won't be so enthusiastic in doing some things that i'm doing now. I'll just end up serving ns like everyone else, waiting for nights off, waiting for weekends, waiting for block offs and leaves... etc etc. In short, serve and f*** off.

So well, in short, don't take my, or for that matter, anyone's attitude in a certain setting and context and fit them into another environment and keep telling us how we'd die if we were there with this attitude. Attitude has to be moulded and influenced by circumstances, and nsfs are smart enough to adapt to wherever they are in. What we are today, by our fault, is because we don't know how to count our blessings. But whether is it totally our fault, it's up to you do decide.

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