my.escape

gone.

will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.

sábado, enero 01, 2005

[ 749. New Year ]

Happy new year to one and all dudes. Nothing to be extremely happy about though, now that we are in the midst of the asian tsunami crisis.

Did nothing spectacular today. Guess i'm just too tired from all that hype that happened during xmas. In fact, it wasn't even much of a celebration for xmas 2004. The tone was evidently much milder, and even the cards that went around clearly dipped. For the record, i only received cards from marcus, maxwell, hongyao, chris and a letter from liow, in order of receipt. Haha, not very surprising though. Guess this is the first year that we new NSFs experience an all-year round working schedule. Years before this, we were all lazing somewhere, wasting our 6 to 8 weeks holidays and not even doing our holiday homework (which we amazingly clear within the first week of school).

CG was held at raffles place. A weird place to hold CG, if you'd ask me. But junting had actually quite nice plans, that is, if it didn't rain. Then we would have a nice cozy corner to have our cell. Rain let us retreat into burger king. Mission for the day: take some photos that described our 2004. Lucky for me, i haven't deleted any of the photos that eric took during the xmas celebration that signals had. I uploaded the shot of the turkey.

"The turkey was my 2004. On the outside, the turkey looks big, looks delicious, and much more tender and juicier than a normal chicken. But it's not. The meat is tougher than the chicken's. Even the drumstick. People usually associate drumstick as the best part of a bird, but not for the turkey. The meat there is actually one of the toughest."

That was how i described my 2004.

Enghow shared the rubbish bin. And said something meaningful as well.

"I actually wanted to take a photo of the rubbish bin with something on top of it. It actually meant that whatever that wasn't useful, i trash it in the bin. And the stuff on top of the bin are those useful lessons that i want to take with me into 2005."

Bowen shared about his sister and derek about his diary.

The diary. I've been guilty of not using it faithfully. Derek gave it to me as a birthday present in 2003. That was when my relationship with him deteriorated. Badly. Up to know i still place that small little cushion that came with the diary on that little ledge on the head of my bed. Somehow i still can't really get over how i screwed that friendship up. I used to keep his birthday letter in the diary as well. Until the day i told myself i need to let go of the past and not be so hard on myself. That letter resides in the trays of my other cards and letters today.

Went to watch Meet the Fockers with the CG. Hilarious movie, though according to sharon it's not as good as Bridget Jones' Diary. Damn, she had to remind me that i didn't catch that movie. But then again, Meet the Fockers was kind of... too lewd at certain points. But somehow it possess a common theme to society today. The need to please people. Then you get tired of pleasing people. Then you realize that you ought to be yourself. Then you learn to accept others as who they truly are. So common, and yet we guys really don't learn sometimes...

Met cheowhoon at the mrt. Exchanged a few words with him, and realized how much he changed. Think NS has done the same to us: sober us up, and mature us all in a way or another. Physical sense apart, i guess the old mockery has died. Was actually thinking twice before saying more than a couple of hi's and bye's to him. Glad that i took his number.

Met elena on the train as well. It's really strange that you start meeting people at the most unlikely areas. Especially when it's at such high frequency. Had a little debate with her over NTU vs NUS. Branding, promoting and value. It's the same old elena. The same competitive streak, the same outspoken lady that i know since those days of 2s1. It was definitely great sparring with her again, though i was mentally tired and guess i was trailing a bit on my arguements.

2004 just swept pass under my feet, and in retrospect i realized i've accomplished nothing great. What will hold for me in 2005? That i don't know, but i know who holds my 2005. ;)

Cheers.

Shannon left at 1:51 a. m..

the guy

xuan shannon male single 030985.
ntu cs year1 / vocalconsort tenor2 / hopesg nyc ntub1.
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his wishes

new clothes, new shoes, new bike, new friends, fantastic grades. ~~macbook, ipod nano, nokia n80, new wallet.~~

his horizons

malaysia, penang. australia, brisbane/gold coast. thailand, hatyai. malaysia, genting. malaysia, johor. malaysia, melaka. thailand, chiangmai. australia, perth. canada, edmonton/cold lake. australia, rockhampton. thailand, bangkok. austria, vienna. czech rep, olomouc. austria, salzburg. germany, munich. switzerland, zurich.

gone. will i be back? i don't know. maybe i've started elsewhere. maybe never. again.