gone.
will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.
domingo, octubre 24, 2004
[ 700. Post NS ]
Been reading some blogs. Some people's talking about post NS paths. It's different. Different from the kind of choices we use to have. It's no longer going into which secondary school, even though you had to make your choices before the exams back then. It's no longer about going jc or poly, or for that matter, doing which course or subjects. It's not even about which school to go to. After jc it was even simpler: there was no choice to NS. The only apparent choice we had was either to chaokeng during bmt and hope for a sengnang posting or chiong it all out and get a command position.
Now it's different. It's not a matter of whether i'll be schooling or not, which is the question of most poly students. My grades guarantees me a place in the local uni. In fact, i was offered three places at NUS & NTU collectively, and i've secured a place at fass in NUS. But frankly, i don't know what i want. I applied to school of comms studies at NTU, but failed to get beyond the interview. I'm interested in the productions of media works, edging over towards the technicalities rather than the scope itself. Journalism, especially photojournalism would be a great option as well, except that my imbecile mastery of both languages proves disadvantageous to me.The interviewer apparently did a misjudgment of me by recommending that i try for school of design and media instead. God knows if she knew i did rather badly for my art (though i'm still pretty much a whizz at my craftworks.)
I did apply for the MOE teaching scholarship, and to cut the long story short, i failed that one too. So badly that i didn't even qualify for the local study award. Somehow that hit me rather badly, even though mom thought it was no big deal anyway. Being a veteran in the local teaching field, i have to say i pretty much trust her judgement when she advised me strongly not to take up teaching as my primary career goal. Otherwise, aim to work at the HQ rather than the frontline with the schools.
Mom offered me alternatives as well. She suggested that i try applying for other scholarships next year. Perhaps its the green mania, i actually have half a mind to sign on even though i have million and one complains about every single thing in the army. SPH seems like a good idea, if i truly wants to pursue what i really want to do. But then again, i have my reservations. It has always been my advocation that one should not pursue a career in the area of his main interests, for fear of career killing interest. With such highly stressful environments like that of Singapore, whatever interests that you first harboured before you pursued the course could jolly well be history even before you obtain your degree, much less step into the office. Well, mom gave me another alternative, the most far fetched one, ironically. She sort of challenged me to go Beijing to pursue my degree. Strictly speaking, she's not out of her mind. Beijing do have some really outstanding and recognised universities (e.g. Qinghua Uni & Beijing Int Uni) But alas, the language barrier is too much a barrier that it becomes a challenge. Will i cope? I wonder.
Just say that the choices are many but decisions are few. Well, that's me for you. I need to start thinking.
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new clothes, new shoes, new bike, new friends, fantastic grades.
macbook, ipod nano, nokia n80, new wallet.
his horizons
malaysia, penang.
australia, brisbane/gold coast.
thailand, hatyai.
malaysia, genting.
malaysia, johor.
malaysia, melaka.
thailand, chiangmai.
australia, perth.
canada, edmonton/cold lake.
australia, rockhampton.
thailand, bangkok.
austria, vienna.
czech rep, olomouc.
austria, salzburg.
germany, munich.
switzerland, zurich.