gone.
will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.
domingo, julio 25, 2004
[ 618. Supper ]
Thank you mingrui, sgt andrew and jason for accompanying me for supper today. Even though i had to wait nearly an hour for you guys. But at least you guys turned up and kept me company for tonight. =)
I'm such a sucker for company. I mean, i'm always with my friends if you realize. That's with the exception of sunday mornings which is specially reserved for mommy dearest. Apart from that, you know where to find me -- with friends!
Even if i don't have a handphone, all you need to do is to arm yourself with a xuan's phonelist, and try hard enough, you'll find me. Typically i'll either with shopping with ziwei or eric, or watching movie with enghow or mervin, attending a concert with ziwei or mingxiu, supper with joseph or bowen, having dinner with mingxiu, bitching with eric, having caesar salad with hansel and the list goes on. Well, so all in all i'm a social butterfly i guess.
Don't think i have a lot of friends. Maybe i do have lots of acquiantances, but as for friends... i do not know. Seriously. It's not up to me to say how many true friends i have, but how true i can be as a friend to others. Though i always try, sometimes i always fail. I wonder why, i feel so sad. That's why my loner nature starts sinking in. I feel i'm better off alone, without inflicting hurts of any sort to the people around me.
Conclusion? I hurt myself. Emotionally. And end up i start stinging people around me. With words, with deeds, with motives. Not all the time, but guess enough for myself to notice. Sometimes i just hate myself. But God gave me this life to learn how to love, to know what is grace. But it's just so hard... it's too hard that i wanna give up. Many a times it almost gave way. But i know he still cares. I know people still care, it's just a matter of who.
Friends... if you call me a friend... thanks a million. Think i owe you guys a lot. Love ya. =)
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his wishes
new clothes, new shoes, new bike, new friends, fantastic grades.
macbook, ipod nano, nokia n80, new wallet.
his horizons
malaysia, penang.
australia, brisbane/gold coast.
thailand, hatyai.
malaysia, genting.
malaysia, johor.
malaysia, melaka.
thailand, chiangmai.
australia, perth.
canada, edmonton/cold lake.
australia, rockhampton.
thailand, bangkok.
austria, vienna.
czech rep, olomouc.
austria, salzburg.
germany, munich.
switzerland, zurich.