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gone.

will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.

sábado, marzo 20, 2004

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The past week was interesting, and taken on a new twist i guess. Monday was the first time i ever did guard duty apart from field camp. And i jumped at the chance to go over to the SFT to do guard duty. You know me, i just have to know people, so i got to know this new guy from platoon 1. PC Oh. Interesting guy i guess. Haah. Heard much of his name, but never got to know him personally... he's one of my fellow boyfriends of agnes... haha.. =p. Nonetheless, spent half the night to talk to him. Just felt as if he's an old friend. Haah.

The rest of the week was pretty tiring for me. The guard duty disturbed my sleep pattern rather badly and i was feeling lethargic for the rest of the week. But then again, since when i don't feel sian in camp? Haah. Had quite a fair amount of time to think and reflect on the past months. The people, the friendship, the events and the life. I know i'm always getting nostalgic about such stuff, but it's just a habit to think. Especially about the people. Spent more time talking to people this week, and had some not too comfortable moments. I'm not someone who follow cliques. And doesn't really help when there are numerous in my platoon. So in essence, i only talk to individuals and don't really belong to any big group except my own section. Well, last night i had a good talk with some of my section mates over dinner at pasir ris. As we talked, i learnt more about what i experienced for the past weeks, the people, and much more about people around me in this platoon. Realized that people are ugly. Not the physical sense, but the character sense. We only work when there's an incentive to do so, not out of passion. People live for their own agenda, without a damn for this thing called platoon integrity, much less unity. I'm not saying that i'm a saint, in fact i'm sad to say i'm one of those people as well. I have to cover my back, if not i'll get stabbed. I've been stabbed at times, but as i recover and hoping that people will feel remorseful about it, they stab again. Well, think that's what they warned me that army life is all about: politics. I hate it.

Had some fun for the past two days despite the situations. We had our CO's evening and Games Day. I really envy those guys performing up there... they can really dance! I mean, if only i could dance half as well. Haah. Wishful thinking. Been a long time since i last watched a live performance... The games day actually was rather boring for me. Because i wasn't really involved in it... spent more time walking around talking to people. Haah. Ok, think i've got nothing much to say..

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