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jueves, agosto 21, 2003

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Something that i found when i went blog-surfing again... This was from perry's blog:

"...hmm... recently i have lotsa mood swings... no... i dont have pms....no...its not becoz of the approaching MARs....and no..i dont think its sch.... sigh.. i am just so sick and tired of life... i am only 18... and i sort of lost hope in life... recently i told my gp teacher,karen, that life seems so gloomy and its getting more and more depressing as u learn and know more about the world... it just makes u skeptical,cynical and pesimisstic....isnt it sad? that we live in such a world? its so ugly... after so many millenium and still human have not made the world a better place...i doubt it is possible in the future... when one generalise life...i wld be something like a journey to death... isnt it? since u can never take anything u have away when u leave....wad does dedicating ur life for others be any better? since u know...after all...they will leave the world someday and they can nv take anything away... oh btw i doubt u can even take ur memories with u. death is simple people...why dont u face it. u die. ur brain cease to work. u cant dream. u just go blank. its like losing consiousness i guess. the film rolls...and cut...-blank- and rolls on when u awake. thats abt everything there is to death. i guess i think this way since i am a non believer of any particular religion...initially when i was young i was a very faithful christian den i know something called the news paper. i read of all the sufferings and ask why. i even ask my mom why does god exist and why does babies die when god exist? she told me... pple die to reach nirvana and u know..like...erm... she said life on earth is to atone for our sins. i felt that it was rubbish and i told her i cannot accept that. since primary 5 i lost faith and i only see those why possess them as emotionally weak and mentally handicapped people. no offence though. they seek trust support and salvation in something that does not exist...yeah they may say "havin faith is believeing in something u cant see..." but well..they can eat cow dung la. if i score F9 for my chem forever and i tell the teacher to have faith that i am actually an A star student i doubt she wld say...FON the same rule applies. to me... the bible is more of like journey to the west and as for jesus... somehow even if his existance is proven i dont believe in him. as exhaggaration is common in historial text and he may just be another fanatic... i wonder if any of those thoughts ever probe ur mind pple... coz to me...human are deceptive creatures. even to themselves. they choose wad they wan to see and they often reject ans even if its right infront of them. sorry...i think alot sometimes...and ya it gets out of hand hah. no offense to pple with a religion. just voicing my thoughts.oh yar. i was taught in sunday sch that in everyone's life they are expose to the LORD 3 times.... wad do u make of premature death of babies? ancient ancestors from china/india? to a more unreasonable case....how abt the cavemens? again exhagarration from the hse of god. sigh... ok. another one. when they just say "if u dont help urself den god wont help u" if i can help myself why wld i need god? and to me... god does not exist and i think that people shld just spend more time meditating and believeing in themselves more build a clear mind one with wisdom instead of praying to nothing.... oh well... i think buddy is going to kill me for this entry. i dont think she wld even read until here. lol....woo DONT FLAME ME!!! *scary*..."

I guess he's what we call a agnostic/deistic person. It's a pity, that many, like him, began to fall again from God as they become more entrenched into the problems of the world. As they mature physically, socially and mentally to become more aware of the problems, they often run into the rut of doubting God thinking that the problems are beyond God's control, and hence, why need a God?

Sometimes i always run back into this problem as well... but one thing i remembered: God can always wipe us out and start the human race all over again... but He didn't. Because of the problem he gave Noah. God chose not to interfere with the human race because he believes in freedom of choice. If He didn't, he would have created robots, not humans. The problem of suffering... was for us, by us. The fruit eaten by adam and eve led to the downfall of man. But God still spared them, because of? Love. Not eros, but the parental kind of love. What kept us apart? Sin. God is something that we cannot contaminate. An analogy would be like, God is a bottle of distilled water. We are contaminants. By sending Jesus down to die, it acts are an disinfectant, something that remove all the toxic elements in us before we can join the ranks of the pure. Jesus took on all the toxins, all the sins, on himself, that we may be pure. That's how much God loves... God will only help those who help themselves. Well, this is rather controversial... but i do believe that as long as we take the first step of faith, God will take the remaining ones... but if we don't, even if God does take the remaining steps, we will still be away from Him because we never tried to move to him...

Mark 2:17.... On hearing this, Jesus said to them, "It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners."

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gone.

will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.

jueves, agosto 21, 2003

[ 252. World ]

the guy

his wishes

his horizons

people.

tags

gone. will i be back? i don't know. maybe i've started elsewhere. maybe never. again.

jueves, agosto 21, 2003

[ 252. World ]

the guy

his wishes

his horizons

people.

tags

gone.

will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.