lunes, julio 28, 2003
[ 207. Service ]
Yesterday was really a bad day for me...
Really felt that everything was against me.
People don't turn up for service... people's heart has took a dive...
People not responding to God, even i felt that God has chosen the wrong person...
A wrong person to do this job.
And i thought there was a stream of hope, when freedy said he had a friend coming.
Well, this was dashed... when that friend overslept and we waited in vain.
During service... i teared. Tears just flowed from my eyes as i knelt before God.
Really, i told God, i feel very tired. Can i give up? Can i let someone else take the job?
Deep down i know i can't. I've said no to God too many a time that i know if i come so far it has to be God.
But my emotions was really confused... is this what God really wants for me?
Or have i been kidding myself all along? I just wanted God to reassure me...
And reassure... He did... through the sermon... i'm greatly touched, though i still felt weary...
God, thank You... |
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