gone.
will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.
martes, junio 17, 2003
[ 120. Melancholy ]
it's been quite a long time since i last felt so melancholic...
well, today was quite a long day for me i guess.
Went down to the new vs today... had a good look at the co room.
MUCH better than what we used to have back at geylang bahru...
and they still complain. best.
Well, then went down to orchard with zhiyuan and walked around with his friends...
before going to toa payoh mos to study with mingxiu.
Studied for about 3 hours then went home...
we talked about quite a lot of things.
about what has happened in the pt group so far...
and i'm really grieved... why are things turning out this way.
all along, I tried really hard to focus on God rather than the problem...
It did pull off for a while.
Even mingxiu thinks we should take this time to really focus on God...
haiz.
Tried to call derek just now... and can't get him at all.
That didn't really help in alleviating my worries.
Yeah, not his fault... he may be too tired and slept,
but it just made me feel more mel... more insecure... and as if he's rather tired of me.
Argh.... guess my melancholy got better of me again...
Haiz... God.... if you are there.... send forth a word...
A word from you is better than thousands from the mouth of men.
God, i'm desperate. Help.
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