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i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.

domingo, marzo 16, 2003

[ 21. Another Bad Day ]

Today was a bad day... sounds so much like an add-on to yesterday eh? Well, for starters, my brother was hospitalised just because of a regular chest pain (due to asthma history). He was hospitalised only because he suffered an allergy to the medicine given to him... sharks. Well, went to see him in the morning, and saw mom looking so tired and worn out. Anyway, thus i skipped HoP and discovery group. Then went to BK, saw marcus, so no choice must have shepherding, even though i really don't want to see him at all, much less talk to him. He kept asking my what's my problem, thinking that it's because of my brother, but i can't bear to tell him that the problem is HIM. I just dun wanna see him... just totally don't feel comfortable at all. Nonetheless, he did what he had to, then i went out of BK to sit with junting. Somewhat during that shepherding i asked him about yesterday he called jason regarding excusing me from discovery... he didn't say much. Never mind. Then the people starting streaming into BK, saw jialiang, this ex-HSB guy who was my admin karkia... and many others like eng how, carrie, bowen, hongyao etc... then i saw derek!!!!!! Argh... i missed him so much after not seeing him for two weeks manz... gosh, i almost screamed when i saw him and i asked him to come out and i hugged him. Haha... before anyone thinks crooked, it's a brotherly hug. =) Really nice to know him... great brother of mine.

Service... was great, but somewhat disappointing for an anniversary. Never mind, the message was more important. The drama was a modernisation of the parable of the lost son. Was a great one... i almost teared. Reminds me of my past as well, those times i ran away from God... well, basically today's sermon was about how on Psalms 84. It's about how the psalmist longed for home... that is, for God. I was asking myself... do i have that kind of longing for God? Well, maybe not that much. So there's room for growth.... yupz. Worship was simply, yet powerful. I believed many people were ministered as many think through their life in these 12 years of Hope.

After service and PT announcements, i went up to jacob... today's his birthday. 22nd birthday i believe. was talking to him for a short while... feel very comfortable whenever i'm with him. Though we don't actually talk much, but i always feel this sense of brotherly love each time i see him. Maybe it's because he was the first person to really show me what it is to grow in Christ... Well, anyway, before i left, we hugged... for a very long time... it's been sometime since i last used him as a teddy bear... hee..

During lunch, we celebrated hongyao's and joy's birthday. Was a great celebration, really enjoyed it... reminds me of the times in which i saw how hongyao came into the church until now... how he grew, how he changed and how i also changed to accepting him... yupz. I really treasure this brother a lot... haha, guess what? my birthday present for him is a hug (again.). You must be tired of hearing how much i've been hugging people today... especially for their birthdays... such a cheapskate right? No lahz, it's priceless ok! You can't buy hugs... =) Well, marcus' absence played a part in my joyful spirit then too. I dunno how come also... but it's just that i think can't really accept him... but nonetheless... ok, you're sick of hearin this. I hugged derek again (aiyah miss him so much, so u can't blame me.) before all of us rush off like mad cows for the follow-up seminar. The follow-up seminar was really really enriching. Different kind of seminar from the usual workshops that we have. The knowledge that was impart was really radical and new... something that is really modified to suit today's challenges of follow-up and even evaxing. After the thingy myself enghow and mingxiu went for a short dinner then we go home... yupz... gotta go. Need to call the team exce people... have fun~

Shannon left at 9:00 p. m..

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