my.escape

sábado, febrero 28, 2004

[ 496. Supper ]

Just got back from supper at jln kayu with joseph and bowen... yeah. Missed out on the prayer meet today, so thought of asking some dudes out for some food n fellowship. =p Food's pretty good, fellowship's enjoyable as well.

Think i'm missing out on a lot ever since i entered bmt... like just now when i had dinner with my platoon mate... i found myself telling this to him: "Our time are no longer in our control the moment we entered bmt... no point trying to take control as well. Just live each day as it is." Haizz... to think that i also think that way. What to do?

Tomorrow is a hectic day for me... hope i can get some decent rest tonight.

Shannon left at 11:52 p. m..

[ 495. Sit Test ]

Yeah... i'm out of tekong again! Ok, for once i enjoyed my past 3 days at tekong... some more it's outfield! I had my sit test with leopard company... and my entire detail has 12 leopard guys plus me. I mean, you hear those stuff about leopard... everyone has 2 s papers, almost everyone is from a top jc. Well, so imagine how stressed i was initially. But hey! I mean, they are a well-known welfare company... imagine this: 8 km route march, we stopped every 2 km. Upon reaching the campsite, we had a half hour rest. Then another half hour to build the basha. Then 2 hours for lunch. "...!!!!" speechless isn't it? We had a culture shock too; but we gladly adjust to it. =p For both nights we enjoyed a performance from each platoon... and though they prepared songs... the hits were apparently those imitation acts of their commanders... it's the same everywhere. lolx. Talking about commanders, i can actually count the number of pushups i did for that 3 days... 20 at most...? Lolx. For ninja i'd add a zero at the back of that figure.

Ok, my team is really a greeeeeeeeeeeat bunch. love them nuts. haha. Presenting... Team Golf! Consisting of wenjie, samuel, zhongjie from leopard 1, edwin, tatwee, dobson from leopard 2, daniel, harminder, weiliang from leopard 3, bowen, desmond and chengxun from leopard 4. Though i spent barely 60 hours with them, but they really welcome me... talk to me... lame with me... haha... a bunch of warm guys. During the sit test missions, also can see lots of leadership potential in them... and some really caring guys in the midst of them... and so on. Really excellent... you know, those ocs calibre? Yeah... all the best for them!

Shannon left at 8:14 p. m..

miércoles, febrero 25, 2004

[ 494. Doodle ]

Nothing to do while waiting to go back to tekong. Blasting praise and worship music in the living room. Praying that all will be fine for tomorrow's 8km route march and sitest. Contrary to popular opinion, i'm actually raring to go for it. 30 days to pop. That's it. Results are coming out soon. Popular question around this period of time is "so how do you feel?" Nothing, i'd say. I'm more interested in what happens after that. You know, my future, my paths and everything. I know God is in control, but i'm dying to know. And i don't want a case where i make a wrong decision.

Shannon left at 4:14 p. m..

[ 493. Quiz ]

Compassion: You are there to share your sympathy
with others. People would consider you
affectionate and caring, and someone to look up
to.

Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code Matches You Best? (You may find out your best trait)
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Shannon left at 4:11 p. m..

[ 492. Medical Appts ]

Oh how i love medical appointments! They give me freedom, to roam around mainland, to rest and relax, and have some peace of mind. Ahh... how great is the feeling of sitting down, in peace, without anyone yelling at you all the time. Yeah, how i love freedom from tekong!

Shannon left at 2:28 p. m..

domingo, febrero 22, 2004

[ 491. Playground ]

Just brought my little cousin down to buy some stuff and to the playground for a few moments of fun. As he played and jumped around, i realized how easily satisfied he as a kid was. As kids... i remember spending countless hours at the castle-like playground back at tampines. Playing catching and other dumb games by today's standards. I mean... my cousin went down the same slide at least fifteen times and that sparkle in his eyes didn't wear off. The thrill shown by his wide grin and bursting enthusiasm in running to every slide really shows how easily a child can be satisfied. But can we forever remain that way...? I guess not. If someone sees me play that playground in a manner similar to my cousin, i run the risk of getting a place at hougang chalet. We are sort of forced to grow up... to see a bigger problem, face greater pressures and eventually, lose our joy that we so easily get when we are young. If only the world is as simple as a playground...

Shannon left at 7:46 p. m..

[ 490. Forever ]

I'll worship at Your throne
Whisper my own love song
With all my heart i'll sing
For You my Dad and King

I'll live for all my days
To put a smile on Your face
And when we finally meet
It will be for eternity

And oh, how wide You open up Your arms
When i need Your love
And how far You would come
whenever i was lost

You said that all You feel for me
Is undying love
That You showed me through the cross

I'll worship You my God
I'll worship You my God
I love You, I love You

Forever i will sing
Forever i will be with You
Be with You...

Shannon left at 6:24 p. m..

[ 489. Sunday Mornings ]

Here i am sitting at home, sipping coffee and typing this. Last night i got a message about a certain meeting this morning, which i shortly refuse to go thinking that i should spend some time at home with my mother. Sharply enough, my aggressor asked if it was an active order. I said otherwise, and i was slapped in the face by this message: "normally you spend more time going out with friends..." Read between the lines, and it would read: "If you had spend time on saturday night at home you won't be having this problem." If you realize, that statement has several assumptions. First, i have nothing important on outside the four walls of my house, which happen to be true. Second, my mother will do nothing and stay at home 24/7, so essential i have the freedom to spend time with her as and when my time allows. Third, if i have spent time on a saturday night with my mother, staying at home on sunday mornings is no longer necessary. However, i tell you that the second and third assumptions are flawed. My mother as a working professional who up to now is still studying, has as much social life as me, if not more. Saturday nights has traditionally been nights out for the entire household, so by staying at home i will eventually end up either at my computer, or staring at the four walls. Am i right to say that you expect me to tell my mother the next morning "Oh, i've spent time at home yesterday with your walls so today i can't accompany you. Sorry." The last argument can be easily overturned with the famous "even if you ate yesterday doesn't mean you don't need food today." principle.

I only get to go home once a week, like most guys my age now. Only during this time when i started my stint with the SAF, then i value my mother even more. Talking to her more, listening to her stories and woes, and seeing how she go on achieving greater heights despite all circumstances being unfavourable really makes me feel damn proud of her. I don't want to regret not spending enough time with her one day.

Shannon left at 8:12 a. m..

[ 488. Saturday ]

Today is really a long day for me... woke up early in the morning just to get to ocs... sianz. Had a little talk by an officer at the ocs audi. Didn't even get a decent tour of safti mi... only a guided bus tour by some retired major i think. Then we were given time to explore the singapore discovery center... only to find more than half the grasshoppers were congregating at the canteen.

After that went down to meet enghow for the IE Singapore tea session... supposedly a scholarship seminar... but struggled to keep awake during the presentation. Kind of rude to doze off. But i realize that i have dead interest in the economic landscape of singapore... much less to do anything about it altogether. The scholar they sent to give a testimony didn't looked that impressive either. I mean, you get someone who had a masters in chemical engineering to sell a scholarship from a ministry related to economics and trade to talk to us? I get no link between the two fields. To quote exact words when asked about the relation, "it's the training of the mind."

A thought came into my mind when i was in the midst of the presentation. Think i shouldn't go into a field which i have a deep interest in... because if one day my obligation to the field totally kills my interest for it, i'll be living a damn meaningless life. Whatever interest i have should be kept at leisure. That is, something which i can pursue or do at OTOT. If i have to go on and do it, whether i like it or not, it will leave me with nothing. On the other hand, if i start of studying or working in a neutral field, there's also a possibility of nurturing the interest as well. That will give me a second passion isn't it? Even if it doesn't, at least i always have something on hand to unwind. Food for thought.

Been contemplating the whole day whether i should write a letter to the forum regarding the jc restructuring of the cirriculum terms. Then again, do i have the time? Met mervin for dinner today and summarized what i would have written if i really wrote that letter.

Well, tomorrow is sunday: book in day. Time flies man. See you guys. =)

Shannon left at 12:14 a. m..

viernes, febrero 20, 2004

[ 487. JC Timetable ]

Just surfed the moe web in hope to know when results will be released... Then stumbled across this page that propose to revamp the curriculum timetable for jcs... they are intending to remove the first three months due to the high number of students changing jcs between the two intakes... reason directly quoted: The revision of JC and CI calendars was one of the recommendations of the JC/Upper Secondary Education Review in October 2002. Currently, there are 2 admissions exercises for JCs and CI; a provisional exercise in January using the results of the school preliminary examinations and another in March based on 'O' level results. Some JCs experience as much as 40-50% churning of students over the 2 admission exercises. This results in a significant amount of re-teaching of subjects, re-orientation of students and reduces the sense of affiliation among students.

well... but without this 2 admission exercises... we are gonna sacrifice a lot of things... like the chance for first three months students to be involved in the second orientation as part of the college family... and also students are unable to 'try out' the jc life... and switch over to poly if they don't like it... they are also not able to change their jcs once they enter the jc under the new system...i think that's the problem with us singaporeans once again... we want duality... and also our options to be opened as long as possible... but this change may teach us a thing or two about making serious decisions. And no more idiots playing on 'since i'm in the college first three months i should have priority'. yeah.

Shannon left at 10:52 p. m..

[ 486. PTP Revisited ]

Hi everybardy... i'm out again into civilisation... how nice is it to be here breathing mainland air. whew. Just got home though i was like out of that darn island since 630pm... was happily eating and stuffing my face with food since then. Had dinner with agnes (yes, one of the few girls in my company) and company before watching my dear platoon section 4 people eat their dinner. Those poor souls had to wait half and hour at the ferry terminal for their bus to come... hahaha... bleah.

This week was a really good week i'd say... we did a record of more than 100 pull ups within 48 hours. Ouch. Ouch and ouch. Sunday night was pt night, before that for dinner, we had to do 2 sets of 12 chin ups. Then for pt, we had to do 50 pull ups, own time own target. The next day for lunch, we did our max (8 for me), then 2 sets of 10. And finally for dinner, 2 sets of of 12. Do the math yourself. =) Monday was rather irritating... We had a total defence talk in the morning, so we had to change from pt attire to smart 4 for it. Then after that we had to change back to pt attire for circuit training. Then for lunch we had to change back to smart 4. After lunch was my technical handling test then dinner... and canteen break! Haha... Tuesday i reported sick (again). Ok ok... i know i'm in the danger of getting out of course but then again, my skin is more important (literally). From itchy... now it hurts. Ouch. The doc referred me to CGH dermatology dept... haiz. That makes me have 2 medical appointments next wednesday. On exucse uniform for the rest of the week... yeah. Haha, i sort of love the admin attire you know. Quite attention seeking when everyone else is in smart 4 during lunch. Can't really remember what's on for tuesday, except that we had stand by area. Then again, this entire week we had 4 stand by areas in 3 days. Baah. Sianz. One of which was supposed to be conducted by the CSM.. but he disappeared last minute. Oh, we did foot drills on tuesday, yeah. Wednesday was a super slack day for me... cuz everything is uniform related... haha. First was SOC. Then Drills. Then BCCT. Lolx... what a good one for me. Thursday was draining... circuits PLUS gym in the morning. Swim in the afternoon (not that i swam cuz of my skin...) and 2.4km in the evening... i deproved again... haiz. by 4 secs... cuz i was pacing bitch for 2km... then i screamed at him not to walk before i sped off. What a good friend i am.. =/ Today also slack for me... cuz today had SOC and swim only... and again, i can't do anything so heck with it. well, that's all i can remember for the week... enjoy yourself.

And yes... tomorrow i have an OCS visit... and IE Singapore scholarship seminar... hope i can enjoy myself. =)

Shannon left at 9:54 p. m..

domingo, febrero 15, 2004

[ 485. If i knew ]

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget...............................

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

Shannon left at 9:39 a. m..

sábado, febrero 14, 2004

[ 484. Bookout ]

Ok, surprised to see my post here? Yeah, you should be. By some miraculous saving grace by the One above, we have been granted 22 hours of freedom for this weekend instead of none at all. As such, i'm required to book in at 1545hrs tml. -_-"

The past week has been rather slack for me... still exhuasting though. In 3 days i saw 4 doctors, with 2 MCs. For those that still dunno, the field camp has given me that extravagant amount of insect bites which rendered my arms and some other parts of my dear body looking like measles. My back is also aching very badly. Argh. Somebody help me. So while the majority of the N coy is doing their sit test on the reclaim land, the 20 or so of us (including 10+ regulars who need not take the sit test) who were excused worked around as the fatigue party, or better known as the sai kang party.

Daily routine of the SKP includes collecting meals, filling of jerry cans, loading and unloading of jerry cans, area cleaning for both coyline and camp training shed, throwing of rubbish, opening coconuts, stealing nightsnacks, washing of fresh rations containers, sleeping in the training shed, slacking at the coyline, collecting ice, making syrup drinks, delivering food to the ABSD personnels, going for canteen breaks and so on. Batteries not included.

Everyday though i get the sleep in the bunk with the regulars while the rest of the excuse personnels have to sleep in the training shed, i still feel very lethargic. I dunno why.

Well, apparently OC has briefed the vast majority on the passing criteria of bmt. They are:
a) pass IPPT (which is no problem for me)
b) pass IFC (which means finishing the field camp)
c) pass range (which should be no problem)
d) 75% attendance
ok, the 75% attendance is the problematic one for me... i don't know how do they compute the attendance, but as the king of report sick, I run the risk of failing course because of attendance.... haiz. Wish i can get downgraded...

Shannon left at 11:55 p. m..

miércoles, febrero 11, 2004

[ 483. Confinement ]

Announcement: Ninja Company will be confined this coming weekend, 140204 to 150204. As such, there shall be no further updates until i book out on 210204.

Anyway, it seems like no one ever read this blog anymore... yeah, anymore.

leave some ghost prints can?!

Shannon left at 7:04 p. m..

martes, febrero 10, 2004

[ 482. Field Camp II ]

Ok, finally i'm rested well enough to do some write up about my 7 day 6 nite tour of pulau tekong. I'm totally totalled i guess... my eyes are sort of opened during the fieldcamp, knowing people, knowing myself even more each day. I concluded i hate the field. No bath and proper toilets for seven days, cold dry food for most meals, damp sleeping areas and what nots. My body is totally aching, from my back and neck, even my poor fingers. Try digging a shellscrape for 9 hours and you will be able to identify my pains. haha. The morale of the camp was mostly down, with the exception of the tonner ride back to company line. A lot of firsts occur during the camp, the most noted being the oc flipping out all the rubbish to check how much unused rations we threw away. So for the first time, he knock us down. And for the first time, he said that we are the worst of his batches. And again a first, he said he's gonna confine the whole company. So yeah... you can more or less predict how my whole field camp went about. Haha. 4 sites and tens and tens of km of marches and movement, i would say that tekong is actually a beautiful place beyond the boundaries of the barracks of bmtc. Though the camp was done in a rugged style and such, the beauty of nature shone on us and gave us the extra morale booster each time we sat down and peered up to a cloudless starry sky. Loved that experienced, and i was reminded of God's promise to abraham as well. I don't know why i thought of it, but it just came to me. Made mistakes during the camp like felling asleep during lectures, but learnt much as well. Guess i came back a better person.

Guess stepping out of school rendered my mental endurance much shorter than before. Even as i typed the whole big chunk previously, i need to take a short break before i resumed on this entry. I've seen much more into the human nature, particularly those in my platoon, over the past seven days. Overheard someone saying this to his buddy, "Hey, i wasn't myself for the past seven days so please forgive me if i offended you in any ways ok?" I mean, you don't give all those shit to your buddy such as stabbing him in the back and then apologise for it. Betrayal, that's what it is. My buddy commented that i totally lost it. Lost what? my mind. Screw him. I had my fair share of experiences with him, which i will not share since i'm such a nice guy. When people are tired out, there's no more energy to put on that mask that they do each day. Bare fangs show; nice traits show as well. So glad to know more people during the camp as well. Really loved some of the experiences.

Shannon left at 7:46 a. m..

lunes, febrero 09, 2004

[ 481. Field Camp ]

Field Camp is finally over. I'm finally here typing something. I'm finally lying on a decent bed. I finally got some hot food. I'm finally free. And i'm tired.

Missed me, anyone? Tell you more tomorrow. ciaoz.

Shannon left at 11:33 p. m..

lunes, febrero 02, 2004

[ 480. Philosophy ]

Been doing a bit of blog surfing before i leave for cell later on. Realize everyone has this philosophy streak in them whenever they blog, and as the greatest mimic around, everyone else starts doing so on their blog. I scratch and bang and pull and kok and shake and pat and slap my head; nothing comes out. This is the best i can do for the philosophy buff.

Shannon left at 8:41 a. m..

[ 479. Dang Ni ]

Song: Dang Ni
Artiste: Cyndi Wang

ru guo you yi tian wo hui dao cong qian
hui dao zui yuan shi de wo
ni shi fou hui jue de wo bu cuo
ru guo you yi tian wo li ni yao yuan
bu neng zai he ni xiang yue
ni shi fou hui fa jue wo yi jing shuo zai jian

dang ni de yan jing mi zhao xiao
dang ni he ke le dang ni zhao
wo xiang dui ni hao ni cong lai bu zhi dao
xiang ni xiang ni ye neng cheng wei shi hao
dang ni shuo jin tian de fan nao
dang ni shuo ye shen ni shui bu zhao
wo xiang dui ni shuo que hai pa dou shuo cuo
hao xi huan ni zhi bu zhi dao

ru guo you yi tian meng xiang dou shi xian
hui yi dou cheng le yong yuan
ni shi fou huan hui ji de jin tian
ru guo you yi tian wo men dou fa jue
yuan lai shi yao dou ke yi
wu lun shi fou huan hui ting liu zai zhe li

dang ni de yan jing mi zhao xiao
dang ni he ke le dang ni zhao
wo xiang dui ni hao ni cong lai bu zhi dao
xiang ni xiang ni ye neng cheng wei shi hao
dang ni shuo jin tian de fan nao
dang ni shuo ye shen ni shui bu zhao
wo xiang dui ni shuo que hai pa dou shuo cuo
hao xi huan ni zhi bu zhi dao

ye xu ke shi rang wo xiang de tai duo
ye xu gai hui dao mei wo
meng li he xiang yu jiu hao bu you yu
da sheng de shuo wo yao shuo

dang ni de yan jing mi zhao xiao
dang ni he ke le dang ni zhao
wo xiang dui ni hao ni cong lai bu zhi dao
xiang ni xiang ni ye neng cheng wei shi hao
la~ la~
wo xiang dui ni shuo que hai pa dou shuo cuo
hao huan xi huan ni zhi bu zhi dao
la~ la~

Shannon left at 12:29 a. m..

domingo, febrero 01, 2004

[ 478. Cheers ]

Someone close commented that my journal entries sounded depressing recently... well... perhaps. so today i shall sound loud and cheerful... lalalalalalalala.... =PpPpP

cheers, everybody. =)

selamat hari raya haji~

Shannon left at 10:39 p. m..

gone.

will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.

sábado, febrero 28, 2004

[ 496. Supper ]

[ 495. Sit Test ]

miércoles, febrero 25, 2004

[ 494. Doodle ]

[ 493. Quiz ]

[ 492. Medical Appts ]

domingo, febrero 22, 2004

[ 491. Playground ]

[ 490. Forever ]

[ 489. Sunday Mornings ]

[ 488. Saturday ]

viernes, febrero 20, 2004

[ 487. JC Timetable ]

[ 486. PTP Revisited ]

domingo, febrero 15, 2004

[ 485. If i knew ]

sábado, febrero 14, 2004

[ 484. Bookout ]

miércoles, febrero 11, 2004

[ 483. Confinement ]

martes, febrero 10, 2004

[ 482. Field Camp II ]

lunes, febrero 09, 2004

[ 481. Field Camp ]

lunes, febrero 02, 2004

[ 480. Philosophy ]

[ 479. Dang Ni ]

domingo, febrero 01, 2004

[ 478. Cheers ]

the guy

his wishes

his horizons

people.

tags

gone. will i be back? i don't know. maybe i've started elsewhere. maybe never. again.

sábado, febrero 28, 2004

[ 496. Supper ]

[ 495. Sit Test ]

miércoles, febrero 25, 2004

[ 494. Doodle ]

[ 493. Quiz ]

[ 492. Medical Appts ]

domingo, febrero 22, 2004

[ 491. Playground ]

[ 490. Forever ]

[ 489. Sunday Mornings ]

[ 488. Saturday ]

viernes, febrero 20, 2004

[ 487. JC Timetable ]

[ 486. PTP Revisited ]

domingo, febrero 15, 2004

[ 485. If i knew ]

sábado, febrero 14, 2004

[ 484. Bookout ]

miércoles, febrero 11, 2004

[ 483. Confinement ]

martes, febrero 10, 2004

[ 482. Field Camp II ]

lunes, febrero 09, 2004

[ 481. Field Camp ]

lunes, febrero 02, 2004

[ 480. Philosophy ]

[ 479. Dang Ni ]

domingo, febrero 01, 2004

[ 478. Cheers ]

the guy

his wishes

his horizons

people.

tags

gone.

will i be back?
i don't know.
maybe i've started elsewhere.
maybe never. again.